39: cry
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Pi

I was all in my underwear with the robe on the floor and Rocket has been munching my mouth for quite some time in a slow passionate pace. I tried reaching for his belt's buckle but he caught my hand and keep my it off him.

Which is unfair.

I need to touch him. I want to touch him!

But he's not letting me, instead he was enjoying the slow kisses he is showering me. He wasn't even grabbing my hips. Hindi siya naging mapusok sa pagkakataong ito.

I slowly pulled away and sank so that I could give him a head but he pulled me up and kiss my lips again.

Again and again.

What the hell, what am I high schooler who can get enough with kisses, necking and petting?!

"Rocket..."

He hummed a reply, trailing sweet kisses on my neck.

"I want you. In my mouth."

"No."

"Why?!" Who would turn down blow job?!!

I reached down on his crotch and man, the devil is hard so why say no when I can make him harder and cum? This is pissing me off.

He's dominating me. He doesn't want me to do the hardwork yet he's slow in giving me pleasure. I want him inside me, like NOW! When will he stop that slow lazy kisses?!

My breathing halted when he unhooked my bra, eyeing my twins like they're part of the wonders of the world.

What now? I'm expecting a disappointing one, but whatever. That's not the point here.

He spun me around and kiss me from behind, brushing off hair from my neck.

"There's not much of a difderence, right?" I asked, biting my lower lip to prevent a moan from coming out.

I can feel him smirk against my skin.

Huh, that bastard!

I am fond of quick pleasures, in fact all of the guys I've been with before, we do it fast. We kiss, get naked and thrust. That's it.

But Rocket... Rocket's giving me pleasure that I didn't think my body can handle. His slow kisses, his burning touches, his sincere gazes... It's all new... And surprisingly made me aroused more than I ever felt in my entire life.

Tinanggal niya ang natitirang kasuotan ko at tinitigan ako na tila ba isa akong mamahaling bagay. I'm never insecure of my body but for the first time I felt ashamed as he looked at me kaya tinakpan ko ang maseselang bahagi ng katawan ko.

Napakunot ang kanyang noo. "Don't."

His voice is domineering that it made me obey in a hearbeat.

"B-bakit ako lang ang nakahubad?" I finally asked.

He smiled. "Later, just let me enjoy the view. You're so beautiful, do you know that?"

I rolled my eyes. "Hindi mo naman ako kailangan bolahin. Are you getting naked or I'll wear that robe back?"

The devil was obedient enough to remove his shirt before carrying me to the bedroom.

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I don't know but it's odd to be in this position.

Cuddling with the devil.

My cheek is pressed against his chest and his arms were wrapped around me, drawing swirls on my inked skin.

"How many men have you had sex with?" bigla niyang tanong.

What the hell?

I tried to pull away but he didn't let me. "What the fuck Rocket that is an offensive question to a woman. And why do you ask, curiosity?"

It's really offensive, at least for me. Why would he ask about that? I'm sure as hell my genitalia doesn't seemed like a lot of dick actually been. How could he ask that when he just had me at two orgasms?!

"No, just want to support a theory."

"Whatever. Why, do you think my pussy is overused--"

He groaned in disagreement. "That is beyond my question."

I peered at him through my lashes. "What theory?"

"That you use sex to forget," wika niya.

"Ha?"

"You're not well Pi, even if you keep holding on, you cannot deny to me that you do things to forget the bad memories. So here comes sex, your way of getting numb with all the trauma you--"

Padabog na bumangon ako at hinila ang kumot upang takpan ang kahubaran. "Shut up Ryu, you know nothing about me."

I'm starting to get angry. How dare him to tell it to my face.

"No, but it's clear to me that you choose sex to handle the pain and sorrow that you've experienced all these years. You resort to being brutal even though it's a bad memory for you. Those things somewhat make you escape at least for a short time possible. Bumabalik pa rin sa alaala mo ang mga nangyari noon so you need activities that will help you forget. You said yourself that you didn't cry that time right? The memories of of it is still haunting you."

I felt my lips quivered in anger. "Wala kang alam!"

He sat up. "But I know enough that you used violence and sex as mechanism. Let go of it Pi---"

I picked the gun I always had under the pillow at itinutok iyon sa kanya. My hands were shaking and I don't know what to do.

Rocket crossed the line.

Wala siyang alam tungkol sa akin.

How could he say it all like it's just simply like that?

Ni hindi man lamang siya nagulat. He just blinked at me, no sign of fear in his face.

"H-how dare you.." Gusto kong umiyak at sumbatan siya ngunit hindi ko magawa. Natatakot ako na baka bumalik sa alaala ko ang lahat ng nangyari noong araw na iyon. It was too much to handle for a kid like me.

Huminga siya nang malalim. "Do not bottle it all up Pi, one day it may spill all over and get out of your control. You know what? I was in the same boat with you. I was young and I thought I lost the people I love the most. I lost my mom and little brother. What's worst is that my Dad is alive but it feels like I lost him too. It was hard but I've looked into the brighter side. There were still people that remains and life doesn't end there. Yes, I've change from who I was before but unlike you I didn't resort to brutality and sex."

Unti-unti niyang hinawakan ang kamay kong may hawak na baril at ibinaba iyon. He pulled me towards him and I felt my jaw ticked.

I'm still angry.

Wala siyang alam sa akin, sa pinagdaanan ko. What is he, a shrink who just rub it into my face what's wrong with my head?

I'm fine...

Naramdaman kong hinawakan niya ang pisngi ko. "The ink in your skin are the proof that you made it through, it was tough wasn't it?"

Tiningnan ko lamang siya nang masama at hindi nagsalita. I don't know what to say anyway.

"It's okay to cry Pi."

No. I hate crying. My mom told me to be strong that's why I didn't cry. Kahit gustong-gusto ko nang umiyak habang nakikita siyang umiiyak at nagmamakaawa.

She was bleeding all over, full of bruise and cuts because of the torture she's been through pero hindi siya nagmakaawa para sa buhay niya.

She begged for me.

I won't cry because she was being strong for me. Kahit ilang beses siyang kinuryente, pinaghahampas ng kung anu-ano at lahat, she only wished for my safety and freedom.

I know my mom's an idiot.

How could she begged for me when all I got is a wound on the head samantalang siya ay halos mamatay-matay na?

She told me I will be fine.

Even in her dying state, nakuha pa niyang ngumiti sa akin.

I hate it. I hate to remember it.

Ramdam ko ang mga luha ko na nagbabadyang umagos ngunit pinigilan ko iyon. Crying won't get her back. Ano pang silbi ng pag-iyak ko? Kahit lumuha pa ako ng dugo, hindi na maibabalik ang buhay niya.

I was suddenly pulled towards Ryu's chest at dahan-dahan niyang hinaplos ang buhok ko.

"You know it's okay to cry," he said in a soft voice, as I can feel his tiny kisses on top of my hair. "It won't get her back but it will make you feel better... Even a little."

And I did it.

For the first time, I cried to my heart's content remembering all the bad memories of that day.

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A/N: This is supposed to be a sexy chapter, not sad but dunno why I'm sad.

Anyway, this is me watching some readers go like

"eW aYoque C pI pAra kaY RyU! Sana hind3 sila magkatuluyan!!!!

Me:

Readers: V!ctoria onleh or RyuMb3r oR 3ls3 I WOnt r3ad Th!S BOoK!!!!

Me:

Also me:

My book, I get to decide kiddo.

And me watching few go like:

" Oh no I don't want Pi, she's not for Ryu" to "Oh ma ma my! Pi is so cute sana sila na talaga ni Ryu"

ShinichiLaaaabs ✒️