Apologies

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1:28 pm

18th December, 2021

"Screw him?" You spat, stuffing a bit more nachos in your mouth. "How could he even say that?" You asked to your companion, sitting on the bed next to you. Here you were, sprawled on the bean bag in the room, cans of Sprite all around you. "Well, wouldn't you if you have the chance?" She asked and you scrunched your face. "I don't need to. He's not the only one out there to screw" you rolled your eyes and Taru stared at you with a straight face, eyes narrowed.

"He called me a controller. HOW COULD HE?" You screeched and Taru squinted her eyes, shaking her head to control herself. "THAT PATHETIC FUCKER, THAT ASSHOLE, THAT DICK!" You kept cursing and Taru's face twisted. "Y/N! Can you please stop?" She closed her ears and you scoffed. "He's such a shit. WHY DID I EVEN CARE? I should've blocked him the day you gave my number to him like a stall flyer." You blankly spoke. "He thinks he is the best dancer out there? Huh" you snorted.

"He thinks he got the best face? He thinks I just wanna eat him up? I DON'T NEED TO! HE CAN KEEP THAT FILTHY LITTLE MOLE ON HIS CHIN WHICH I WANNA KISS TO HIMSELF!" You bursted and she ignored you. "He thinks he's the best singer out there? Hmm? Euphoria?" You asked, suddenly getting violent and getting a hold of your best friend's shoulder after jumping on the bed. "NO! HE DOES NOT KNOW THAT HIS VOICE KILLS ME. HE DOES NOT." You shouted again, making her roll her eyes. "Yup, definitely. You hate him" she nodded cutely and you agreed with a firm yes. You were about to let out a few curses more before Taru stretched her hand in front of your face.

In her hand, she held a tub of frozen goodness. "Ice Cream?!" You let out, eyes twinkling like a baby. "Awwww, Taru. You're so good" you said, suddenly getting emotional even though your best friend muttered a 'what the fuck' at your sudden mood swing. You quickly opened the container and scooped a spoon full of it into your mouth. "Wait" you said with the ice cream still lingering on your tongue.

"THIS ISN'T SWEET!" You whined again and her eyes squinted. "WHY ISN'T THIS SWEET? TARU, YOU'RE SO BAD!" You squealed again and she facepalmed. "Chill, okay? You were the one who said you wanted to loose weight. That's why I gave you a fat-free one." She stated and you pouted. "But I just had a-"
"Break-up? You're behaving like it." She cut in between, an amusing smile on her face.
"-A FIGHT! A TERRIBLE FIGHT!" You gritted your teeth and she chuckled. "Fine. Let me bring the other tub, will you?" She asked and you huffed, getting back on the bean bag and eating the ice cream anyway.

"Flavour?" She asked, leaning on the threshold. You didn't move your eyes from the television. "Anything but cookies and cream" you bluntly replied and Taru shook her head, walking to the kitchen anyway. She opened the refrigerator and searched for a chocolate flavoured ice cream. Once she found it, she turned around with a satisfied smile only to bump in a tall guy's chest.

"OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK?" She screamed on the top of her lungs, spitting a bit on the man's face standing in front of her with a blank expression. "I AM CHANGING THE KEY PASSWORD" She screamed, annoyed by him till no limits. She kept a hand on her chest to calm herself, breathing heavily while staring at him with angry eyes.

"Who keeps their birthday as their home password anyway?" He asked in a nonchalant tone, making her groan. "Jungkook, this is SO NOT COOL" she shook her head and he snickered, moving away from her and sitting on the nearby couch. "What do you want" she kept the ice cream on the table before tapping her foot on the floor. He sighed, bending on the couch with his palm covering his face.
"I messed up."

"Oh really?" She sarcastically voiced and he tched. "I have no idea what I said to her. Your best friend is suddenly ignoring my calls." he said and she raised an eyebrow. "According to my analysis, you were drunk. But you're talking as if you were high on nicotine" she chuckled and he looked at her face with a blank face again.
I was.

"That's not what matters. I don't understand what I should say sorry for. Even though I'm kinda ready to say it, but she's not even conversing with me!" He threw his hands in the air, trustation visible on his face. "Maybe it's time you stop acting like a brat" she narrowed her eyes and he leaned back.

"You know what? She isn't a toy on whom you can vent out all your frustrations. She's your friend. She may have gotten closer to you than I am in these past months, but let me tell you," she said, bending down on her knees. "If I were her, I wouldn't forgive you either." her lips flattened into a thin line. "What do I do now?" He asked and she snorted. "What am I, a wingwoman? Go figure it out yourself" she said before grabbing the ice cream again.

"Taru you-" You were about to say something before you stopped in your tracks, finding the person you didn't want to see at all sitting right next to the person you were looking for. "Nevermind" you said and were about to leave. "You're here too?" He asked you but you simply ignored. "Taru, can you please tell him to leave?" You said in English and Jungkook rolled his eyes.

"Taru can you please ask her to listen to me?" He said to the girl standing in the middle with folded arms. "Taru can you please tell him I don't want to talk to him?"

"Taru can you please tell her that we need to sort things and for that we have to stop avoiding-"

"Taru can you please tell him that he's not allowed to explain himself?"

"Taru can you please ask her why she avoided all my 78 missed calls-?"

"They were just seventy-six" Now you glared at him, him glaring back at you. And there it started, a stare down competition personally hosted by the two of you just to participate by yourselves. You were fuming with anger and he kept narrowing his eyes at you as well. You opened your mouth to speak.

"Taru can you-"
"SHUT UP!" She scowled, pulling her hair. She breathed in and out before composing herself. "Get the fuck out of my house." She ordered and Jungkook's eyebrows rose. "What did you say?" He said, offended that she was talking this way to someone elder than him. "I said," she plastered a fake smile on her face. "I am impelling you to kindly take your asses and leave my house. Both of you. Now." She said sternly, signalling towards the main door.

She opened the door and the two of you got out one by one, you not even looking at him but he kept glancing at you every second. "And by the way, kook?" Taru opened the door halfway, peeking her head out the apartment. "Y/N called you an asshole" she smiled sweetly, shutting the door with a bang leaving the two of you dumbfounded at the sudden filmy scene.

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Here you sat, arms crossed, legs crossed, eyes out the window and head not ready to turn towards him. In the cafe, there was a silence that did not go unnoticed. He sighed, bored of staring at your face which was not gonna look at him soon. "Wait here" He sighed, standing up and going to the counter. Once you felt him go away, you stared at his back standing in front of the cashier who probably knew him, for this was one of his pet shops.

He suddenly turned around making your eyes widen when he looked straight at your eyes, not missing an inch. You looked away immediately, the grey road next to the window boring you to hell. He came back after a few minutes, putting down your lime soda on the table. "I'll be back with the food" As soon as he said that, your mouth opened to say something but closed. "Nevermind" You muttered again and he leaned on his chair, looking at you for a few seconds without speaking. His eyes hid under his cap, but you very well knew he was staring.

That's what you both had been doing since the past one hour. Staring, staring, staring.

"Don't worry." He swiftly hid his smile. "I'll bring you chicken popcorn" He said and went away, smoothly leaving butterflies dancing in your stomach the way they shouldn't for a friend. He left, leaving your eyes to wander and come back to his figure. Your mind kept strangling itself, not knowing if to forgive, or to decline. Lost in the midst of all the thoughts, your eyes caught something unusual.

You saw him, talking to a woman standing next to him in que, shorter than you in height, laughing and giggling to him. Your eyes narrowed as you bit your lip, seeing him wave merrily to her before coming back towards you with the tray in his hand. She must be an ARMY. You thought positive, looking out the window again. He kept it on the table, taking a seat in front of you. The smile on his lips still dancing, probably because of the former interaction.

His smile relapsed on seeing your face, this time, the bunny teeth visible. "This" you said, grabbing the chicken popcorn and eating one. "This isn't gonna work" you said, referring to his gesture of buying you your favorites. "It's just not compatible with what you said that-"

"I'm sorry..." He said interrupting you, gulping. "I have... No idea what I said that day. But I really want to apologise." He continued but you interjected. "Why were you-" "Hear me out?" He softly said and your nose flared without any other word. "I know it's lame and you already know it, but still I'll say it. I was just frustrated again... After seeing my mother and her condition... I'm... Just sorry... To you and... I didn't mean to do it but I just went there and then they-they-" he sighed, words not coming out of his mouth anymore.

"I am trying. And I will try again." He bit his mouth and your eyes sharply turned at him, inwardly softening at his genuine expression, but eyes still narrowed. You knew he was hating all this. You knew it was hard for him to apologise like this because he wasn't the one who made big mistakes. You raised an eyebrow, finally looking at him. "Why, Jeon Jungkook?" You spoke with a hint of tease. "Isn't your self-ego hurt? You're apologising to someone five years younger than you" you pouted in a sarcastic manner, and he knew what you were trying to do.

"True" he simply said, grabbing his burger. "But I think I realised that whatever I said to you... rather what everyone told me I said, was not something I should say to anyone, no matter how much more experienced I am" He nodded to himself before biting his mini meal. You were finally satisfied with what he said, but you weren't ready to let go of the matter so easily.

You just grabbed his chocolate smoothie before putting a straw next to his', and drank a little bit of it. You handed it back to him and continued with your own food. He looked at your actions carefully and then chuckled, turning his face away. "Aish this girl..." The words left his mouth naturally with a grin, not looking at you. You hid your smile, focusing back on your food.

It was for a minute that you didn't say anything, looked up and caught his eyes, acting pricy, causing no change except helping the man in front of you acquire an amused expression. Your phone rang and it was some colleague. You got up before going to a distance, to talk in silence. While he was confirming about some projects with you on the phone, your eyes kept roaming around the person whom you left unattended a few seconds ago.

But he wasn't looking at you anymore, and it triggered you. Rather his head was turned to his right, looking towards the same woman he was talking while standing in the que. You rolled your eyes, hanging up after courtesies and walking to your seat. He kept smiling at her and she was clearly flirting, making you even more mad.

"It's been literally a minute since we made up kook" you said, sitting on your seat. "You're already busy flirting with someone?" You said and he frowned. "I'm not flirting" he gave you a blunt reply and you tilted your head. "Who is she?" You asked and he giggled. "She's someone I messed up with before, once or twice" he casually sipped his smoothie. "She found me here today and she can't keep her eyes away from me" he said, a cocky smirk plastered on his face.

You snorted, shaking your head. "And you wanna 'mess' with her again?" You asked and he shook his head. "Naah. She speaks too much while fucking" He said and you were easily taken aback, your lips turning into a thin line. "I'm just tryna get rid of her" he told you and you snickered. "By smiling at her?" You asked and he shrugged.

"And what does she think she's tryna do while you're sitting in front of another girl?" You asked, trying to adjust your tone. "Chill, she knows I can't have a girlfriend. She must think you're my sister or something" He shrugged again and your eyebrows raised. 'Sister'?

Huh.

"Okay" you stood up making his head raise at you. He looked at you with cluelessness as you got up and walked to him, as a barrier between him and the table. "What are you doing?" He asked you, truly puzzled while shifting in his chair. You innocently shrugged. "Just giving you some help to get rid of her" you turned your head to make sure she was watching from the other table, and it was true, she was. With wide glaring eyes.

Your head turned back at him and in a swift moment you leaned downwards, exactly upto his face.

And then you kissed him.

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A/N
Umm.
*hides*

*okay comes back*
So people I wanted to tell you people that the last chapter, Guilt and Control, was meant for the past of Y/N. It connects as it shows why Y/N got mad when Jungkook called her a 'controller'. She is basically fine with any hurtful words but that. So yeah, there's a valid reason for her to get mad.

Be yourself
-DiamondMaknae ❤