My friend musings21 was grooving to some beats and I asked her what she was playing and this is what she says—

Another day, the same monotone routine as I plug my ears slowly humming to Xanny as the lyrics hit my heart hard at right places, I've tried to keep hidden. "Better off without them, they're nothing but unstable" has been nothing but the truth with friends I've being with,always making the same mistakes yet blaming the circumstances. Xanny by Billie Eilish has always made me realize  how their habits have affected me in every possible way and how necessary it is to cut out toxic people from your life even if you consider them friends.

Switching onto the next song, This town I wonder how often does this idea cross your mind, of escaping the town you've lived and cherished? Not a many times untill you realize how everyone you've known is moving at a quite faster pace in life, following the same old trend of the town of graduating, finding love then getting married and having kids. But you are afraid to fall prey to this routine. you've always had bigger dreams than this town, something beyond and more compelling. You've wanted to cross boundaries, see  what it's like on the other side of the world. You don't want to live your life in circles, you've just craved more than the borders set , this song has made me realize how normal it is to feel this way.

I walked across the street with Empty blaring on repeat. Something heavy settled under my skin as I ripped of my coat to hang it onto the wall, the thought has been revolving ever since. We've been slaves to the norms of our society unknowingly and it scares me how we've easily accepted it. We don't  even question  how even being different is seen as threat. Being normal or blending in shouldn't always be the answer. It's scary how hard we try to keep ourselves together for the sake of the society. It brings in so much of self doubt costing one's self esteem to hit rock bottom. Empty has made me understand that the only way you'll break a moulding is by not fitting into it.

As the sun creeps down, I silently crawl to the warmth of my bed, with the radio playing faintly in the background. My eyebrows raise up in excitement to the sound of “cuz we were just kids when we fell in love, not knowing what it was”.I get onto my feet slow dancing to the beats, as I feel the raw emotions and innocence build up within me while the city coats in white, all dressed with snow  my eyes gleaming child like realizing hoe beautiful is love to us as a kid to the monster it becomes as we grow. Perfect, exactly describes our first childhood crush we never confessed to, some did get a chance to, while some didn't.

Stay safe, stay indoors, chill and create your playlists.

Love,
Lia.