Do you have any weapons on you?
I have a longing that's killing me.

FROM MEMORY FOR FORGETFULNESS ╱
mahmoud darwish

✶

I'm hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own. I'll be your slaughterhouse, your killing floor, your morgue and final resting

CRUSH  ╱ richard siken

for
nightwvngs riskimgonnatake
jupitersastrals svperboy

mwah !

Kellin "KJ" Decker was—is—something with little left to be wholly desired. After being dumped on the steps of a rundown foster home (home was a strong way to put it, but he had a roof over his head so who was he to say how the word was defined) in the bumfuck middle of nowhere that was the sin city known as Gotham, he learned to fend for himself from a tender and young age. He was the poster child for boys having gone wrong beneath the ceiling of unfortunate circumstances, the ones who fucked away their problems without actually facing them, and then drinking them down whenever they decided to crop up seemingly out of left field.

     He's had to live with the fact that he was unfortunately a danger to himself and the others around him, not necessarily like a bomb about to self-destruct or a grenade set to detonate if one were to set it down wrong, but in the heavy, jilted sense that his twisted view of the world muddled the way he moved through it.

     Now, he found himself across the country in a building with a bunch of strangers and a threat looming over their heads that had KJ worrying about more than just all hell breaking loose because there was more to it.

     There was always more to it.

KELLIN jasper DECKER ╱ tom holland

⋆

Warnings.
canon-typical violence, foul language, major character death, sex and sex as an unhealthy coping mechanism, toxic yaoi, canon-typical violence and murder, smoking, some fucked up catholic metaphors

please heed these warnings as you read
and take care of yourself, i promise smut is not worth risking your mental health

AUTHOR'S NOTE ╱ 112124

⋆       i had headlock by imogen heap on a loop while writing this summary so do with this information what you will

⋆      welcome to the dead by daylight rewrite ! in this version, i take the og and crank the lever til it breaks bc why tf not aka i always wanted to explore quote unquote darker themes so this is a great place to start

⋆     kj my man is an asshole this time around (like more so than he was the first time) let me make that loud and clear; gotham has not been kind to him and he hasn't coped well with it—obviously—he's very much mean-when-he's-nervous coded and with having some power that will be looked into later and cause him hell all over

⋆     sex is one of the bigger themes in this fic as hatefucking is one of the main tropes but while there is smut, i'll also look into kj's unbridled need for a body in his bed while also simultaneously having commitment and abandonment issues

⋆      with that said, if i find any part of this fic plagiarized i'll send a dm your way, so consider this your first warning. while i do not own anything besides the plot and the oc, i'd hate for you to steal him and mischaracterize him to hell anyway lmao

⋆     welcome back kjason, you are now twice as sexy and still just as stupid as your theopeter founding father that came before you