42: not pleased
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Pi

It's been almost two weeks since we got back from our vacation and two weeks since I stayed almost all day in my room. I was feeling nauseous and I figured out I needed to rest after our flight.

And I've been resting for two weeks but I still haven't feeling better lately. Nasusuka ako sa umaga at madalas mahilo.

Today's one of those days. I rolled in bed watching my side table calender. Siguro may jetlag pa ako.

Or maybe I wasn't used to the food but who am I kidding? Most of my life was spent abroad kaya malabong naninibago lamang ako sa pagkain.

Food poisoning is out of the choices too dahil hindi naman ako nababanyo.

Tatlong katok ang narinig ko at mayamaya ay bumukas ang pinto. "Yow sis, ayos ka lang?"

It's John. Siya lang naman ang may lakas ng loob na pumasok sa silid ko, without my approval. I rolled on my bed at nagtalukbong. "What's that smell?"

"What smell?" tanong niya.

"That awful smell! Maligo ka nga Juan!"

He frowned at me. "Kaliligo ko lang at nagpabango ako nung pabango na pasalubong mo sa akin noong gumradweyt ka. Magpapalaam lang ako, gonna hang out with some friends sis bye!"

"Uh, okay go away, uhhh! Ang baho mo John!"

"Whatever sis, someone's here to see you," pagbibigay alam niya.

Mas lalo akong nagtalukbong. "I'm not in the mood to entertain any guest right now--"

"Thanks John," narinig kong sabi ng pamilyar na boses. Wait, what? Tinanggal ko ang kumot ay natanaw si Rocket na tinatapik sa balikat si John. "You may now go, thanks again."

"No problem Vander bro," sagot ng kapatid ko at umalis. Nang maisara niya ang pinto ay umupo ako at tinaasan ng kilay si Ryu.

"What are you doing here Rocket?"

Umupo siya sa kama at inilapag ang kanyang dala na backpack. "You said you'll be gone for a week, it's been two weeks."

I rolled my eyes. "I'm sick, teka don't tell me!" Tinakpan ko ang bibig at nakakalokong ngumisi sa kanya. "Kunwari ka lang eh, aayaw ka pa tapos..." sinadya kong bitinin ang sasabihin at tumalon mula sa kama. "Dont worry, I have the sex toy with---"

I heard him cussed. "Hindi iyan ang ipinunta ko rito."

"Oh," bulalas ko. Kinuha ko ang paperbag na naglalaman ng binili ko para sa kanya. "But since you're here, dalhin mo na rin 'to."

He growled. "I told you I don't need that."

"Binili ko na rin ang strap. Plus a tentacle dildo for your--"

He grabbed my arm and forced me to sat on the bed. Nahulog ang paperbag at nalaglag doon ang mga binili ko.

His face was disgusted as he sighed. "You... You're really crazy." Hinablot niya ang kumot at tinapon iyon sa sahig upang takpan ang nagkalat na mga sex toys.

I pouted in annoyance. Those toys... I bought it for him! Could he just appreciate my thoughtfulness?! Ramdam ko ang pangingilid ng mga luha ko.

My lips quivered and there, I really teared up!

Over some sex toys!

Damn it.

"Shit!" bulalas niya nang makitang umiiyak ako. He panic and he looked lost, unsure what to do. Bigla niya akong kinabig palapit sa kanyang dibdib at hinaplos ang buhok ko. "Stop crying."

Sa halip ay mas pumalahaw pa ako.

"Titless, stop crying."

But I really want to cry!

"I made the efforts of choosing them for you... Tapos... Tapos ayaw mo?" Shit, why am I getting emotional over some darn sex toys?!

I can feel him kissed the tip of my head. "Alright I'm keeping it."

I pulled away and looked at him with wide eyes. "You will?"

Tumango siya. "Yeah but will I NEVER use it."

Useless.

But at least he will keep it.

"Oh Rocket I'm sure you will use it someday. Anyway, why are you here?" tanong ko at kumuha ang ilang facial wipes upang punasan ang mukha.

He frowned and reached for the wipes at iniangat ang mukha ko at pinunasan iyon. "Why the hell  do you always end up smudging your mascara?"

I pouted. "Simply because they're not waterproof, duh. I was supposed to see you to give you that keepsake but I feel tired and sleepy kaya matapos mag-ayos ay hindi na ako tumuloy at nanatili na lang ako sa bahay. Hindi mo pa sinasagot ang tanong ko, why are you here?"

He sat straight, with a serious face. "John said you're sick. For days."

"Yup."

"And you always have morning sickness."

I shrugged. "Guess I always wake up on the wrong side of the bed."

"And you now eat food you hated so much."

I flipped my hair and smiled. "Change is good. Wait, why would John tell you that?" Ah, minsan talaga ang sarap sakalin ng kapatid ko. Why gossip to other people over my grumpy days? "Madaldal talaga 'yan si Juan. Nang nagkasingaw ako dati, pinagsasabi rin niya sa mga kaibigan niya. When I passed the CPA board exam, he announced it to the whole school--"

"That's not the point here Titless," he said in distress. "What if you're pregnant?"

My smile fell.

What?

"What?!" I started freaking out.

I. Am. Not. Pregnant!

“I am not pregnant!” I cannot be pregnant!

Oh my god, no way!

“When was the last time you had your period?” kalmadong tanong niya.

Fuck.

Shit.

That is something I cannot remember. In fact, I think I’m delayed. No way!

“I can’t be pregnant! I’m sure I’m not!”

“We didn’t use a condom the first time we did it,” sabi niya.

Which is true. I was so distracted with him and all I could ever think of is him inside me kaya hindi na sumagi sa isip ko ang condom. The second time we did it, he still has that effect on me and it’s only after few days I realized we didn’t use condom again.

Naging kampante pa rin ako, since I’m always in birth control since then. It’s just that I always make sure to use condoms when I had sex with the guys I’m with before but with Rocket... he gets me distracted that much.

Now we are in dilemma in case what he’s saying is true.

“Oh my god no!” napasabunot ako sa buhok ko. “I need that thing... you know that one will help you know.”

“Stop freaking out,” pagkalma niya sa akin. “You mean Pregnancy test kit?”

Mabilis akong tumango. “Yes, yes I need that one.”

Shit now I feel like crying again. I don’t want a boyfriend, a husband, bff, more so a baby! They’ll be more of emotional weakness. If someone means that much to you, gagamitin iyon ng mga halang ang kaluluwa laban sa’yo. Sapat na sa akin si Daddy at si John.

I don’t want a baby... please no... I'll be a worse mother. If I’ll be at gunpoint and I have to choose between my life and my child, malamang pipiliin kong mabuhay ang anak ko. If that happens, my child will grow up without a mom.

That is some sort of bad parenting.

So please no, I cannot be pregnant! I cannot be a mom!

“Where’s my PT, I think I have some...” Tinangka kong tumayo at maghanap ngunit pinigilan niya ako sa braso.

“We’re still not sure, am I the only one you’re fucking at the moment?” tanong niya.

My jaw ticked. That is so so so so mean to ask!

“Yes! And if hindi man, I’m certain I only forgot  to remind just YOU to wear condom! Pus... I’m in birth control so ... so I don’t really think...argh, I need a PT kit!"

“Relax Pi, no need to freak out. Here, I brought some PT.” Kinuha niya ang backpack na dala niya at binuksan iyon, pouring the contents on the bed.

Oh great.

He brought like a hundred of pregnancy test kit. In fact, iyon lamang ang laman ng kanyang malaking backpack.

Great. Who’s freaking out the more between us huh?

I grabbed a handful and run towards the bathroom. Shit, please no. Just no.

***

RYU

I remember I just came out of the shower when I received that phone call from her brother John.

“Hey Vander bro.”

“What?”

“Sorry to bother you but I cannot reach Zero at the moment,” sabi niya at hindi ko maiwasang mapangiwi nang marinig ang pangalan ng aso ni Titless. “And aside from him, ikaw lang ang alam kong kaibigan ni big sis so can you help me with her?”

Titless... what trouble is in again now? I think it’s not really that serious, considering John doesn’t sound sa worked up. “Bakit, anong nangyari sa kanya?”

“Nothing really unusual except that she ate cherries, enjoyed yuckie cereals and asked for hotdogs every meal and during snack time. Kanina ay nahuli ko siyang pumapapak ng coffee beans, that’s unusual of her. Also, she always had morning sickness, mood swings and emotional changes. She’s being emotional while watching Peppa Pig!”

What?

“Diba magkaibigan naman kayo ni Big sis? Do you know any guy she dated because I did my research Vander bro. Those  mood swings, cravings and emotional shifting... they’re early signs of pregnancy. Oh my Vander bro I am going to be an Uncle!” he sounded happy, and hopeful.

Oh shit. Right, he has no idea about us. Ayaw ko mang isipin ay hindi ko maiwasang kabahan. The first time we did it was almost two months ago, without any protection. What if... what if...

I’m going to be a dad kung sakaling totoo man, at sa akin iyon.

Am I ready to be a dad? Seriously, hindi pa iyon sumagi sa isip ko kahit minsan but the thought of having a little angel somewhat excites me. I want to be a father, that’s for sure.

Then I will be a good father to my kids, unlike my old man. I will spare my time at hindi ko hahayaang maramdaman nila ang pangungulilang naramdaman ko noon.

But... still this is all assumptions. Being nauseous, the cravings and mode swings doesn’t really mean one’s pregnant. Isa pa, sa tingin ko ay nagbi-birth control naman si Pi so it’s too early to conculde.

“Hello vander bro? Still there?”

Oh, I almost forgot. “Yes. Hey John, how about I’ll go to your house and talk to her?”

“Mabuti pa! Hindi siya lumalabas ng kwarto. My sis is a social butterfly... well not really, but she loves socializing. It’s alarming to see her this way. So when are you coming here?” tanong niya.

“Now.”

So here I am, nakaupo sa kama ni Pi at nakatingin sa saradong pinto ng banyo kung saan siya pumasok limang minuto na ang nakalilipas. Tumayo ako at naglakad-lakad sa loob ng kanyang kwarto, constantly glancing at the door.

When the hell is she coming out of the darn bathroom?

Parang gusto kong sirain ang pinto at pasukin siya roon ngunit kinalma ko ang sarili ko. I opted to picked up the paper bag with the sex toys in it, cringing at the sight. Kung mangyarig buntis man siya at ako ang ama, whoah, I am going to be the father of a psycho woman’s child.

I tossed the paper bag on the bed and started walking back and forth again.

Maya-maya ay lumabas siya na may hawak na tatlong pregnacy test kit.

Sinalubong ko siya. “We have to wait a little--” She shut me up by handling me the PT kits.

There were two lines on it.

I’m going to be a dad!

I’m internally happy but I chose to hide it with a smirk.

Nang tumingin ako sa kanya, she doesn’t look happy.

She looked screwed.

She’s definitely not pleased.

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