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Diya pov

"You are always making me walk out of our house like a thief Arju" he laughed from the other side.

"What?" I asked him angrily as climbing this huge wall of our house is a difficult task, "you are speaking loud Diya" immediately I shut my mouth and looked around to conform I was caught by no one.

"stop giving reactions and come out quickly" he said like watching me in live. With much difficulty, I jumped out as he is standing there hiding his smile, "I am not as expert as you Arju. Stop laughing" I hit him climbing on the back of his motorbike.

Soon we started our destination that I have planned to celebrate his birthday, It's a simple unused place and I decorated it's a roof for him.

After reaching the place we both climbed up and found that the lights were off, I went to switch it on but my luck it's not working, "Arju help me" he came and saw it but it's not working.

He laughed, "is it your surprise?" unknowingly tears started to flow down my cheeks, he quickly wiped it cupping my face, "Don't cry Diya I was just kidding" he made me sit on the table as he kneeled, "your face will do the duty these lights failed Diya. All these surprises, decorations are just a small source of happiness for me but those smile on your lips and your pinkish nose and the eyes whose speak a lot will be my happiness. I don't need surprises your effort is the best thing that can make me happy" I felt too happy to hear his words.

"But I spoiled your birthday Arju" I cried, "You still can make it special Diya" I wiped my tear but still I want to make it special in any way he wishes, "How?"

He took something out of his pocket, it's a beautiful plain gold ring, I sat there frozenly, "I am not rich Diya but will you accept my me along with this ring?" I wasted no time and hugged him by putting my hands around his neck crying hard.

This is the first time he officially declared that he loves me, "I love you too Arju. Money is not much big than my Arju"

He broke the hug and insert the ring into my hand, "You will be with me till the end right?" I quickly nodded, "till my last breathe" he kissed my forehead lovingly. 

The whole family decided to surprise him at midnight as it's his first birthday he is celebrating with the whole family and this will be the first time in the past 5 years I am missing his birthday celebration, anyway I decided to join it hiding behind a pillar at the dark end of the living room not accepting their continuous request to join them for celebration.

Sharp at midnight everyone went to surprise him excluding Advik, me, and his parents a few minutes later the whole family gathered in the simply decorated living room. He faces is not sleepy he might have been awake all this time but there I can sense something he is expecting.

Pravana placed a huge decorated cake on the table handing him the knife he took it and looked around the crowd, "where are my mom and dad?"

"They will join tomorrow celebration Arjun" he nodded getting their ignorance directly, "Advik?" I expected a single percent that maybe he would ask me, "right here" Advik showed his hand holding a camera in his hand with a bright smile. Their bond is something very special that brings a smile automatically to my lips.

"But Diya..." grandma scanned around, "let's cut the cake" he cut her sentence quickly along with my hope and little happiness filling my eyes with my tears, not even once at least for old memories sake his heart didn't reclaim our memories.

And that clenched my heart swallowing painful tears in my eyes, after cutting the cake he feed it first to Advik then Meera. Without wasting any further second I quickly went to my room and laid down on bed spending my sleepless night with our memories of his birthday that happened in the last five years wondering how beautiful things looked like back.

The next day when I got out of the room, the whole house is getting ready for the small friendly party his grandpa and grandma is throwing for their grandson's birthday, every corner of the ground floor is decorating every itty-bitty thing being watched under the surveillance of his grandma. The whole day went the same way having debates on dinner and dress. As usual, I stayed out of it. Even Yaashvi ignored me understanding my mind. 

But strangely she is not involving in any fight with Advik in this one week when I inquired she gave an idiotic reply, "I got bored fighting with him" and Advik's face told something different.

"Diya diya tell me this rhyme," Karthick asked me with a broad smile, these two weeks these family gave me lots and lots of love but unfortunately the darkness in my heart overtook their love giving difficulties to move on from him and leaving this house tonight wiped off the warmth from me.

"Diya how is it?" Ahana asked me showing her cute red gown, "looking like an angel my sweetheart" I pinched her cute chubby cheeks while she smiles showing those rabbit teeth, "thank you" she ran out happily.

"Are you not going to the party?" Nidra asked me with a questioning look, "I am not feeling well, you go and enjoy" 

She sat near me on the bed and took my hand, "I don't know what the problem you both have and even grandpa decided to keep quiet in this matter but I am sure Diya, all your problems will fly in the air without any resemblance in your future. I need to tell you one thing I heard two days back.

Arjun was talking with someone over the phone, he is having big trouble now Diya. That's the only thing I can tell you. Believe him and don't lose hope in your love, hate him, be angry with him but don't ever regret your love for him. I assure you he is in love with you, he is daily paying visit to you in the early morning while you are sleeping. The regret while exiting your room is evident on his face whenever I see him" she took a deep breath, "things are more complicated more than this Nidra, I have faced much more than this" 

"And that's why I am saying this when things get worse that means it will be the meaning of its end. Your problem will be over soon" she assured me looking into my eyes to get a positive response, "I will try" I lied to her smoothly, the end she is referring to will not be good like her expectations.

"Will you join the party?" I replied, "if his actions have reasons and mine too have reasons, let him enjoy it happily" I half smiled, "okay" she went out patting my shoulder with a sad smile. I can't yell at her to stop giving me advice but to give it to him to open up with me

After an hour the house filled with guests' whispers while I not even by mistake stepped out of the room, except placing the guitar in his room after he went down. I took a paper and write a simple note.

Happy birthday

The hate I wanted to show to him is still inside me but I am not him to be a different person to throw him completely out of my life, maybe this might be the last birthday gift from me to him and I want him to do what he likes instead of destroying his happiness which my father took from him.

Finally the whole celebration came to an end at 11 pm and we are have loaded out bags in the car trunk, he sat on the passenger seat while Advik took the driver to sit while I and Yaashvi took the back seat, biding the whole family we started our journey with silence, neither the brothers spoke among themselves nor we tried to have a conversation, Arjun is working something on his laptop even during this cold driving.

Later I don't know when I drifted into sleep, "Diya wake up" Advik stirred my shoulder while I looked out and saw we are in front of Verma's Mansion. I saw Advik out by now and Yaashvi is still sleeping.

"I will drop her home" I nodded and went in taking my bag with me, as it's 4.30 in the morning whole house felt too silent. His parents and Manya decided to come tomorrow as his father have to do finish some business there.

I went to his room hesitantly and directly went to the washroom to change up my clothes while he stood at the balcony looking at the raindrops without any fear of the roaring thunderstorms while she feared for them the most.

Changing into comfortable wears I took a pillow but my moves got scared when I heard a loud crash on the floor jumping in my place. She looked at the floor to see the guitar she gifted him was now on the ground with shattered pieces just like her heart.

"What the hell is this?" his voice startled me but words failed to come out, "who the hell gave you permission to gift me this shit?" sensing his anger I stayed silent.

"Dammit answer me," he said taking a dangerous step towards her as I took a step back, "You need to get up from the past" I surely need him to move on which I know will be painful but at least for his family he needs to be his self.

"From where did you get the guts to change my life?" he murmured slowly but I could feel the anger in his every breath he takes, "I am your wife"

"Correction. Namesake wife" even his words showed the truth to my eyes I objected it taking the chain out from his shirt, "then why the hell are you wearing the ring that your namesake wife gave you?" my mother's gift for her future son in the form of son-in-law, I gave him a few years back.

A thunder shoots the ground making me gasp in fear, "I am wearing this to keep on remaining me what your father did to my friend's family, it's a reminder of your father's sin and how bad I should punish him inch by inch. Now do you need any more explanations?" he shouted giving me a clear view of how I and my things reminded him only of my father and it would never be my love to him. How stupid I am.

I pushed him away angrily, "this is how your shit narrow-minded brain always works, the eyes which only see my father's deeds but why can't you see my love that is much more than my father's greed. But you had shut your eyes Arjun, these blind one can only see the pain in other's life even when knowing the truth that my father valued his money more than me"

His eyes bore into mine, "your words can't change everything here Diya, try to accept the reality, I would never forgive your dad for what he had done. Also, get one thing clear, this fucking shits won't ever melt my heart but it will only intensify my pain" he said placing his eyes on the broken guitar

"I don't want you to forgive him nor accept me, I will leave you" swallowing my tears I looked into his eyes, "but I need to know the truth you are trying to protect me. I need to know who is trying to kill me? what are you that want me to note Mr. Gurjar's every single activity a few days back? Why are you letting ten to twenty guards trailing on my back wherever I go?"

"I don't think you need to know the answers, but I can assure you one thing, there is no love for my heart for you" the tears which were ready now flowed freely on my cheeks along with anger.

"Then why did you show love to me?" I asked defeatedly.

"I never loved you Diya, it was always you even I had never said those three words to you" how foolish I am to think he loved me. This is the most hurtful thing he said to me that is slicing mine slowly.

"Then why did you showed fake love in my loveless life? huh? why did you come into my life? Why did you created a beautiful garden in it and gave me reasons for dreaming? There is no difference between you and my father. Both of them have not even an inch of love in you, your targets are the only thing that mattered money for his revenge for you. He let his man do the job but you did it" not answering my questions he dragged me to the balcony as I clutched his arms in fear, "don't take me there" I cried as the thunderstorms are getting loud every minute.

But he was adamant in showing me the hell, I was standing there in rain and directly below the open sky which is showering rain, lighting, and thunder altogether. Fearing I looked into his stone eyes with a pleading look, "hope you are enjoying it" he asked with a blank face. Then thunder strikes as I try to get out of his grip and run inside the house. 

The only thing I need is something to keep me warm and a veil that stops showing me the lightning, "please leave me Arjun" I cried as he left me in the drenching rain and closed the door shut at my face.

I banged my fist on the door but I never gained any response, the loud shattering noise from the sky make me cry hard in fear and the hard rain pouring on my face sent shivers down my spine, "Arjun please open the door...I won't talk like this....I... promise" I shivered in the cold as my clothes did nothing to warm me up.

The thunder and lightning are making me worse as my tears started to flow painfully from my eyes while the rain too joined its hand to kill me slowly. I closed my eyes and shut my ears but still, the sound reached my ears hitting my chest painfully.

"Please open... the door Arjun, it's getting.... louder..." I pleaded banging the door.

"Arjun please" I cried hard when my whole body shivered in cold.

I sat next to the door clutching my knees to my chest when they gave up the last battle on the huge thunder that felt like it landed next to me as I cried hard realizing that there is no one to help me nor stop my pain.

"Arj...Arjun...open the..." a sob escaped my lips feeling like a thunder is striking on my head.

For god knows how many minutes but it felt like hours for me, as my cries died instead I am painfully dying with hiccups and throbbing headache ready to burst into pieces. I gave up my struggle and let God decide what he had for me.

When the door slammed open he quickly lifted me off the floor placing me on the couch, "shit. Sorry Sorry Diya" he cried patting my cheeks softly, I cried hard hugging my knees to my chest placing my face on my knee.

I cried in my agony.

I cried thinking about my fate.

I cried on my stupid love.

"Diya..." I hate how he calls my name and the hand that trying to hold my arms pushing him immediately I grabbed his collar angrily, "if a girl ever conveys her fears with you that means she trusts you dearly with her life. Not to break her using her fears. You did a coward act Arjun. If you can't reciprocate" *hiccup* "your feelings for me then don't but why are you treating me like shit and hurting me to this extent Arjun?" *hiccup*

"You want to give punishment for what my dad did right?" I asked him but his eyes were slowly taking my state and words to his mind, "Diya..." I stopped him, "today I have to talk Arjun, You have always seen me as the daughter of Vishwanathan right? But tell me the truth" *hiccup* "have I ever once asked you money, luxury, cars, or have I ever pestered you for big expensive gifts?" he responded not, "answer me you dammit" I screamed unable to bear the headache to which he nodded negatively.

"I loved you for what you are, I loved that orphan Arjun who was" *hiccup* "genuine with his looks, simple by identity, strong my mind to live the life with what he had. I accepted your simple life and I married the simple man" I cried hard holding his collar, "Shhh Diya don't cry please, you are hurting yourself" he beseeched me, "but what have you gave me Arjun?" *hiccup* "you are letting me break down without giving any support yet I waited for you all these days to realize or correct your misunderstandings and realize that I am not like my father but today you" *hiccup* "you broke all my hopes I love you more and more but my hate towards you won over my love on you" wiping my tear I shook his collar, "do you hear me?"

His eyes reflected pain for the first time after our marriage, the eyes which were empty and cold now reflected only pain and hurt, "I hate you, I hate you to the core Mr. Verma" his grip on my back when I tried to move away from him, "Don't go Diya..." he sounded desperate but I don't need this Arjun, "this is what you wanted right?" he shook his head like a small kid.

"No. I wanted you to be safe but not away from me" his hand grabbed mine softly, "there is no reason behind this statement Mr. Verma what more do I have to do on behalf of me?" he shut his eyes for a second, "you don't need to do anything, just stay here I will take care of everything"

I smiled painfully, "do you want me to trust you any more of the stunt you pulled today?" 

"you don't have to trust me but be with me, I don't want anyone to hurt you Diya and stop hurting yourself for someone like me" anger rushed to my head.

"Stop calling my name Mr. Verma, I hate it when it comes out of your mouth. And no one will hurt me more than you did. I hate living knowing the reason behind me alive if because of you" I poured out my anger, not even his painful face stopped my words.

He left my hand immediately and stood up, "if that's what you need, I will go away from here but don't go anywhere alone" I laughed at his fake concern which I got bored and irritated, after breaking me what more do I have in me? 

"I am not bound to do what you say" I snorted, "please I beg you" I turned my head to another side whenever he begs me I feel like thinking he is my Arju but I have also realized this man is not my Arju.

Without answering him I went to the washroom taking a new pair of clothes, I am determined to not cry over this man again in my life. After giving what he wants I will move out of his home and his life.

Arjun pov

"Albert" he took my call in the first ring not minding the time, "Sir," he asked briskly, "I need to meet you now," I said taking a seat in my car, "I will be at your family mansion in 15"

"No, meet me at my home and increase the guards at the mansion. Diya is alone here" 

"Sure sir" I cut the call and took the route to my apartment which I abandoned for more than a month, after she left from here I avoided going there as it is making me crazy without her there. The house which I brought to live happily with her is like a hell now. The house where I had planned to make all of my dreams into reality.

A cozy small apartment for her comfort, for her smile, for that small twinkle that emitted from her eyes. But now all things were in vain. 

Directly I went to the washroom and stood under the water recalling each word which pained my heart brutally and the most feared day is now in front of me, the day where I wish never to come, the day of seeing the hate and loss of trust in her eyes.

I banged my hand on the wall of my stupidity leaving her in rain even after knowing her fear of thunder and lightning, the call of Arjun's condition make me blind my eyes. But I am not even going to justify my mistake I did to her.

When I hear the door opening sound I dried myself and changed into my business suit. When went to my study room I saw Albert sitting on the chair, directly I sat on my chair placing the files on the table. He took it and examined it.

"Sir, we can finish it before the time sir" I nodded, "I need it to be done in two days" 

"Sir..." he hesitated, "I mean it Albert" he nodded at my stern voice.

"Any changes in Sarraf activities?" 

He placed some photos, "not until now sir, but he seems to be in deep contact with Vishwanathan more than a year" I saw pics of both of them laughing happily, "and he is also planning to take over Hi-gene company from Kolkata using their illegal activities" I raised my eyebrow in question.

He nodded, "yes sir, they are trying to kidnap their daughter-in-law and ship her to the black market" my nerves popped up hearing their plan.

"Arrange my flight to Kolkata. And get signature from Diya in that documents" he nodded dialing to the bodyguard in our family Mansion.

"Make sure that girl is fully protected until I get that Nithaesh Sarraf" failure will the only gift you will get hereafter Nithaesh, I pledged in me.

Albert came in, "Sir, mam signed it immediately after signing it" I nodded, "how is she?" 

"She looked tired" he nodded 'at least she is not crying over him' he thought

"Make sure to keep her safe" he nodded, "send it to his investors immediately I need them to back up and if they don't make them withdraw their shares"

"Right away sir. Sir your flight is ready" I nodded taking my mobile with me.

The ride to the airport was like facing a storm inside me with every blow of cool air it remained me of her dazzling smile but to the controversy to that the pain I gave her gripped my heart tight.

The door of my car opened bringing me to reality, once entering the plane I saw Albert speaking something intensely but my one look made him come inside keeping his mobile in his pockets.

"Speak up" I ordered him.

"Nithaesh flew to Iran sir, it's Vishwanath who is dealing with Hi-gene company today"

"What made him flew there?"

"He is making a new illegal deal in chip manufacturing to many secure industries. Their main objective is to crack their security wall and sell it to illegal markets" I closed my eyes for a few minutes.

Taking a deep breath, "consign two certitude men with me. You are proceeding to Kolkata to deal the problem" 

"But sir you need a backup team, that is an illegal market..." 

Taking my laptop I looked into it, "Your hour is hastening rapidly" rapidly he rushed out leaving me to make up my plan for the dangerous mission to tear off the original faces of cruel animals.

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