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Chapter one

"Thanks for the lift Jen! " I smile at my bestfriend as I unblock my seatbelt.

" No biggie ! I'll see you tomorrow before the big DATE with your crush!" Jenna winks at me and I roll my eyes.

" Shut up! I'll see you tomorrow!" I wave at her and step out of her car watching her make her way through my empty neighborhood's street.

I furrow my eyebrows in confusion as I notice my fathers' car in the driveway.

He's never home this early .

I sigh and step into the house feeling anxious .

"Mom! I'm home! " I shout.

" She's not home! " a tall figure apears in front of me . My fathers'. His eyes are red  which proves that he's drunk again .

" Oh o-okey! I-I guess I'll B-be in m-my room ! " I turn my heels towards the stairs with fear, when suddenly I feel a pair of strong arms grabbing my waist.

" Not so fast! "

" Let go of me! " I yell as tears starts to gather in my eyes.

"Leilani! Wake up sweety! " A feminin voice says .

" Wake up hon! It's just a nightmare !"I hear her say.

I wish it was just a nightmare I say to myself.

I open my eyes slowly and see my mother's face smiling at me, I notice a fresh bruise on her left cheek and feel my temper rising.

" When did this happen?"  I ask her angrily reffering to the bruise  .

I sit on my bed waiting for her answer.

" I-It's n-nothing really ! I'm fine Leila" she says with a small smile.

" I'm really sick of this mom! You said he apologized! You said he's changing! "  I snap.

" He did apologize ! He was just a little angry and drunk yesterday!" She yells and her eyes soften as she looks at me in the eyes and then comes her famous sentence" I'll make sure it won't happen again."

" This is what you have been saying for twelve FREAKIN' YEARS! " I yell .

I'm really tired of all this ! What did I do to deserve this ?

I storm out towards the bathroom to get ready for school .

UGH!!

'School' ! My second issue , everyday i have to face my old friends.

I wish I could go back to my old life.

I wish i could go to my bestfriend  Jenna  and hug her tightly to show her how much I missed her . But I can't! I can't face her ! Not after what happened.

She tried to talk to me after "That" day , but I avoided her most of the time or said things like  "Get the fuck out of my life! " , I know I hurt her but I couldn't look in anyone's eyes .

Especially hers.

I take a deep breath and look at my reflexion in the mirror.

Tears spreading down my cheeks , red eyes and pale face .

This is one of the reasons why I can't talk to Jenna or anyone for that matter , once I'll look into her eyes I know I'll start crying , and she'll eventually find out.

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After wearing my black hoodie , black leggings and white converse, I put my hair on a messy bun and grab my school bag .

I tried to get out of the house without crossing his path , and I succeeded.

I walk to the bus stop and lucky for me by the time I got there the bus arrived.

10 minutes later , I was walking through the crowded hallways trying to get to Mrs. Hughs' english class.

I pass through the raging teenagers, feeling invisible.

School has started a week ago , the first day was really hard! People were looking at me suspisciouly , some even thought I'm new here since they didn't recognize me and I don't blame them for it . The old me who used to wear pretty , colorful and trendy clothes , is gone . I now wear only dark clothes along with my black hoodie, and my hair is always put on a bun.

As I walk inside the classroom I notice two very familiar faces .

Jenna my bestfriend or ex bestfriend , and Damian , the only guy that my heart beats for .

Yes , I loved him and I still do .

Last year he asked me out on a date and I was ecstatic , but the date never happened because of what I went through the day before it .

I was devastated and couldn't face him  , he wouldn't like me if he knew what happened...

So just like I did with Jenna , I avoided him and said hurtful things to him , so that he'd hate me .

Jenna is sitting next to him , they were really good friends and apparently they still are .

I walk to the back row to sit , alone as always.

I catch Damian looking at me and I can't help but feel sad when I see hurt in his eyes.

I look away before tears could slip of my eyes .

2 minutes later Mrs. Hugh arrived.

" Goodmorning class! " She says with a grin.

They greet her back.

" So! I marked the homework I gave you last week! "

I sigh when I remember what she had asked us , she told us to write about a very sad story , and I did , even though I might regret it but I wrote about what happened to me last year , of course I tried to make it look like It was from my imagination and I avoided details.

It felt good to write about it , since nobody knew. I just needed to let out some of the steam I've been holding .

" All of your writtings were good ! But there is one in particular that touched me ! I was impressed! " and then she turns to look at me.

Oh no ! Please don't tell me she liked mine? she couldn't have !

" Leilani I loved your writting ! Please come stand here and read it for your classmates! " Mrs.Hugh asked .

Perfect.