'I've had so many emotions
Every time it feels new
But never did I have another feeling
That felt like you'

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"Hey, Jimin, stop touching your hair" Taru screeched.
"I'm not!" He quickly removed his hand

"Namjoon, no breaking the choker"
"Yeah Fine, mom!" He rolled his eyes.

Looking back at all the boys who were dressed up perfectly, she turned to her side just to look at Mr. Kim.
"Taehyung, baby, can you please not rub your eyes all the time? I've spent half an hour on making those diamonds"

"But I'm sleepy" Taehyung whined. "Whatever it is. Stop. Rubbing. Your. Eyes." She shouted and Taehyung pouted muttering a small "ok".

You looked away and sighed at the chaos inside the bus, eyes searching for something interesting outside. Jungkook was indeed sitting right next to you, but the two of you hadn't talked since the morning. He was busy with his dance practice for tonight's performance, and you did not bother him at all. When he came back to the hotel, you were simply getting ready and so was he.

It wasn't long before you'd reached, the red carpet lavishly sprawled out there but BTS was going to first drop off backstage, and then go from there in a car to the red carpet. All of you then went on to sit in the cars. The four of you, the younger ones, sat in one XUV together. "This is the first time I'm entering an arena from the front." Taru said and you nodded, to which Taehyung smiled. "Don't be nervous, ladies. It's amazing. A lot of attention and a lot of clicks. And before you realize, it's over. Just walk with us " He grinned to the two of you. Right before you were gonna get off, you looked out the window, making you shake for a second. People. A lot of people. "Get off" Jungkook nudged you and you nodded. He could see you were hesitating, and as if this was the only thing left, he quickly held your hand.

"Smile for the pictures, Y/N." As soon as you heard that line again, you couldn't help but turn and look at him. He looked at you with rather encouraging eyes, but you failed to mark any hint of a smile on that face which should've been shining from happiness and glee tonight. And the worst thing you felt when you saw his gloomy face? You were the reason for it and you knew it.

"Okay" You stepped off the black car, Jungkook getting down from the other side. Moving towards the red carpet, the two of you walked together, his hand wrapped on your waist. You just walked over to Taru and Taehyung and there you met another man. "I'm the staff, I'm here to escort you" He smiled and Taru nodded. "Okay, yeah" "We won't be long" Taehyung smiled and you nodded. Jungkook then left your hand which he had been holding and went on to the other members who stood on the edge of the carpet talking to some interviewer.

The last thing you and Taru did was giving each other a knowing look when the two of you heard Namjoon's clear voice followed by the other members'.

"Hello we are, BTS!"

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There you sat, different singers that you dreamt of meeting, performing right in front of your eyes. You were very well distracted by them, so it was surely hiding your awkwardness. Jungkook and you had hardly talked. Just a few mumbles here and there, but no major things. "It's us next to the waiting room." Yoongi quickly nudged Jungkook and he nodded. "All the best. I know you'll all set fire" You smiled. "Thanks Y/N. Jin hyung, let's move" Namjoon nodded.

Before they performed their new song, the anchor clearly had difficulty announcing the names. Before the anchor had said "Now we have...", the ARMY had already roared to life, the screams and chants overpowering every damn speaker in that arena. The funny thing was, many known singers were participating in the chants, and that fact made you so proud. Taru had been backstage with them, leaving you alone at the seats. But you didn't feel lonely - for you, this was your first ever concert. And fuck yeah, you were ready to enjoy it from that close.

They started fluently, ended recklessly. It was almost as if it wasn't BTS on the Grammys, but rather Grammys on a BTS concert. This group really knew how to make a stage their own, and they were already pros at it. They were, indeed, now considered as the kings of performances, no more rookies in American music industry, rather they were now the seniors.

When they returned to the backstage, they were sweating badly. Heart rate thumping as if abnormal, and it was almost at that limit that you felt how are they were even alive? Though that, you helped the guys passing them tissues. Yes, you had sneaked backstage. You were just so super excited to tell them how great they'd done. Helping them giving some cold packs, you went on to the group with some more napkins while they were all sprawled on the couch in the makeup room.

"You. Were. AMAZINGGGGGG!!!! The way you spun on that part, Jin that was so fucking perfectttt! And yeahhhhhhhh MIN YOONGI you dangerous guy! You actualllyyyy-" you kept on fangirling like crazy and all of them took a while to giggle at your cuteness, the way you gave no flying fucks about everybody watching while you were literally drooling at them on the moment like a lunatic. "Jimin your vocals were amazing. Remind me to spank you next time if you say you can't sing" You said very seriously and Jimin bowed.

"Hoseok, never stop dancing, please. Pleaseeeee" You kept on complimenting everybody and they kept on thanking you, defending when they were flustered. Everybody was done. And now Jungkook was left. You, could not form words at that part. "You were great..." You said to him, shyly nodding and then saying bye to them. "Guys, change up I'll be leaving or they'll kick me out to my seat" You nervously chuckled and they all agreed.

"She just left" Jungkook shook his head. "That's her way of saying things, kook" Taru shrugged. "She can't praise you on the face. You know why, right?" She asked and Jungkook nodded. "You probably already know everything, don't you" He asked and she nodded removing his makeup. "I do. But I won't say anything. Talk it out with her, okay?" She smiled and he nodded. "Will do." She hmmed at him, continuing to work.

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Jungkook

"And the award for the best album goes to" as soon as the nomination display was over as if an instinct your hand went to mine. It was true that it's my first time being nominated solo at the Grammys. But to be honest, it seemed as if you were much more nervous than I was because you were literally sweating. We had already won the best group award, so I was already so happy, but I would be happy even if I don't win. But you were looking like a completely different version.

"You'll do this, I know you'll get this, I know you will" You kept murmuring, eyes squinted shut, chanting a mantra while holding my hand even tighter. "Jeon Jungkook, for his album, 'You' " I heard my name and as soon as that, the whole row screamed. "YEAHHHHHHH" Actually, the whole row was almost occupied by BTS, so yeah, everyone went Crazy. I quickly pecked you, then went on to Namjoon and hugged him, followed by the other members. Of course, it was my little fetish that I'll peck you and hug all the members in a dramatic way if I won the award, but seriously, at that moment it wasn't a fetish or a drama, more like it was natural.

"You did it!" You exclaimed, and I couldn't help but wonder if your behavior last night was you as well or not. I didn't want to think about it at the moment, but I couldn't help myself. I was getting teary, heck I promised myself not to cry. But it was just the situation and the mixture of emotions I felt that I felt like bawling my eyes out. Composing myself, I went on to the stage, bowing a little while thanking the guy giving me the award. "Thank you" I smiled and he nodded, giving me the mic.

"Ummm... " I softly said into the mic when I couldn't understand where to start. It was so easy to start, I had just forgotten the word that was to be said before any other speeches I make. And there it was. "ARMY....." And the crowd screamed, making me grin and happy, my heart getting warmer by the second.

"I'm nothing without you, my ARMYs.......... And I belong to you, and everyone of you ....... belong to me. Clear?" I raised an eyebrow jokingly, chuckling later. I had practiced so many times for this. Oh I really knew the words in English. I was so nervous I'd make a mistake even though I'd practiced the speech. Now that I was standing right here, my head and brain had gone completely blank, I'd gotten numb. What was I supposed to do?

"I'd love to thank my members.... BTS paved the way, and I am.... nothing.... without them. My producer... Bang PD nim" I smiled more as the words were swiftly coming back to me. "When... I think of it.... I am from Korea... and Grammy?" I looked up to the crowd, caught a few smiles from everyone. "It's.... almost impossible..." I grinned, genuinely happy at the moment. "Mom and Dad... Thank you for bringing me to this world.... I'm nothing without you both....." I then paused. Taking in a breath, I finally let it out.

"Y/N..." the words left my mouth swiftly and the shouts became so loud suddenly I couldn't hear my own voice. I wanted to make it short, but I didn't know how to. "The album... 'You'... Is made for... Um... You" I chuckled and I knew those tears were near. "And... You, are a lot to me... My little world..." My eyes found their ways to you, you were probably embarrassed because I knew you didn't like the attention. But this was huge to me, and I could not let it slide. "Thank you for being my inspiration every single second... And... Please be with me forever." I looked at you, both of us looking at each other, I knew your eyes were moist too.

Bringing myself out of it, I looked at the award again, and then back at the crowd. "Once again, ARMY. Thank you for being the cause of my euphoria" I grinned widely, nodding and then getting off stage, the claps and applauds being thrown at me. Then I made my way back to the seats, and sat down next to you. The level of joy I felt at the moment was something I couldn't describe, and the congratulations from the other members made it even better.

Once it was finally back to normal, I looked at you form the corner of my eyes, your attention focused at the stage. "I'm so proud." You suddenly said, turning your head towards me. "So happy. I didn't know I could ever feel this amount of gratitude for anyone" you smiled and I smiled back. "Thank you" you said, suddenly hugging me with your arms around my neck and I was taken a bit aback. But then I realized and hugged you back. I closed my eyes in satisfaction, taking in your scent and almost rubbing your back. I don't understand, but what is this emotion, love? I cannot bring myself to be mad at you even though I am. I still long for your hugs and your touch no matter how much you hurt me. Now I notice how I could never realise that your presence became a necessity.

'What would I do without you?'

A/N

Oh lord that was hard.

Be yourself
-DiamondMaknae🖤