Ch - 37

He squeezed her eyes when the sunlight disturbs his sleep, placing his hands over eyes he turns to the other side and snuggles his face into something. His lips lift a little when the familiar essence hit on his nose, he nuzzles on the place for feeling the scent more when something comes to his mind.

As soon as he opens his eyes it widens in shock, it took him few seconds to stabilize himself. She is sleeping beside her, rubbing eyes he look all around when eyes fall on the clothes scattered on the floor. He again glances at her angelic face, shaking head sidharth get up and leave the room after taking his clothes.

He keeps splashing water on his face, head is throbbing like someone continuously hitting a hammer there. Slamming both hands on the basin he closes his eyes, as the memories start getting clear, a sense of guilt rushes on his vein which causes him to punch the wall in anger.

How could he do this? How lost all his senses so badly that done something he did not at all wanted? Never before in life did he lose like this, always had control in every situation even if he was drunk. He shouldn't have drink that much, this is wrong whatever happened last night was all wrong.

Groaning he pulls his hair and stands in front of the shower, every time he closes his eyes the memories of last night float in front of him which gives nothing but the feeling of extreme guilt. He hates himself for breaking the promise of not being intimate with anyone except the person he will love.

He wants to erase the night from his life but he can't. But don't understand why she not for a once trying to stop him? He wasn't in his senses, but she was..then why just let all the things happen. All could be well if she for once pushed him back or bring back in senses. Or he was forcing her?

Is she get scared of him? She might be, the way he was behaving last night was completely different and hateful. He was pouncing on her like a desperate person, she was definitely scared of doing something and will surely gonna hate him for that.

Something else popped on his mind which is enough to push him more into the ocean of guilt and regret. He saw those bloodstains on the sheet, he not also ruined the relationship but also her. There was no asking permission before all these, he shamelessly just lost on the pull of desire.

If he could, definitely kill himself at this moment because it's is not possible for him to face her at all. At least he can't for now, he doesn't want to face her with this guilt and regret face. But still, the one thing is not leaving his head that she could have stopped him, at least could try.

Rubbing face he came out of the shower and leave for shooting after getting ready, it will be better if he indulges himself in the work and right now the best decision is to avoid her as much as he can.........

Sana move on the bed when feels a little pain, clutching her eyes she open them slowly. A small smile appears on her lips by reminiscing the beautiful memories of last night, her cheeks heat up just by the flashbacks don't know what will happen when she comes near him.

She never thought about something like this, but the moments they spend yesterday night is not something she feeling to regret. She loves him and all that happen is just like confessing and surrendering for love in her view. He always rules on her soul, heart and now she is completely his on all senses.

Roaming fingers on his side she bit her lips in order to control her flushed face, she remembers how he keeps placing kisses all over her face continuously until fall asleep and murmuring, "You are an angel."..

Just then her eyes fall on the clock, it's 1 pm. With widening eyes she rushes towards the washroom, this is the reason he is not here. How could she sleep for so long? She needs to reach on the set, they already mentioned that the shooting schedule will be tough for one week.

He should have wake her up before going, now she needs to hurry up. There is a little pain still but it doesn't matter in front of the time they spend together. The blush is not ready to leave her side for a second, she is still feeling butterflies on her stomach when saw the bite marks on her upper body.

After getting ready in a black chiffon kurta she clutch her hair, today she have to put extra makeup on those marks of love. Her cheeks really don't need any blusher today it is already red than beetroot. She just leaves by applying a maroon shade on her lips.

The happiness inside her is showcasing by the natural glow on her face.. ........

"Shenaaz, where was you?" Tina a girl from the crew asked. Playing with her fingers sana mumbles, "Sorry, I will be fast." She is going to move towards sidharth's van direction as she is completely doing the makeup since all become cordial between them.

"Wait where are you going?" Tina asked by stopping her.

"To do the make-up." She answered in a confused tone.

Shaking head tina give her few clothes and says, "No babes you need to go to aditi mam's vanity, sidharth sir has his own team and they are already inside. Come start fast we have so many works." She leaves by patting her back.

Sana didn't understand the situation, he always has the team but prefers her to stay. She is a little confused but didn't focus on the things, all are busy and she is late he might need to hurry. Shrugging all thoughts she went towards aditi's direction.

Placing the clothes she going to start the makeup when aditi hold her hand, "What do you think of yourself?" He gritted her teeth by tightening the hold so that the nails dug on Sana's wrist.

Wincing she asks, "What are you doing?" She yelled at her by jerking the hand which causes her to fall on the floor. "You bloody whore this is where your place is, on the ground not beside a superstar like sidharth." Her words feel not less than poison.

Sana get up slowly with a confused face, she is already shivered by the tone aditi is using it's not normal for her to yell or fight with anyone. She is no one in her life but her words affecting her somewhere and those beautiful orbs start filling with water.

Not wanting to react anyway she is going to leave when aditi turn her back by grabbing her elbow harshly, "Listen to me first bitch, by just opening your damn legs in front of him you will be able to stand beside him.

This is, never happening. Whores like you are just for time pass and taking out anger. This, is not a love bite...it's just a release for him.. You will never be capable of standing with him by holding hands in front of the camera. He won't even look at you from now." Said she pushed her out from the vanity.

Every word that escape from her mouth is piercing her soul with a sharp blade, tears fall continuously from her eyes. She is no one to judge anything, or their relationship when she doesn't have a single idea that they are already married.

She is the mysterious wife, about whom no one knows..because he never tells anyone. Shaking her head she shrugs her thoughts, this is wrong to believe in some outsiders words. Wiping her face she looks at the blood drops on her elbow, needs to clean.

She is moving in a direction when saw sidharth coming from the front, this is for the first she saw him after last night. With a slight smile, she stares towards him with the flushed face but to her shock, he left from there without even sparring a single glance at her.

Sidharth fisted his hands to control himself for not looking at her, in the morning also he change the team just to avoid her. He can't face her with the guilt and regret that consuming him, have to be stable first before saying anything to her. It's not some small decision, this is serious and he isn't ready for any decision at this moment.

All he knows is just avoiding the situation anyhow............

Colliding her brows Sana turns towards him, the sparkle left her eyes for a long she doesn't even realise when the beautiful glow start turning into a pale face. She hates it but aditi's words start hitting her mind, soul, heart from all ways.

She is just thinking nonsense, he is just too busy in the work not avoiding her. Taking a deep breath she leaves to apply something to her scratch...

After some shot they call someone for the touch up she is going to move when sidharth says by looking at the other side, "Arun, please set the things." He is doing every single thing can do to not face her at this moment.

Sana stares at him in almost shock, he doesn't even refuse her work at the time when claimed to hate her. From the first day she has always done his touch-ups, her heart is beating loudly against her chest. She trying to avoid aditi's words but his every single action force her to think in that direction.

Was she really a moment of distraction for him? All this was just a way of forgetting his anger?

Shaking head she rubs hands on her face, no she is just thinking too much. It's all her words that affecting, everything was beautiful in the morning her life can't just again shatter all her happiness like this. She is not that bad luck, or is she?

Taking a deep breath she lifts her head when eyes fall on aditi who is smirking at her and move closer to sidharth. They are shooting a last kissing scene for the series, she knows that but her mind is on somewhere else at this moment.

Sidharth might not glance at her but he can feel her presence all the time, after whatever happened back on Darjeeling he avoids giving this type of scene in front of her as still doesn't know anything about her past.

And also watching on screen is a different thing, no matter what she is his wife. It's just not feel right in her presence, taking a deep breath he looks at the director and yells, "I am having a little problem, will you please remove the extra person?"

Earlier he used to give her some work or ask to wait in the vanity but today it is also not possible.

Sana stumbles back by his sudden words, it feels like that someone slowly piercing the blades on her heart and making several wounds. The slow stabs always hurt more than the fast ones, she feels a weird ache on her stomach. Holding back the tears she leaves from that place.

The whole is day is passing like this, every time he found some other reason to pushing her away from him without having the idea that he is ripping her soul harshly unintentionally. His every action is pushing the poor soul into the cave of pain and suffering.

The beautiful glow is long replaced by the pale sadness that plastered on her face. In her life, she doesn't need to find the reason for pain, because it always finds her even in the crowd.....

She still trying to not broke for no reason, the day was busy for him and all. Like always she was waiting for him on the backside, but by crushing over her soul he leaves from some other direction without noticing her.

Clutching the bag tightly she leaves for home, every time she tries to keep her belief and not broke because aditi's each word proving right..he destroys her hope with his actions.

Sidharth takes the other turn but he didn't leave her, the whole way his car was behind her cab. He still doesn't believe her in the matter of safety, ...

Both reach home at the same time, she again trying to talk but he simply went to his room and close the door. Nodded with a sad smile she moves towards her room..........

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