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What do you prefer, to be alone and happy, or to be surrounded by people but still lonely? 

Sometimes not everything's clear. Your perspective, its like a mirror. Untouched and clean can it be, then you shall see everything clearly and through your own very eyes, devoid of any outer factors that make you don't. That is, until someone blows on it, or something touches it, and it goes and goes on, then at a point, you'll realize, the once crystal clear surface becomes hazy and not so clear. You can't see anything. Life is a little like that.

And that's where a difference is made.

You can always clean a mirror, but doing the same with your life, your perspective and your choices, when they become so diluted with the opinion's of others, originality does not remain, and it is difficult to always go back to where you started from. It isn't always possible.

But it doesn't always mean you can't get yourself back. The world has always been this way; harsh and deceptive. It will continue to be, and the choice lies in your hands; do you want to let the world change you, or will you change the world? And the answer, it's all a matter of circumstances. 

It isn't all things to all people, all the time.

Burdens of the world will always come and go. It is your own decision to either let it get inside you and weigh you down. 

Whatever one does, it isn't reasonable to judge, either. Because again, it's all a matter of circumstances. Everyone's fighting a war you know nothing about.

Even if you do, even if you feel them, even if you have a heart full of sympathy, that is commendable, for such a heart is difficult to find in today's world.

But feeling someone else's pain does not make it your responsibility to resolve it. You can only help. Healing the wound from within is up to the wounded. Even the best quality of medicine cannot heal one until the heart wishes to be healed and lets itself be healed. And the healing doesn't always have to be the same. Everyone can have their own way of healing.

Then, again.. we live in a world terribly nosy, don't we? 

Peace is envious.

The world itself isn't at peace, how is it gonna let you be at peace? 

Relief is temporary, pain is forever. It's a cycle that goes on and on. And it goes on until you finally become one with the soil that you were born on. All the pain, grief and sorrow for nothing, but only leading to nothingness; endless nothingness. 

It has become so normalized, you will see people crying in pain everywhere, and we've all gotten used to it, but to see one wiping their tears and stand up on their own feet, is not. It's a nice thing to dream of but difficult to live in. And you'll read books, about growth, acceptance, healing and blooming. Many make it their ideal motive for life.

But this book isn't one of them, because not every story isn't one of them.

It's all about grief, more grief, and endless grief.

But what is grief, if not love persevering?

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