I don't know how hell feels. I only know it would be better than how I feel when you are away from me.

-Randhir

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Kimaya was nine months pregnant. It was difficult for her to even walk properly as Randhir shifted their room to the ground floor. They didn't come close to each other anymore. It was difficult for Kimaya to forget everything and jump in his arms. They didn't even kiss in this long time period. There would be a few forehead kisses but nothing more.

Randhir knew whatever happened had affected his wife the most. Kimaya never dared to speak about her fear of not surviving the delivery not wanting to make him angrier.

Randhir won't let his wife stay alone at the mansion. He would either ask Shantanu to stay there when he would be busy or will stay with her.

It was a slightly cold Sunday morning when her family came to visit her. She was ecstatic to meet her parents after so long but her father looked disappointed when his eyes fall on her baby bump.

Her tauji blessed her with happiness as she smiled brightly at him.

"You are feeling good, right?", her mother enquired making her nod her head.

"How sure are you that this baby won't take upon his father?", Her father spoke as she lost her smile immediately.

"Papa, I don't know how this baby would be. I don't want to think about that as well. The thing I know is I Love Him already", Kimaya said as his father shook his head with disappointment.

"Maya, I am telling you now only. This man is good with you just because you are carrying his blood. After he is born and you won't stay in shape anymore, he won't even look at you for once", her father told her which made Kimaya lose her shine.

"Papa, at least he would let me go then. You know how powerful he is, if I tried to run away from him then he would've put his whole power to bring me back which would only hurt me at the end", Kimaya stated.

"Just don't think that I would accept this baby. If he leaves you in the future, you are always welcome to come back home. You would still be treated like a queen but I can't promise anything for his baby", he spoke before walking out of the room angrily. Her mother looked at her sadly as Kimaya looked down caressing her belly when she felt a kick making her smile.

"I should leave now", her mother said caressing her head making her smile.

She sighed when everybody left. Her smile disappeared remembering her father's words. 

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Randhir just got back home after a tiring meeting. He so wanted to see his wife right now when he entered his room straight away.

There she was reading Ramayana sitting on the bed with one hand on her baby bump and the other holding her book. Her face was shining due to the pregnancy. He couldn't help but admire the scene. Kimaya's eyes moved to him feeling eyes on herself.

There he was leaning on the door smiling softly at her. She frowned sitting straight when she felt a kick. She shook her head at it when there was another kick making her wince this time. 

She frowned feeling one after the other kicks and suddenly the pain started increasing. 

A wince left her lips as her eyes started tearing up. He was immediately by her side hearing her wincing which was accompanied by a scream.

He helped her stand up as she asked when she felt water between her thighs. Her eyes widened.

"My water broke", she whispered in shock. Randhir immediately helped her walk to the pharmacy as she didn't allow him to pick her up.

There was already a team of doctors there with all the medical equipment.

Another scream left her as he made her lie on the bed. She placed her hand on her baby bump as tears kept falling down her cheek.

The room was filled with her cries. It seemed like forever when after 8 hours, she heard a cry making her heart warm immediately. Her blurry eyes fall on Randhir who was carrying a baby covered in her blood. He moved towards her as her breathing got heavier.

She placed her hand on the newly born baby's head as the baby immediately stopped crying. She patted his chest softly.

She didn't really care if it was a boy or a girl. All she cared about was if the baby was healthy or not.

"You okay?", Randhir asked looking at her heavy breathing. She gulped looking at him as she nodded her head. He wiped her sweat using his hand when his eyes fall on the baby.

She slowly closed her eyes feeling like her body was giving up immediately.

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Avyukt Ahlawat came into their life eight months ago. From then life was difficult more so for Kimaya than for Randhir. She didn't really consider herself ready to embrace motherhood and then she wasn't really comfortable with her body having extra fat. It wasn't like she wanted Randhir to pay attention to her that's why she wanted to lose weight.

She just wanted to look confident in herself. She tried to balance her being a new mother and her exercising regularly and soon getting back in her shape.

But till this moment, she got habitual of exercising daily so she continued with it. As a result, getting in better shape than before. Her relationship with Randhir was still a little bitter. He didn't really come near her or it was like whenever he came to his room, she would already be asleep with her son in between them.

He knew she was maintaining distance with him and he did respect her feelings.

Ahlawat family was excited to welcome the new member of the Ahlawat family. He took upon the wheatish complexion of his father. Even his big and attractive hazel eyes and sharp nose were taken by his father while he took upon his pink lips on his mother. His arched eyebrows were again taken by his father along with his curly hair.

All in all, he was just a mini version of Randhir except for his ears and lips. The chubbiness was there on his cheek but it wasn't anything like that of his mother so everybody knew he would look exactly like his father in the future.

Another similarity he had with his father was his love for his mother. He was too protective and possessive for his mother even at a tender age. He would continue looking around for her when she would be out exercising.

He would continue clinging to her whenever he gets a chance. 

The only habit he took upon his mother was sleeping early and then waking up late the next morning. He would wake up once in the night and immediately pat his mother whenever he would feel hungry. This really helped the couple to have a good sleep at night. He wasn't really a cry baby as well which was a relief for Randhir who used to get very much irritated with the crying of the babies.

Aarush was happy to have another child in the family. Though he stayed in Chandigarh he would force his father to take him to Delhi on the weekend.

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"Avu baby", Avyukt heard his mother as he immediately moved to her crawling slowly as Kimaya immediately picked him up from the bed.

"My baby is hungly", she asked as he nodded his head letting his cute curls fall on his forehead. She laughed at his ways before kissing his cheek making him smile cheekily at her. She walked to the kitchen with her son who was looking at her face with the utmost attention. 

She found Randhir speaking to somebody on call when she passed Avyukt to him.

Avyukt tried to go back to his mother who had already gone to the kitchen before glaring at Randhir who glared back at him. 

"She is my wife. Stop glaring at me", Randhir told him which made his baby pout trying to find his mother.

"Maya, did you have your food?", Randhir enquired walking to the kitchen as she hummed softly getting a glass of milk for herself. They walked to their room in silence.

"Give him to me. I need to feed him", she said after finishing her milk keeping the glass aside. Avyukt immediately jumped on her from Randhir's arms making her smile.

She looked at Randhir who was still looking at them.

"I need to feed him", she said silently asking him to look away.

"It's not like I haven't seen anything before", he stated arrogantly making her silent. She just didn't want to speak to him. He wasn't touching her that was enough for her.

She didn't really expect him to stop himself from touching her. Maybe her father was right, he didn't find her attractive after her pregnancy. Though she did use many massage oils in her pregnancy to prevent stretch marks which worked to a certain level. But she wasn't anywhere confident in herself anymore.

"You should stop exercising now", he suddenly said as the baby latched on her nipple showing how hungry he was.

"And stay this fat. No please", she shook her head.

"Have you seen yourself, Kimaya? You are looking too lean. You have lost a lot of weight. I think you are thinner than you were when we got married", he told her making her shrug.

"Exercising is healthy. You yourself go to the gym", she told him as he shook his head.

"That is a different thing. I am not asking you to actually stop doing it, just don't be so hard on yourself. You get so much tired with Avyukt and then the yoga. I don't want you to overdo things", he told her.

"I am not overdoing anything", she said as she felt Avyukt already asleep in her lap.

She pulled her nipple out of his mouth before wiping his mouth. She pulled her T-shirt down covering herself.

She placed her baby in his cot which was placed adjacent to their bed. She was about to go to get changed when she felt a hold on her wrist which made her look at her husband curiously.

"What?", she asked when he didn't say anything.

"Till when it is going to be like this?", he asked making her frown.

"What are you talking about?", she asked as he shook his head finally giving up to his feelings holding her wrist in a tight grip pulling her towards him making her gasp softly as she land in his lap ultimately.

Her face was closer to his as he removed the clutch holding her hair together in a bun letting them fall down. 

He caressed her cheek. He forgot the last time when they came this close to each other.

Her eyes were looking back at him with the curiousness still evident in her eyes.

"I am trying, Maya. I am trying my best to juggle up between being a businessman to being a son to being a husband to being to father. I am trying to do everything properly but your staying away from me is not setting well with me. It is making me crazy day by day. What do you want to prove? That I lusted on you. That our son is the result of my lust. That I can't live without having sex", he said making her frown.

"I never said anything like that", she told him straightly.

"Your actions say something else. It seems like you are running away from me like I am waiting for an opportunity to make love to you", he told her making her gulp. She didn't really mean any such thing. She was just trying to protect herself from a possible heartbreak.

"You are taking everything wrong", she told him trying to stop his train of thoughts.

"I understand that one incident broke us apart but I am trying and you can't deny this. I did everything exactly the way you wanted in these almost two years. I am trying to keep up with my anger issues as well as why this distance is still prevailing between us. It's not like we don't love each other. I know you love me and I do too but at least give us a chance", he told her as she looked in her eyes.

"I don't want to have another heartbreak. I don't want our son to be involved in all these things", she said with little tears lining her eyes.

"Kimaya, he is the eldest child in our family. He will have all the responsibilities of the family. We can't change his destiny. I can just promise you to give him protection till my last breath", he told her making her sigh.

"I just don't want any problem in my Avu's life. I don't want him to have a story like you. I don't want him to feel burdened by his responsibilities. He is everything for me. If something happened to him because of this dangerous business world of yours, I won't be able to survive as well", she said with teary eyes. Before the tears can fall down her eyes, he wiped them immediately.

"I am sorry to get you involved in all these things but understand my situation as well. Leaving you would be like leaving my sanity", he told her resting his forehead against hers as with her cheeks in his hand. She closed her eyes feeling the warm touch of her skin. She breathed deeply trying to savor this feeling.

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Who wants to know more about Baby Ahlawat?

By the way, Kimaya and Randhir's relation didn't see any progress in only this year. They are living together still far away from each other. 

Till Next Time...