I jump awake from my nightmare, I was being attacked by that thing that I saw last night, should I take the neriad's advise to go to camp? I don't know where it is. If I get the chance would I go? Would I leave my friend for my own good? That would be selfish, very selfish so I am not sure at all. Anyway, I haven't heard from them so I should just get ready and head to the beach....

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third person's POV

For the next 2 and a 1/2 weeks the routine for Ilah went: get up, get dressed, have breakfast, get ready, go to the beach, spend the day there, come back, get dressed, have dinner, clean up, go to bed, fall asleep, have a nightmare and repeat. Namely her stay had been quite great besides the nights she even climbed the hill in front of their house

Ilah's POV

I sigh and stretch as I wake up from yet another nightmare. I recount the days and groan realising the date, the worst date in my year namely my birthday December 23rd. I slam my body back into the pillow "happy birthday to me" I muttered sarcastically to myself "as if, when has my birthday ever been good?" I muttered and sit up. I look around and immediately rush to get ready for the beach, no time for breakfast

Once I'm done I run down the stairs, grabbing a sausage and some pau on the way and run to the beach eating while running until I get to the beach where I immediately dive into the ocean and swim to the riff. Once I get there I smile and wave at the neriads who look at me confused until I sit down on the same rock I had sat down on a few weeks ago with a sigh.

 The neriad from a few days ago - I'll call her shyrine - comes and swims in front of me "what's weong?" she asks concerned "nothing" I say but there is no way she believes me "then why are you crying- well almost crying anyway" she asks and I wipe my eyes angrily. I've never shown weakness before why now? Well it is this date.... so whatever, just need to build up my wall again

I sigh, looking into her eyes knowing I can't resist "it's my birthday-" "Yay happy birthday!" "- the worst day of the year" I finish, looking down to the coral, seeing a shell moving through it and hitting a ridge and not being able to go over, next to or around it so I pick it up gently and place it on the ridge. It crawles away happily "what?! Why is it so?!" Shyrene yells shocked "everything goes wrong on my birthday and it's not like anyone cares" I tell her with a depressed expression.

Her eyes widen and she rushes to hug me tightly "you are not alone sister" she says and I hug her back, her salty smell enveloping me in a world of peace and serenity for a short period of time "I am" I say as I pull away and tears fall from my eyes for the first time in years it feels strange, like I have forgotten how to cry which I kind of had. She looks at me concerned and I shake my head, plunging into the depts to be alone

I dive deeper, deeper until I sit on the bottom of the riff, alone like I always am, I let the tears spill from my eyes so no one can see them and I feel safe in the water. I cry and cry and cry until I have no more tears left to cry and resurface to see Shyrene waiting for me "tell me everything" she says