58: i love you
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Pi

Nang makalabas ng silid na iyon si Cronus ay agad na lumapit sa akin si Rocket at niyakap ako nang mahigpit. I raised a brow, as I pulled away. “What is wrong with you?” tanong ko.

He looked annoyed. “I was worried...” He looked away with a creased forehead. “I was worried for the baby.”

I pouted. “I see.”

“At sa’yo.”

Namayani ang katahimikan sa pagitan namin bago ako sumagot. “I was frightened too,” sinserong sabi ko. “...for the baby.”

Mas lalo lamang iyong nagdulot ng nakakabinging katahimikan sa pagitan namin. Parehas na pinakiramdaman namin ang isa’t-isa. Now it reminded me, this is our first day as married couple at parehas kaming nagkakailangan sa isa’t-isa. Ilang beses kong pinaalala sa sarili na hindi ako ganito.

I am blunt and all, not this awkward Pi, damn it.

Sinadya kong siglahan ang boses. “Your uncle is a psycho, akala ko talaga totoong kinidnap ako.”

“That’s what I thought too.”

“I was going to kill him,” natatawang sabi ko sa kanya. “But after getting a punch right on his eye, nagpakilala na siya at sinabing sorpresa niya ito para sa atin. You have a crazy uncle Rocket!”

He smirked at me. “And crazy wife.”

My laughter faded at napalitan iyon ng ngiwi. “You’re the worst husband ever.”

“Invalid, I haven't even showed you what type of husband I am.”

Oh fucking hell that smirk makes me want to pull him and just fuck him on the floor of our new home, courtesy of Cool Vander.

Pwede naming binyagan ang sahig.

Or ang lababo.

The new couch.

Every corner of the house!

Damn it, why is everything about this man so arousing?!

“The house is nice and cozy,” wika ko at kinagat ang pang-ibabang labi. I need to let go of my horny thoughts right now. But you cannot exactly blame me okay? He should stop being hot if he wants me to stop being horny.

Inilibot niya ang paningin sa paligid. “It is.”

But how do I get to tell him we can try every corner of this house?

This is so much torture.

“Hmm, good enough for more kids.” I guess that was enough for him to know we should be making more kids. “You know, we.. we can make a whole basketball team tapos tuturuan mo sila－”

He frowned. “I don’t even know how to play basketball.”

“What the fuck are you? Sinong lalaki ang hindi marunong magbasketball?! Aren’t you a guy?” It was a surprise to know he doesn’t know it! Most guys do! Hindi man magaling lahat, at least marunong.

“Do not be such sexist Titless, hindi porket lalaki required na agad na marunong sa basketball! My cousin Gray doesn’t know either but...” He made a bitter smile and looked way. “...Cooler is so good in it.”

Muling namayani ang katahimikan sa pagitan naming dalawa. What the heck is wrong with the both of us? Nag-isip ako ng paraan upang hindi kami maging awkward. Lumapit ako sa kanya at niyakap siya.

“Okay, don’t worry about it. I will practice basketball so that one of us knows and will teach our kids,” sabi ko sa kanya. He pulled me away from him and looked at me with confusion in his eyes.

“What the hell?” he asked.

“Why?”

“Seriously?” he deadpan.

Mabilis na tumango ako at muling yumakap sa kanya. Can he just tell I want us to make more babies? But Rocket is nowhere near that thought so I have to be frank and tell him right away.

“Can you please undress?”

Mas lalo lamang siyang naguluhan. “W-what?”

“No nevermind, I’ll do that for you,” sabi ko at agad na lumapit sa kanya, pulling the waistband of his jeans. Mabilis na hinuli niya ang kamay ko at inalis iyon . sa pantalon niya. Talaga lang ha?

“What are you doing?”

“Come on, it’s a new home we should be exploring－”

His jaw ticked as he pulled a sigh. “I was dead worried about you and all you could ever think is sex?” Okay his voice is mad. And he sounded really really mad. He’s making me mad too.

“Pero ayos na ang lahat ngayon, it’s your uncle’s prank, kailangan mo pa bang mag-alala?”

My reply just made him more angry. He smirked at me, that one annoying smirk. “I didn’t know you think as shallow as that Titless. You know our lives, sooner or later ay maaring mangyari ang ganoon! Hindi mo alam kung gaano ako natakot but then－”

He is damn raising his voice at me.

“Rocket you’re yelling!”

“Yes I am dahil hindi ako natutuwa!”

This is making me angry too. Ano ba ang gusto niyang mangyari, matapos naming malaman na prank lamang iyon, mag-alala pa rin kami? Iyon ba ang gusto niyang mangyari?

It made me punched his chest all of my might. “Sa tingin mo ba noong tinangay ako hindi ako nag-alala? Natakot? Feelig mo chill lang ako? Damn it Rocket you have no idea how scared I was dahil nilayo nila ako sayo! I was so scared I’ll die or my baby at maiiwan ka namin. I’m not saying you have to die with us both okay, but damn all I want is we all live!”

Damn pregnancy mood swings, I’m already crying.

“Tapos ngayong ligtas tayo magagalit ka pa rin? Ano bang problema mo? Was it wrong to be turned on by someone you love? Fine! From now on, no more sex no more touching! Iyan ang gusto mo diba? Okay! Walang problema!”

His face was priceless as he looked at me. “Anong sabi mo?”

“No sex, no－”

“Hindi ‘yan,” sagot niya. “What you said before that.”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. What I said－ oh shit. Sana kainin na lamang ako ng sahig, sana may dumating na UFO at kunin ako, sana may bumagsak na comet sa akin or anything as log as I will disappear right this very moment.

“Ulitin mo ang sinabi mo.”

Umatras ako tinakip ang isang kamay sa bibig ko.

“Say it again Titless.”

“No!” mabilis kong sagot at agad na tumakbo papunta sa pinakamalapit na silid. If I was a second late in closing the door, he would have been inside the room too and force me to say it again. Why am I so stupid, why did I let that slip off my tongue?! ilang beses kong pinalo ang ulo upang parusahan ako sa sariling katangahan. Shit shit shit! I won’t be opening this door any minute now! Nakakahiya, bakit ko ba iyon nasabi? I was just angry and then words I wanted to express just came out like that! Right on our first fight as married couple.

It wasn’t a week after our wedding, away na agad. Wow, just wow.

Malakas ang katok niya sa pinto at kinakabahang kinagat ko ang kuko. “Open this door now Pi! Let’s talk!”

“No, ayaw ko! Go away Rocket!”

“Titless!”

“Ayaw ko! And do not even try to destroy the door, if you do I swear ipapalapa kita sa bagong biling mga wild animals ni Cronus!” Huh he should know I am not joking. Kanina ay ikinuwento sa akin ni Cronus ang mga hayop na bagong bili niya. The man was so proud of it kahit ang iba roon ay smuggled dahil ipinagbabawal. That man has the balls to do anything illegal!

“Pi, please open this door!”

“Ayaw ko nga kasi!”

Patuloy pa rin ang kanyang pagkatok at patuloy pa rin ang panginginig ko dahil sa kaba. Bakit ba ako kinakabahan? Uh, baka mas lalong maging awkward ang lahat sa pagitan namin!

“Pi!”

No.

No.

No.

No way!

“Mayamaya ay tumigil ang kanyang katok ngunit hindi ako nakarinig ng mga papalayong hakbang. I stood behind the door and pressed my ear.

“Alright, can we at least talk?” tanong niya sa malumanay na boses. He’s still there. Naririnig ko ang kanyang pagbuntong hininga.

“O-okay.”

“Answer me honestly, okay?” he said at napatango na lamang ako kahit alam kong hindi niya iyon nakikita. His voice sounded different, gone was the mad and shouting rocket. He’s more gentle with the way he speak now. Still, hindi iyon gagana sa akin! Hindi ko siya pagbubuksan ng pinto! Manigas siya!

“What do you exactly feel about me?” tanong niya. I gripped hard on the door knob. Making sure I won’t twist it open, I put on the safety latch. “Answer it honestly, please.”

“...I feel l like I want to do you－ scratch that, I want you to do me like all of the time.”

I heard him tsked from behind, he said I should answer honestly and I just did!

“Like when you see me, what do you feel?”

“I feel excited and my mind wanders to us... having sex.”

He tsked again.

“Kung wala ako, anong nararamdaman mo?”

“I feel sad because I know you’re nowhere near to fuck me.”

He sighed and tsked again and again!

“What... what if... what if I am with another woman, how do you feel about that?”

Okay that question made me mad and wanted to crush his balls as much as I could ngunit hindi ko iyon magagawa nang hindi binubuksan ang pinto so how about no.

“I feel like I might murder you and your mistress. Mister Morisson, I am an advocate of women and infidelity is a no-no. And I feel so envious and angry at that woman, I should be the one fucking you, not her!”

Muli siyang napabuntong-hininga at tila anumang oras ay magagalit na.dahil sa mga sagot ko. He’s the one who told me to be honest!

“Then how about when you’re done fucking me?” he asked, “how do you feel?”

“Hmmm, satisfied.”

I could imagine him gritting his teeth. “Then how do you feel about me when I have your sexual urges satisfied?”

Napangiti ako sa sarili ko. “I want to cuddle with you. When you hold me in your arms, I feel like it’s my home, I feel safe. When you kiss my hair, I feel so much blessed to have you. When you tell me how beautiful I am despite all my scars and tattoos I feel so perfect. And if I think of losing you, I feel like that’s the end of me. I think I’m crushing on you, damn i’m too old for that. I think I do really... love you.”

I hate myself for being honest like that. I should have keep it to myself, sana sinarili ko na lamang iyon. Even if the burden in my chest was lifted after I told him how I exactly feel, natatakot akong sa huli ay hindi iyon masusuklian.

Hindi siya ngsalita nang matagal at inakala kong wala na siya roon ngunit ilang sandali lamang ay muli siyang nagsalita. “Open this door Pi.”

Huh he thought! I just confessed, more reason to say no.

“No!” matigas kong tanggi.

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A/N: I miss Ticket couple so much huhu

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