000 : dead love letters

dear josh,

i died exactly one year ago today, so why does your heart still ache for me? josh, please do not look back and think that it was your fault. i know we argued bad that night, but i was the one who got in the car.

you tried to tell me not to, you begged me not to go. you grabbed onto my hand and i pulled mine away, looking at you in utter disgust. i remember even being shocked at my own expression when i caught sight of it in the mirror in our hallway. i hope you didn't notice how i looked at you. if you did, im sorry.

but there's nothing i can do about that now, is there?

no, because i'm dead and you're not.

i regret too much, alas there's nothing that can be done.

so i write these letters because there's something about putting it all down on paper that can maybe just maybe help me figure out exactly what i don't regret.

i guess you could call these love letters of sorts.

dead love letters

-love, julian

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this is a boy x boy fic. originally this was going to be a hetro simon fic but then i decided no, there's too many of those so now its a gay josh fic so enjoy! <3