Why won't anyone listen to me?

Do they not notice?

This not so little girl,
crying and hating herself
Everyday.

I hate my thoughts.

I hate my actions.

I hate myself.

How can God
love such a
hateful person?
sick person?
unlovable person?

How can he love me?

Surely,

I am just as bad as a Christain killer from the Bible.

Just like Saul/Paul.

Shalom.