Forewords

yaoi/slash fic alert

for those who can;t tolerate with guy's love
i prefer you to leave the page than to bash

an amateur writer of yaoi stories i conclude myself as,
a girl,(yes i am another fangirl of dbsk,C:) with a great passion of writting but i knw my writting is not that good either,i never ever have the time to write actually.
im working really hard trying to brush my skills at the moment as it is a bit rusty.

i do not own the characters , and im not a Korean girl,
just few bits of korean words were slipped in this fic.
*im trying hard to learn hangukmal these days,I suddenly realised my English is getting worse*

the story is all about jaeho an d lil bit of yoosu,,
but i choose park yoochun if you ask me which member of
dbsk i *LUST* the most*LOL

a story of true love.
jaeho love
will it last forever or even long enough for both of them to savour?

tribute to jaeho
my favourite yaoi couple

*to love of no boundaries.

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Chapter 1PROLOGUE

*prologue

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The sound of his cries just broke the other man's heart even more.

"Mian-hae Yunnie" he uttered under his breath,his sobs made his words muffled all together.
The other man remained silent.
"You know what's best for the both of us,boo.I can't blame you for that,"
He paused.
"But I"ll be waiting for you,you know I do boo,I'm always yours,"

Slowly,the other man paced his way out from the room.
Away from him .
Away for good.
Did he make the right choice?

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they say we can only fall in love once in a lifetime,
but can we stay in love forever?

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Chapter 2to love and be loved

to love and be loved

He woke up to the sound of his alarm clock. Half asleep, he tossed his blanket off and walked to the bathroom, the coldness of the marble floor made him scrunched his face and gave a little pout.

He stared at his own reflection in the mirror.

While mockingly cursing himself for being such a beauty,Jaejoong started to brush his teeth lazily.

"Why do I have to wake up early every morning just to wake him up?" he asked himself only to find himself answering the question back as for Jae 11 in the morning is still super early.One couldn't be blame as he always make sure his sleeping hours are adequate for him to rejuvenate his beauty.
Working from home,his clothes designs are exclusive,he enjoyed designing them,an eccentric designer,Jae never failed to shine.He is one of the not busy man on the contrary his boyfriend is the total opposite.

Done with his late morning routines, he jumped back into bed and crawled slowly to snuggle up at his sleeping boyfriend.
The warmth and musky scent of the other guy made him all comfy and somehow sleepy. He shrugged a little, reminding himself that they both have to get out of bed early that day.

"Yunnie,"

Jae traced his lover's nose bridge with his long finger. He traced further down to the edge of Yunho's cute lips,his own luscious one curving into a sweet smile. Admiring the cute pout his lover always had when he was sleeping,Jae leaned in,trying to steal a kiss.

"HAH!!"
Yunho shouted all of a sudden,the magnitude of his voice shocked Jaejoong out of his wit,he swore he could have died of heart attack right at that moment.

"Gotcha!!" he was already awake when Jaejoong left to the bathroom but he wanted to give his Jae a surprise that morning,he waited for the right moment.

Jaejoong was clearly shocked , making Yunho laughed childishly.

"Such a naughty pretty little thing we have here aren't we?",Yunho smirked.He wrapped himself around Jae making the other smaller body close to his.The fragile form felt safe in his muscular frame.

"I was just trying to wake you up sleepyhead."

Jae 's face went red as Yunho intensely gazed into his ultra shiny black eyes.The ones that reminded many of dark and sorrowful thoughts but as soon as they saw his angelic face,the sceptics couldn't agree but to say that those pairs completed his china-doll like features.

After all these years they've been together,Jaejoong's face still went through shades of pink or even worse crimson red whenever he felt uncomfortable around Yunho,especially when the other steal a kiss,or gaze into his eyes making him to have butterflies in his stomach.The other man acts of love sometimes made Jaejoong felt like he had made the right choice.

"And people these days wake the others by kissing them huh? ,hmm,that is rather amusing ,don't you think boo?",Yunho said those words while his left hand busy caressing the other's face,feeling his soft skin under his touch.

"It's a new thing,..aaahhh. You wouldn't know.You're all busy working yourself around the clock everyday,making more and more cash as if what you already have is not enough",Jae replied pretending to get all sarcastic making Yunho smiled even wider.

"A workaholic does what he do the best boo" his lips touched the others, brushing against the silky soft pair of red sinful lips that he loved so much and he had fallen in love for years before.

The soft kiss turned into a deep one as both had expected.They don't even bother to argue anymore, their hands busy roaming at each other heavenly made form.

"You always taste so good" Yunho let out a comment when they parted a moment to inhale some air.

"And you always kiss me with your stinky morning breath" Jae replied,half lying.He always loved kissing Yunho,in fact he find himself addicted to his taste.

"But you love it right boo?,or really you meant what you said ?,aww......,you broke my heart by saying such things,you really are a heartbreaker"Yunho chuckled.

Jae shrugged,pulling Yunho closer to his graze and licking his bottom lips,clearly enjoying his act.Yunho parted his lips a little waiting for Jae's next move.He enjoyed pleasuring Jae as other man served him so much already.Jae bit Yunho's bottom lips causing the other man to let out a moan then he broke the kiss.

Pulling himself slowly from Yunho,Jae get off from the bed,walking to the walk-in closet.

"Hurry up Yunnie,or you'll be late for work. Even big boss should be at the office before lunchtime you know..to show some of his charisma or whatever"Jae mumbled as his sarcastic mode is on again causing he himself smile at his own words.

Yunho pouted, this time his lips formed a cherry-like pout,adoreable yet irresistible to Jae's eyes.

"It's not fair...."

"What is not fair?"Jaejoong rolled his eyes,questioning Yunho who was still pouting , his lover's eyes gazing to him who was still in the the walk-in closet.

"You always tease and just walk away like that,it's really not fair 'kay,I hate it,......NO........,make it .....I L.O.A.T.H.E it",he emphasized the word loathe.

Well,at least...I'm LOVING it..." Jae smiled as his hands busy sorting out what Yunho should wear from the closet.

"You'll pay" Yunho uttered as he walked to the bathroom to wash himself.

"And how will you make me pay ,hmm Mr CEO?" Jae questioned as he lay out a crisp white Topman shirt and navy blue pants on the bed for Yunho.His mind is still wandering whether Yunho should wear casual attire or the formal for that day.

"By doing this to you?" Yunho replied as he wrapped his arms around Jaejoong's waist real tight and started pulling the other man into the bathroom with him.Yunho giggled sheepishly as Jaejoong tried to break free but the pretty lad just give in as Yunho pushed the bathroom door closed, his arms still holding tight Jae to his already bare body.

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Chapter 3break a promise,break a heart

break a promise break a heart

"Mian-hae boo,I didn't purposely forgot about our anniversary,I am truly sorry.".

--"again he broke this fragile heart of mine,will you ever stop this madness cause my heart bleeds for you every seconds passed"----------
Yunho held his lover's small hands tight.Jae looked away,tears started to flood his eyes and streamed down his porcelain white skin.
"Boo" ,Yunho called out his nickname with such a pleading tone,only to make his heart ached for his touch.He ignored the call,pretending to be deaf but his heart ached so much he'd rather be answering his lover but he declined.

"Boo,please don't do this,you know I love you right?"

Yunho pushed Jaejoong's face to his own slowly.

Upon seeing Jaejoong's tears ,Yunho mentally cursed himself for being such an idiot till he broke his lover's heart.His angel had shed tears for him.

He wiped away the tears with his palms,slowly as if Jaejoong's gorgeous doll-like face will break into million pieces if he had use a larger force.

He pulled Jae and placed him to the nape of his neck,inhaling Jae's vanilla sweet scent,his hands behind Jae's back,soothing him.

" you do love me right?" Jae asked softly ,almost like whispering,his hands wrapped around Yunho's waist.Without answering,Yunho tilted Jae's head a bit and lock his lips with the other.His tongue smoothly coaxing the other to give in.

Tasting the sweetness of his lover,his every motion only ignite passion from the other. Their toungue slipped through each other,playing a game,sucking mercilessly as sudden longing for each other warmth struck them.

Jaejoong broke the kiss causing Yunho to groan in despair."Boo,I need you."he murmured slowly,his hands reaching for Jaejoong's chin,pulling it closer.

"Are you tired of me already?"Jae questioned,this time his tone sounded so serious it made Yunho's heart skipped a beat.

"what are you talking about boo?"he got on his feet,his eyes still locked at Jaejoong's tear streaked face.

"don't make me repeat the question Yunnie".

"I heard you clear ,but why are you asking me such question,you know I live for you boo,If u want to,I'd die for you."

"you're different these days Yunnie,you work more than spending your time with me"

-------------------------the more you doubt love,the more you'll be drifting away from it----------------

"you know how my schedule is, I need to handle a few internationals contracts and such things these past few months,but that doesn't mean my feelings for you had changed boo,I'm doing these for the two of us"

"loving me for so many years and now you're taking me for granted is it?, or you have another doll to love who is prettier than me,just tell it straight to my face Jung Yunho" Jae questioned Yunho sharply,ignoring his past explaination.Yunho shrugged.

"Boo,why are you asking me these?,I love you still,and I'm always so in love with you!"Yunho snapped,clearly irritated by Jaejoong's behaviour.

He had a tired day at the office and when he got back Jaejoong is already mad at him for forgetting their 6th anniversary.Even worse,he saw Jaejoong dumped all the food the he had carefully prepared himself with care and love when he saw Yunho walked into the door.

He can tolerate Jaejoong's mood swings but sometimes he had too much of it and this time he is completely too fatigue to coax Jaejoong with sweet nothings as he himself is not feeling any better.

He opted to leave for the bar to meet up with Yoochun, his mate rather than to spend the whole night arguing with Jaejoong over nothing.Jaejoong had completely changed these few months,Yunho himself can't figure out why.But deep down he knew,his love for his angel will never change,he wondered does his angel still love him the same way as they first met six years ago.

One couldn't help but to doubt, couldn't he.

-------I'd go against the world for you, Boo---------------

"cut the crap Jung Yunho"
"what is wrong with you boo?"
"ask the question to yourself"
"darn...I'm so sick of this empty arguments,for these few months you've been trying to find my mistakes in everything I do, I'm tired of this shit Jaejoong.I love you. Goddamnit.I 'd go against the whole world just to love you. what else do you want me to prove?"

"you flirted with you colleagues Jung Yunho,that's it",Jaejoong stared into his eyes,calling him by his full name every time he is mad about something.That's a habit of Jaejoong that Yunho had taken note in mind.
"Boo,Junsu must have told you that right?".Yunho guesses wildly as Junsu is one of his partner in joint ventures and happened to be Jaejoong's bestfriend since childhood and when anything happened in their office,Junsu will always inform Jaejoong,even if the smallest thing really matters,but to Jaejoong they did.

"I asked him.As your shirts always get stained with lipstick marks these days,it's nothing new for a someone as wholesome as you to be drooled for
*sigh
but why do you let them touch you anyway?. Why on Earth should you flirted with those bimbos?"

Yunho answered carefully,not wanting his Jae to throw a tantrum especially when he himself is dead tired.

"We frequent the bars these days to lighten up our stressed out working atmosphere boo.those projects are hell exhausting,well maybe I got a bit drunk and God knows what happened next but you know I will never do such thing to you boo,hmm?"he pulled Jaejoong closer to his body,pressing himself against the beautiful male form.

"don't you dare touch me"Jaejoong pushed him away.

"boo..."Yunho pleaded,his puppy eyes looks made Jae felt a sudden tingle in his navel.He brushed his thoughts behind.

"Boojae please,I need you more than anything right now..sorry sorry sorry ?"..Yunho said slowly almost whispering.

"just leave me alone " Jaejoong replied as he walked into the bedroom and slammed the door hard,his heart shattered into million bits as he left Yunho in the other room.He longed for his touch too but somehow everything seems so unreal,so fake and he is slowly drifting his self away from Yunho.

--------why do we tend to hurt, the people we love the most?------

"Boo...",Yunho gave a deep sigh as he heard Jaejoong clicked the door locked .He grabbing his car key and headed to his ultra metallic Lamborghini and almost out of his own will he dialed Yoochun's cell.A few dials later and he heard his bestie voice at the end of the line.

"Yunho-hyung,what's up,it's half past two already ,why are you still awake?Is everything is fine?"

"uhh,,not so good
I assume,he's all moody today,I think I'm going insane"

"well is this got to do with my dolphin-shii?,I can talk to him on your behalf hyung"

"nah,Junsu has got nothing to do with this Micky."he lied not wanting the other couple to have such a conflict too.

"ouh.i'm glad he's not,he can be a potty mouth sometimes hyung,sorry for that" he heard Yoochun's chuckled at the end of the line,Junsu must be in his arm or something.

How he missed cuddling up with Jaejoong but the lad rejected him these days making him feeling like a crap.

Even worse,
Like a rejected crap.

" meet me at the usual place Micky?,I need a friend to talk to" he requested,hoping that Yoochun will listen to his slurring later as he'd be too drunk with too many tequila shots,soju,or any other alcohol,you just name it.

"sure hyung,but let me put my Junsu to bed first 'kay?"

thanks bro,I owe you one and sorry if I'm causing you any problems.i'll be waiting for you at the bar"

"no,not at all.Junsu is not feeling well and he's almost asleep now.i'll be there in fifteen minutes.alright ,see you later hyung"

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Chapter 4Nothing hurts more than a lover's lie,

Nothing hurts more than a lover's lie,

He carefully tiptoed out of the bed into the bathroom to freshen up.

He looked outside to the bed where his bed partner lies, snoring lightly.

He grinned.

It was one hell of a night.

They had a few rounds.

Both of them were enjoying themselves.

At least his partner did.

He wondered about what he felt.

No string attached was his game,and the lad clearly in need of some touch.

A little bit of fun won't harm, so he think.
"yah,kim jaejoong,babo,what is wrong with your head?"
He asked himself mentally.

And he shook his head.

"I must be crazy"he said to himself.
"No."
"I must be insane"
No.
Scratch that
I must be a crazy insane babo.
He felf a sudden urge to go back home and pulls Yunho into his arms but somehow when the lad on the bed woke up and called out his name,he erased the thought of Yunho almost instantly.

"babe,what are you doing?" the lad asked.
He smiled.
------- once a liar, always a liar-----------------

"nothing"
"good, come here, let me hold you" the lad outstretched his hands pulling the smaller form into his arms.

"you're such a doll,'the lad muttered as he kisses you lightly,his hands moving up and down your torso.

"I'm glad you said that"Jae answered as his hands cupped the other's face.

"life sucks huh darling.... as you're not mine but his,"

"Rain,you said it's no string attached
between us,remember?"

He reminded the handsome man in his arms whom he had an affair for two weeks now, due to his problems with Yunho,they seldom talk ,let alone sleeping with each other , so Rain is now officially his discreet affair.

"ouh yeah" the other smirked naughtily.
He resumed.
"but if I fall in love with you accidentally, it's not forbidden right?" he chuckled at his own words.

"whatever say you"Jae brushed off the lad's joke as nothing and doze off to sleep after a few light kisses.

----- -if you are afraid of hurting others,
then don't start loving them ---------

"It's true Chunnie-ah,I saw them going out of The Regency yesterday",Junsu mumbled as his mouth was full with cereal and milk and toast and Skittles as his boyfriend,Park Yoochun walked to the fridge.

Junsu gobbled down his weird so called sugary breakfast,
The perfect diabetic breakfast combination Yoochun called it.
Full of sugar for his sugary sweet dolphin boy.
The lad smiled innocently ignoring the statement.

"Eat up first dolgorae,then you can continue the talking",he scooped out a vanilla ice-cream from the ice-cream pin and shoved it into his mouth,still standing in front of the fridge.
'aish,how can you stand eating ice-cream early in the morning Chunnie-ah?,you rarely get the flu or cold too,are you a Robocop or a cyborg or a vampire or something ehhh?"

Junsu pouted cutely making Yoochun laughed a little and patted his head.
"I am yours,that one thing is for sure"
He said making the cute pouting guy in front of him shriek in happiness,

"You want some?"
He asked.

Junsu shook his head fast but Yoochun was even faster,he dipped his head down and kissed Junsu with his mouth still dripping with few trails of cold ice-cream and he pushed the ice-cream into the other's mouth.

"Euw,diiiiiiiiiissssssssguuuuusssssstiiiinnnnngg"Junsu let out a high pitched shriek while resulted in Yoochun bursting into a fit of laughter.
"dolphin boy,DOLGORAE,"his voice were lowered,making the other felt an acute desire running through his veins.
Yoochun's hands were already on Junsu's waist.
Junsu pushed him away slowly,his pout was ever so large,clearly pissed at the idea of making out when he's clearly worried about his bestfriend fling.

"Chunnie-ah,were you even listening to me? I saw Jaejoong and this famous model..aahhh what's his name..haaa,,Rain going out from The Regency last afternoon,when I was on my lunch date with a client from Japan.

"so what?Jaejoong used to work as a model too
under the same company as Rain-hyung right.

"The elite TUkurtz agency? what's the big deal?maybe the're having a lunch date or something.aish ,dolgorae,don't make a big deal out of it"Yoochun rationalizing the fact that maybe Jaejoong and Rain was having a lunch together to catch up on things between them."

"but they were arms in arms Chunnie-ah,what kind of a catching up could that be?" Junsu asked Yoochun with a confused look.

"maybe they're THAT close you know..you know models,,skinship is their in thing,,jae-hyung is your bestie too obviously you know how touchy he can be right"Yoochun answered,ignoring the fact that Junsu is trying to tell him that Jaejoong is having an affair behind Yunho's back.

"and a peck on the lips..no make that a liplocking scene is what bestfriend supposed to do ?God,I am his bestfriend,and he never did THAT with me 'kay" Junsu went all emotional,his voice seemed shrinking.

"I didn't ask him yet cause he's having a hard time with Yunho-hyung but please Chunnie-ah,talk some sense into Yunho-hyung as I'm afraid they'll drift so much apart they'll end up breaking up"

Junsu moved closer to Yoochun and hugged him tightly.
"You know that it will break my heart to see them part right Chunnie?"his eyes were filled with pools of tears.

Yoochun patted his back gently,his lover is such a crybaby,but he loved that part of Junsu ,ever so sensitive.

"ssshhh Junnie,don't say such thing,Trust me,everything is going to be just fine"

The fact is Yoochun already knew about Jaejoong act of wavering when he saw the couple check-in into The Hilton few days back when he was having his late night supper with one of his clients.

He said nothing to both Yunho and Junsu as he was afraid sudden news could affect the person he cared so much so drastically.

He kept the secret to himself only to find his lover too found out about Jae's not so little secret by himself.

----tell me the truth even if it hurts---------------

Yunho grinned.
He took off the black apron he was wearing and washed his hands.

Grabbing Jaejoong by his arms,he kissed Jaejoong full heartedly.
The other gave in but pushed him slowly as if on cue after mere seconds.

Taken aback Yunho smiled.
"what's wrong boo?"

Jae just shook his head and answered a quick 'Nothing'.
"I cooked you dinner,don't tell me you forget about your own birthday boo"

"all those expensive things would be a bore already to you right?so I've decided to take a day off and cook for you"

Yunho smiled widely flashing his pearly white teeth.

" I'm not hungry" Jae replied weakly as he made his way to the bedroom.

"boojae?,are you sick or something?"

"nah,I'm fine,I just wanna have a shower and sleep"

"at least try my cooking first,they're superb you know.well,I've tried my best if that counts"

Yunho grinned reminiscing the stack of recipes books he bought earlier just to cook few dishes Jaejoong loved.

Jaejoong had always do the cooking as Yunho is scared that he might kill them both with food poisoning if he ever tried to cook daily.

"told u I'm not hungry" Jae replied coldly.

He can't stand watching his lover's face as he remembered how he betrayed their love by having another affair with a guy he loved only as a friend.

He made a mental note to not let this game continue.

He will end this thing even if he will break his own heart in the process .Yunho deserve someone better than him.

"boo,come here,what's wrong hmm,,are you mad at me.,?"

Realising Jaejoong's lack of response he pleaded.

"don't't do this to me boo,it hurts like hell"

Yunho pulled him gently into an embrace,Jae harden his body, almost stiff.not responding to Yunho's touch.

Jaejoong felt something hot at his shoulder .Yunho was burying his face at his shoulder,crying his heart out silently,Muffled sobs can be heard.

---the more you refuse to love, the more you'll hurt his heart---

Jae felt guilty.
He felt sad.
He felt devastated.
But he had to do something
To make Yunho hate him
To make Yunho forget him
His love is not worth as much as Yunho's.
he had to let Yunho go.
Slowly he pushed Yunho aside and headed to the bathroom leaving the sobbing male alone,

Finished showering and dressing up himself in pyjamas,he scanned the big pad for Yunho.
He found Yunho sleeping on the couch,his eyes still swollen from all the crying.both of his arms were wrapped around himself.

It pained him so much to see his first love like that.
But he doubted his own self,is 6 years is enough for him to make Yunho his forever love?.

He even think that Yunho must be a fool to fall In love with him.
He secretly wished he would fall for Rain instead so that he and Yunho can go on separate ways
so that he will not be a burden to Yunho anymore.

-----------love me as I am-----------------------------

He will be a model back,he thought,busy with shoots and things.
Too busy to love.
Live with his own money,
Having no strings attached night stands.
But he couldn't
He still find Yunho is by far the best thing ever happened in his life.

"babo,why are you such a fool" Jae uttered,as his longs fingers trailed up and down Yunho's a bit tear streaked face.
"why do my love for you is doubted by my own self ,Yunnie?"
"why?"
"why?"
Jaejoong kept repeating the same word softly.
His hands stopped at Yunho's lips.
He missed that lips.
The lips of an angel of his.
His fallen angel.
His deepest desire lurked inside his brain, specifically all over his body.
He longed for this man every time he was with Rain.
Slowly he kissed Yunho's lips.
The sleeping guy moved a bit but Jaejoong kept kissing him,feeling his warmth.

Feeling the his soft lips pressing the others as his hands caressing the ruffled hair of his boyfriend,he moaned.

"Jae" Yunho woke up slowly and held Jaejoong's face in his palms.
"hmm?" Jae gazed into his eyes.
"I miss you,boo.I really do."

"I miss you too Yunnie,I'm so sorry for what I've done,I was totally selfish"
He had decided.
It's now or never.
This madness had to stop
For good.
He had to choose.

------Why play a game when you can't ever end it well?-----

Even if he has to bear losing Yunho later he will never regret this choice of his.
The verdict?
He chose to stay.
He chose Yunho.
All those no strings must be stopped
He ran his hands through Yunho's locks.
"how much?'"Yunho questioned,pulling Jaejoong's body on top of his.
"hm?" Jae asked Yunho back.
"how much do you miss me?"
"as much as you miss me"
"really?"
"you will never hurt me again the way you did
before right boo?"
"no"
"why do you avoid me in the 1st place?"
"I'm afraid of losing you Yunnie"
"why would you lose me .I'm all here for you "

"I'm afraid you will stop loving me.with all those work of yours.I might just be a burden to you and after all these years I thought you've grown out of interest of me"

"babo"
"I am Yunnie,for breaking your heart,sorry"

"don't you ever do that to me again,ever again"

"I promise"

"promises are meant to be broken boo."

"then I'll just love you sooo much that words can't even capture the whole feeling,can I?"

Yunho smiled.

He pulled Jae for a deep kiss.

---they say people in love are fools,giving in their heart without any care for the world-----

trailing from his chest to the back of his neck and pushed him gently on the bed.
His hands were wrapped around Yunho's waist,moving in circular motion,feeling the curves of the man he had fallen in love all over again.

When Yunho's lips met Jaejoong's,both of them moaned in pleasure as both had longed for each other touch for so so long.
Their tongues slipped in and out leaving trails of wet marks outside each other mouth.

Their kiss deepen and became more intense as Yunho bit Jae's lips leaving a small bruise."sorry boo,my mistake" Yunho stopped to apologize.Jae shook his head signaling that he's fine with it,a bruise on his lips weren't as bad as the bruise he left on Yunho's heart.

-----------The most beautiful thing about love is love itself--------

As his hands trail along Yunho's back,Yunho pulled his shirts off leaving Jae's upper torse naked from any clothing.The cold air from the chilly room temperature made Jae shivered.
Yunho pulled off his own shirt quickly embracing Jaejoong so that his lover will share a bit of his warmth,

His hands already behind Jaejoong's back,caressing the smooth skin he had longed for.
Jae moaned and pulled both of them up and headed towards the bedroom.He closed the door as Yunho planted few kisses
His lips then continued to trail all over Jae body,leaving red marks spots at where he intended to ,sucking every inch of Jae milky white skin slowly.A slow pace that made Jae almost died of the urge of having this man
.Almost like an addiction,
Almost like an ecstasy,
Jae moaned in pleasure as his hands still running through Yunho's locks.
His body grinded in such rhythmic moves.
Yunho continued to lick every nooks and cranny of his lover beautiful body while moaning and groaning himself as his own member harden by his every moves.

His hands grabbed Jaejoong's pajamas's waistband and pulled it down giving him a clear entrance to the other man lower body.

He felt Jae's hands tugging at his own jeans,pleading for Yunho's
.
He looked into Jae's eyes,and smiled back as Jae smiled sweetly at him.

He unzipped his pants and pulled his jeans off and tossed it to the floor .

He removed his boxers and makes the pile of clothing just below the bed higher as his boxers went down.

Jae put his hands around Yunho's body as Yunho's continue to kiss his own once again.

"you're so beautiful boo,you reminded me of all the beauty in this world combined into one."

He complimented under his breath.
Jae blushed.Yunho certainly knew how to melt his heart with his simple words but they meant so much to Jaejoong.

They felt like so unreal
So comical
So sugarcoated
Yet so real as
Yunho would say them with such tone and those deep gaze of his.

As his hands moved up and down Yunho's package,he could hear the other man moaned enjoying the touch.

His motion gets faster as time passed and Yunho suddenly pulled Jae's hands away from his already hard member.

"let me in boo?"

He asked,his eyes gazing lovingly into Jae's,not wanting to hurt Jaejoong with his every move.

He placed his throbbing package into Jae's entrance,slowly as any fast move will only hurt his beloved Boojae.

The entrance has been lubricated by Jaejoong's own precum.

Jae nodded when he asked the permission and he thrust into Jaejoong with slow pace,their body went as one.

As Jaejoong moaned through the whole process Yunho's hands were rubbing Jae's member causing him to moan even louder.

The thrust moved on into a faster pace,both of them already panting hard from all the tense of their muscles.

As Jaejoong bit his lower lips hard to suppress his painful pleasure,Yunho was clearly making him to want him more.

He moaned out loud,catching his breath whenever he can.

Yunho finally collapsed as the both come at the same time,leaving white residue staining the sheets,
Both who were panting hard had now breathe slowly as they wrapped their arm around each other.

"thanks boo"
"hmm?"
"for giving me another chance"

Jaejoong nodded.He wanted less talk so that he doesn't feel the guilt for wavering with Rain,
For doubting his Yunho
For being such a jerk
He needed that quiet time to feel remorse
To shed away his dirty self
His sin
His wavering act
His foolishness

He snuggled up cozily before kissing Yunho passionately as they both fell asleep in each other's arms.

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Chapter 5You want what you can't have

You want what you can't have

He saw his Boo walking out the Czar café with face as red as a ripe tomato,heading to his black Mini cooper and drove away.

"He said he's going for grocery shopping right?"
He reminded himself when he called Jaejoong asking for a lunch date just a few hours ago.

"maybe he's meeting up an old friend"
"but why he is mad all of sudden?"

Yunho brushed any negative thoughts aside as he parked his car outside the café.

He suddenly craved for a frappucino so instead of heading back to the office after having his lunch he stopped at Jaejoong's favourite café.

He walked in the café,pacing his way to the counter as many set of eyes watched him.

Who wouldn't?
He is hard not to look at.
Ever so manly clad from head to toe,he is one to drool for.
He sighed
Who knows that his looks can be soooo deceiving right?.
He chuckled cutely when the waitress stuttered as he ordered himself a caramel frapuccino.
"Am I that cute huh?"he asked mentally,seeing the waitress blushed at his gaze.
While waiting for his drink,Yunho scanned the area only to find Rain ,Jaejoong's ex-colleague sipping his drinks slowly.
His expression looked worn out,
Maybe Jaejoong had a drink with him earlier on and they quarreled.

Rain is one of his friend too but they were not close as Yunho only met him four times when he was with Jaejoong at these few high end socialites parties.

With his frappucino he walked to Rain's table only to startle the lad.
"uh,hi hyung" Yunho smiled.
"can I have the seat?"
"sure" Rain answered,his eyes looked at Yunho's with such a gaze Yunho can't even figure out why.
"are you all alone hyung?" Yunho asked before sipping his drink.
"uh..yeah."
They talked about the sunny weather and the busy Seoul traffic before Yunho started to ask more personal questions.
"so how's life been treating you hyung.I heard you're the number one in the field,stepping down wouldn't be your cup of tea ha hyung.congrats "

"thanks bro.well how about your life?
Getting any better?"

"ahh,well.so-so.I'm so busy these days I can't even breathe properly." Yunho giggled at his own exaggerated words.

"uhh,good for you.you'll definitely become a billionaire in no time huh.what about Jae?I haven't heard from him for so long now"

Rain lied,wanting Yunho to open up his feelings to him.
Wanting Yunho to know that
His heart ached badly for Jaejoong

His used to be affair as Jae asked him to stop all these games they're playing just a few moment before Yunho entered the café.

What a coincidence he uttered to himself.

"boojae?" Yunho smiled.
"he's doing fine hyung.well.we had a few rough time lately but I conclude that we're okay now,God how I miss him "

Yunho muttered not remembering the fact that maybe Rain had met Jaejoong earlier.

"really?" Rain asked almost animatedly.
"yes hyung.how about you?found your true love already?.Aww,come on hyung you're like the top model in Seoul,people drooled every time you take a single step,lucky this place forbid any fan-like behaviour or else you'll be crowded with your fans ,don't tell me you're still in single-land?,such a loss hyung",

Yunho chirped making Rain smiled calmly.

"well I am clearly falling for this person for ages now,but hell.it was hard enough to explain.he's denying my feelings as if we were nothing before"
Rain replied,still smilling.

"hyung,who would do that to you huh?"Yunho asked slowly.

"ahh,it's nothing .really,
you don't have to worry,well I must get going
..... got a photoshoot this evening"
Rain said after taking a sudden glance at his watch.
'oh,,bye hyung well by the way just in case if you need someone to talk to just call me k?"
Yunho watched as Rain left the café.

He sighed.
Hands still fiddling with his cup of beverage.
"he wasn't talking bout Boo aren't him?"

He doubted that Rain had feelings for Jaejoong since their modeling days as the lad often show his affection by touching Jaejoong every time they meet even if there's somebody watching.

But being an optimistic lad ,Yunho wouldn't mind as long as Jaejoong is still his.
A little bit of touching won't make Jaejoong anyone else,right?
But he could be wrong couldn't he?
He asked himself.
And what's with him saying about
As if they were nothing before?
Did they date each other before Yunho had Jaejoong?
It couldn't be.
Jaejoong told Yunho before that Yunho is his first love.
Maybe it's platonic love.
Maybe it's nothing

Or

Maybe he is denying himself
Slowly he walked out of the café with heavy thoughts still filling his head.

------- Why do we love when we know that we'll only get hurt in the end?------

Jaejoong ran across the room to pick up his cell without bother looking at the screen.
"Yunnie,is that you?"
"babe,it's me"
"ouh.I told you not to call me anymore,please.don't make it any harder for me"
"babe,I miss you"
"I miss you too........... as a friend,what we had remained in the past Rain.It's not even a relationship for God's sake.It was just a fling."
"But I want you babe.I really do,do you still love him?,please.answer me babe,I need to know"
"you know the answer really well Rain,don't make me hurt you anymore"
"babe,.."
"please understand the situation ,you know what I meant by saying this words to you,I need some time to make things right,I have to hang up before he's back,please"
" babe,,I'm always here,waiting for the day you'd say you love me too "
"Rain,bye"
"uh,bye then.i love you babe"
"I can't say I DON'T love you but you know how felt towards you , bye Rain."

He hang up the phone and sighed.
His fling had definitely snapped him back.
Real good.
Real hard,he felt he was doing such a mistake for starting the affair he had with Rain.
Then he saw him.
His Yunnie.
Back from work,his tie loosened up,the upper of his shirt already unbuttoned.
His blazer and suitcase were already on the plush couch
He must there for quite some time now.
He was staring at him in disbelief.

---truth hurts, in every way possible-------

"who was that boo?"
"uh,,just a friend of mine,Yunnie"he smiled.
"who was it?" Yunho grabbed his arm, pulling his lover close to his body.
"it's Bi" he answered slowly not wanting Yunho to doubt him more after his lover had listened to his conversation.
"what did he say?"Yunho serious tone made Jaejoong insides flipped and do a three sixty.
"He wanted to have lunch with me tomorrow" he lied so smoothly he himself amused by this ability.

---once a liar always a liar---
"don't lie boo"
"I'm not"
"You just did, I heard your conversation.boo,are you seeing him ?"
"no" he stuttered.
"then why is it I felt that you're seeing each other.Just tell me the fucking truth"
Taken aback by Yunho cursing word,Jaejoong let Yunho's grip loose, freeing himself.
"why Yunnie,why?"
He said those slowly,tears already streaming fast
down his cheeks.

"I never doubt you all these while boo,but what Yoochun said totally made me going insane"
"what did he said?"

"he told me that he saw you freakingly frequent hotels with Rain,on those nights when you were supposedly out alone having a time out as we were quarrelling,"

I should have known boo,you didn't love me anymore,damnit boo, I loved you more than myself,and this is what I get in return?"
"Is six years is such a long time you already get bored of loving me?Only me?,what did I do wrong boo,TELL ME!!!" Yunho 's voice boomed through the spacious living room.
Jaejoong looked down.
Yunho tilted his head a little.
"You hate me don't you?"
"No,"
"do you still love me boo?"
"ye..ss"
"then why do you have to do this to me ?"
"mian-hae "
"sorry is all you've got to say?"
He turned and made his way to the door.
He left him.

Yunho left him there all by himself,his face drenched with tears.
He dropped down at the couch,his ears caught the sound of Yunho's car engine starting up and his car sped up fast leaving the pad they shared.
His violent sobbing made him gasp for air.
'mian-hae Yunnie,"

"I am so so sorry"

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Chapter 6if parting makes you happy, I am willing to do so

if parting makes you happy, I am willing to do so

He drove the car to the spot where Jaejoong and him loved so much.
The hillside near Jae's old apartment.
he parked his car and lay still on top of his car,he loved to do that when he was with Jaejoong.

Staring blankly at the sky,
Counting the stars,helplessly.
he hated himslff for making Boo cried,but he should know better than to waver around with that guy.
That friend of his
Who loved him the same way I did.
Did jaejoong love Rain too?
---the don't call it a heartbreak if it doesn't hurt that much---
He had to end this misery of a fickle love triangle.
He flipped open his mobile,searching for Rain's number and hit the call button.
After a few unsuccessful attempts he sighed and tried
for one last time.
He heard a voice.
The voice of the guy who desire his Jae so much,it hurts his heart so much to even utter a word but he managed himself.
"hello hyung"
"uhh. Hello Yunho,"
"well,I think that you knew very well what I 'm going to say"

"Yun."
He was cut by Yunho.
"hyung,I knew everything"
"yunho,,let me explain..."
"no hyung,let me get this straight, I knew about the affair,the visits to hotels and such,I am mad if that's what you're trying to figure out right now,"
"yunho,I am not saying that I'm sorry for what I've done as Jae himself wanted it too"
" things done will never be the same just by saying that sorry word,you knew that well don't you" Yunho fired.
Yunho bit his lower lips, a sudden urge of anger run through his whole body.
"yunho,he loved me and you should know it by now.....im telling you this just so you know what is the situation really is about,he loved me,u hear that,he said he's tired being your toy all the time,you left him all by himself most of time,too busy with your ventures,he's not a doll for God's sake Yunho.and I was there..all the time for him..and when he's in love with me,you get all jealous as if it is a big deal huh?"
Rain shot back,a smirk curved by his lips.
Yunho let out a sigh.
He knew what he should do next, he flipped his cell without even bothering to end the call politely.
He resume staring at the sky.
Counting the stars Jaejoong loved so much.
"Boojae,if that's your wish, I am granting it for your sake"

----- sacrifice takes two,one loses,one gains-------

Jaejoong packed his things.
Taking a few possessions of his and tossing it carelessly into his luggage.
He decided to leave.
He hated to see Yunho's eyes filled with doubts.
He loves Yunho.
Always am and always will be.
But his decision to stay earlier
only made Yunho's heart crushed more and more
when he found out about Rain and their affairs.
"*haengbok hagil barae" Jae uttered.
*I only want to make you happy
He lied once,and he will definitely lie once again,as he thought to himself.
Just when he was about to finish packing his stuff,he heard someone opening the bedroom door,
Startled,he froze,too afraid to look into his lover's eyes.
He'll definitely too scared to stare in the eyes of a guy that he'll be leaving soon.
"so this is goodbye?"he said,taking a glance at Jaejoong's already packed possessions.
"if you think I'll be running to Rain you're wrong Yunnie"
Jae replied,

.Hearing Jae calling him with that nickname made his heart sadden that very moment.
"*wae?( Why),isn't he's the one you're saving your love for?"

don't love him for God's sake,I wavered once and that was the biggest mistake I had ever done,Yunnie"
"but you did waver ,and why do you have to do that when you know how much I love you?"
"I was afraid,I was afraid of losing you "
"but you want to leave me now boo,and why is that?"
"I'm so sorry,I can't forgive myself even if you do forgive me."Jae replied.
"I think that's the best for both of us Yunnie,"tears already flowed like a waterfall.

--the one you love will be the one you'll want to be with, forever-----
The sound of his cries just broke the other man's heart even more.

"Mian-hae Yunnie" he uttered under his breath,his sobs made his words muffled all together.

The other man remained silent.
"You know what's best for the both of us,boo.I can't blame you for that,"
He paused.
"But I"ll be waiting for you,you know I do boo,I'm always yours,"

Slowly,the other man paced his way out from the room.
Away from him .
Away for good

Did he make the right choice?
He did make a choice
Should he regret this decision and live with it later
No he don't as he suddenly turned and ran towards his Yunho,grabbing him from behind.
"Please don't leave, please say that you will always love me"
Yunho's own face streaked with tears.
"Boo,I'd give the world just to have you"he turned,facing his angel.
Jaejoong smiled
"Really?you're not mad at me anymore?"
"You wavered cause I ignored you right boo,it's the consequences that I have to face."
Yunho hugged Jaejoong tight feeling the smaller male snuggle at his collar bone,his favourite part of Yunho's body.
"then what about Rain?" Jae asked innocently as Yunho caressed his back with so much love,afraid that he might hurt his little porcelain lover.
"what about him?"
Yunho tilted Jae's head a little.
"he'll understand boo,he will,even if I have to make him ,he will soon let you out of his mind"
Yunho replied as he interlocked their hands.
"life's been a bitch to the both of us huh boo"Yunho lowered his head and put his forehead to Jae's.
"but it made me realize how much I love you Yunnie"
"should we thank Mr.Life then?" Yunho grinned as he pulled Jae's perfect face to his,searching for his luscious cherry-like lips.
Jaejoong nodded as his lover kissed him lovingly.

--------they say true love is forever, why doubt when you can solely believe?-------

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Chapter 7love knows little boundaries

Epilogue

yah,give me back my cupcake you fatso"
Junsu shrieked as Yoochun playfully bite his strawberry cupcake,a large one,the white whipped cream smothered across his lips and some even got on his cheeks.

"you want it back?"Yoochun asked,while he turned around to face Jaejoong and Yunho who were both watching the cute couple busy playing with each other.Yoochun gave them a grin as if signaling them to watch for his next move.
"yahh.the cupcake is so yummy 'kay,I want it back" Junsu pouted,his raven hair shone in the not so bright sunlight.The weather is just fine for a picnic,so instead of spending their time in a posh eateries having a posh lunch ,they opted for a picnic for a late lunch.

aww,such a stingy dolphinie"Yoochun laughed,much to his own fun torturing Junsu by stealing his big cupcake.
He kissed Junsu causing the whipped cream to dirtied the other's face.
'ahhh.you idiot." Junsu blushed as he wiped the cream with his hands.
"but you like it don't you?hahaha"Yoochun laughed his head off when Junsu's face reddened due to his sudden act of love

'aish those two mushy people really is a something ehh boo?"
Yunho asked Jaejoong whose busy peeling off an orange.
"they're sweet and you're nothing like that,so don't be jealous Yunnie" Jae replied,his eyes still on the orange he was peeling,acting all innocent when he clearly was being sarcastic.
"yahh,what' s that supposed to mean?are you telling me that I'm no longer sweet ,boo?"
Jae shrugged.
The he gasped.
Yunho stole a kiss from him
is this sweet enough for you?"
Jae shook his head.
Yunho kissed him again,this time he lingers a moment longer.
"sweet enough?"
Yunho grinned.
Jae shook his head again.
"yah ,you're one tough beauty to please boo."
He grabbed Jaejoong and planted a kiss all over his lover's face.
"yahhhh.all mushy,go get a room or something?"
Junsu 's shriek broke their kiss.
"wae?are you jealous ?" Yunho smiled.
"Chunnie can do better, right Chunnie?"
Yoochun shrugged.
"yah,whose side are you in?"he purposely grab his lover's hand,much to his surprise Yoochun pulled him for a quickie.
"I think we all have to get a room " Jaejoong said as he rolled his eyes to Yunho.

His eyes met the other's with such love.
They smiled.
They had their happy ending
Just like a fairytale

~and they happily live ever after

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Chapter 8note to readers

thanks for such support and for finishing reading this very
*amateur fic of mine,saranghae yongwoni ( love u foreveR) shud i say to all?
*haha

i did this in just 10 hours and in two parts,a gruelsome 12am to 6am first phase
and 8am till 10 am 2nd phase.

can't find much fic that suits my liking these days*sighs

they're either tOO rated or oneshots,

*not that i don;t appreciate those writer's effort and endless support for jaeho
i really adore their stories seriously but at times too much rated scenes and lack of plots drives me up the wall.
*to all ficwriters,especially the one who loves jaeho and yoosu couple.keep up the good work.

btw,these three fics are my favs,do GOOGLE them for a taste of jaeho-ness.c:

*i will always love you *the very first fanfic i read
*the black rose*the very first fanfic ive heard about from a friend of mine
*my lovely kim jaejoong.

these three are my favs of all time.C:

do comment
and i'm thinking of more sequels
perhaps with much twisted ending and a little more of r rated scenes is not that bad right?

pen off,
visage

*to love of no boundaries

---------------one loses,the other gains--------------