He took her to his home with himself .... He knows that his heart is shattered but still he wanted her near him for his own peace of mind

He knows she betrayed him but still he wanted her to be secured because only he has the right to hurt her ... Love her ... Heal her and broke her ....

The drive was silent all the way .... Thousands of thoughts were roaming in his head ... While she was not in the right state of mind to take up  more allegations on herself when she did nothing ....

Is this what she deserved ? ....

Is this her life ? ... It will always remain like this .... Why does she not deserve happiness.... When she had thousands of dreams about herself and sidharth the love of her life .... Will he always treat her like this .... Will he ever understand her ? ....

But is she prepared to take up all this
Is she prepared to remove his misunderstanding.... ?

Is she prepared to take up all the pain ... His harsh words and that hateful eyes ? ....

Hella NO

But her love for him has just given her strength to live ....to love him from her soul ....

To love him beyond anything and not to expect anything in return ... That's what she only knows ....but in the slightest corner of her heart there are also that wishes which she buried in herself long ago ....

The wish of being wanted ... The wish of being loved by him the way she loved him ...

Wishes to get same kind of affection from him ....

These wishes came up without her knowledge when he just entered in her life ....

She knows that life is not always a bed of roses it contains thorns too and we have to face it .....

But her life ... Never had any roses not even in her childhood ...  She experienced love .... Never .... Only hatred .... Betrayel .... She felt unwanted ... She was blamed .... For what she never did .... She was called wretched ....

Her heart shatters every time when she remembers what she faced in her childhood ...... When she didn't even knew what the fuck does pain means ....

Her childhood is her life which she can never forget ... The darkest past ....

Which had only lead her to trauma ... Panic and anxiety attacks .... Depression .... Even she tries to commit suicide

(Point to be noted .... Remember I have said that she wraps a colourful cloth around her left hand wrist ?)

And hides it with the cloth ... Only her love for him has saved her ....

But if she will loose that ... Then she won't be able to live ....

His opinion about women was never a good one. ... Because his own mother who gave birth to him whome he loved beyond anything betrayed him and left him just because of money ....

He was guilty for what he did with her in hospital but he never knew that she will also betray him ...

He always had a feeling ... That

SAARI QAYNAT DHOKA DE JAYE
PAR TUM KABHI NHI DOGI 🥺

when that feeling broke it just shattered his heart .... Making him feel like the dumbest person for believing her ... For giving her space in his heart .... The heart the emotions he caged a long back felt alive by her near him ....

Once again being broken just caged his heart .... But those feelings were making him weak in front of her ....

The feelings of protecting her ... Making her his ... That strong desires towards her .... That eyes which he wanted to shine .... the smile ... He wanted to see her laughing ... But ....

All these only gave him pain ....

Now he was determined to make her feel the same way he was feeling .... He wanted to break her and cage her ....

And never let her go ....

And he will not step back this time ....

Both were fighting there inner turmoils .....

Both were not in the right state of mind .... One's mind was clouded with misunderstandings and one with miseries ....

The worst is when you had done nothing but still being punished ....

That's what happening with her and she knows that it's of no use .... To make him understand.... Because right now .... He was misunderstanding her ....

What she can do is leaving everything on destiny and just pray to god to remove all this misunderstandings ....

Which is breaking there attachment 💔

They reached home .... Early in the morning .... Everyone was asleep .... He did messaged Rita maa that he was stuck in some work ... he can't give her tension ....

As stress is not good for her ....

Getting in he directly goes in his room leaving her alone ....

He didn't even spared one glance towards her ... Which made her feel so low about herself ....

Collecting her hope she made her way towards her room .... Sleep was far away from her ....

She can't even sleep .... Because of the haunting memories and can't take sleeping pills too .... Because ... Once ... Overdose of sleeping pills lead her on the verge of dying ....

Only mahi knows how she just saved her when she was laying lifeless on her house floor and  and white colour liquid was oozing out from her mouth...

Mahi was hella scared seeing her like that .... In last two days she took lot of sleeping pills just to get herself away from all these thoughts but that left her in the verge of dying ....

She was rushed to hospital .... Her condition was not good and she was almost died but

Doctors also felt it as a miracle as she was saved ....

There is something which has stopped her from dying ... Which protected ....  Her Every time she tried to end her life ...

Mahi was not feeling good to leave her alone ... But her parents were against there friendship .... They also thought so low about her ... But mahi knows she is the most purest soul ....

Mahi's parents never wanted Sana in her life ... They took mahi to us with themselves....

She married Jay there only ....

Once again she was left alone ... And sana's sister she never accepted Sana as her sister because Sana was adopted by her parents ....

She was always jealous of her sister .... And her dadi who just hated Sana because she was an orphan ... Instigated shefali too which made her hate Sana to the core ....

Sana rembers her time with her sinthi Tai who was the only one she loved alot and her sinthi Tai too loved Sana like her own child .... Because sinthi Tai always felt a connection towards Sana .... Though .... Sana never met with sinthi Tai after her adoption but she remembers her love and affection ....

Sinthi tayi .... Cared for her loved her ....

And after she was away from her Tai ... She missed her alot ....

Kabhi kabhi jab aapki sabse keemti cheez aapse door jaati hai toh wo aapko bhi saath le jati hai ...

That's what happened with sinthi Tai ....

After her farewell .... Sinthi Tai fell so Ill ... She was weak and she always remembered Sana ....

Because Sana was her dil ka tukda ....

After somedays sinthi Tai left for hr heavenly journey leaving Sana shattered when she got to know about her ....

A drop of lone tear escaped her eyes as she remembered her Tai ... After her no one loved her the way she did ....

She layed down on the cold floor .... Looking at the ceiling lifelessly ...

Nothing is there ... No one is there for her ....

She was so alone so miserable ... Can't even sleep ....

All the thoughts made her stressed... She was already weak and anxiety took over her .... Her breaths were getting higher she knows she will have anxiety attack anytime soon ...

Just to prevent it reached towards washroom ... Sat down in cold shower ... Which drenched her .... Her body was numb because of the cold water ....

She looked at the cloth wrapped around her wrist .... She removed it ... And caressed. The scars. .. the way she hurted herself many times she tried to cut her nerve ... To hurt herself .... To sleep and never wake up ....

Gets up .... She can't be weak .... She need to correct their relationship.... She need to remove the misunderstanding.... she can't be so weak ....

She needs to stay strong .... For them ....

She can't just let it break ... Without even trying ...  She will try to melt him ....

To make him believe her ....

But how can she just heal him ? ... When she is broken beyond repair 💔

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Heyyaaa my lovelies

Back with another update hehe

I know it's late but I can't help.... Busy with studies ...

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