I fall down at the door and cover my ears, trying to not hear him but... those begs and cries pierces my heart. his words "I hate you" how differently it sounds now, how much pain it carries, before he truly meant it but... Zhan, my silly gege, how foolish of you, how could you give your heart to me? your precious heart. I bring fingers to my lips and slowly caress them, still not believing he truly kissed me, Zhan... it didn't taste like smoke anymore, but tears no? why? why even our first kiss was filled with pain and sorrow...

during last days, after you left I was mourning for Huai Sang and longing for you. I was scared and heartbroken by loneliness, I couldn't part illusions from reality, that night...those blurry memories of soft touches, words, sweetness on my lips, your tears pouring on my face, I thought it was all dream, only real scars on my legs made me realize... it truly happened.

something, that I could never imagine to be true, love? after meeting you I tried my best to avoid, to run away from it. and you?... you fell in love with me? if both... hate and love makes us to cry, then I wish you don't love me Zhan, this way our separation gonna be easier. Like before... I wish we're connected by hate more. your cute pout of disappointment, thinking I forgot your confession and that bittersweet sparkle in your eyes after finding out I remember, hope someday... I have chance and right too, to say it aloud, to confess to you Zhan

***

hearing car sound, I move curtain a bit and steal last glance at Zhan, the moment he leaves with Yang Zi I breath out and enter my room again. standing in front of the huge mirror I take my clothes off and scan every inch of my body. behind of these fancy, silky materials...how many scars are hidden, every one of them... I can remember the causes, protecting someone from bullies, getting bad grades, fighting with my classmates, refusing to beat someone up, good or bad behavior, it did never mattered, as long as it was unacceptable for him. it's enough, I'm very tired, I don't want to be his slave anymore, if someone pure like Zhan thinks I'm worth to be loved, then let it be, I'm going to believe

I tighten fists and move closer, leaning my forehead at the glass, I deeply stare into my eyes and try to erase or hide again, feelings... all emotions...softness slowly disappears, only emptiness remains there and my whole heart and mind fills with hate and despise. my lips forms evil grin and I whisper "welcome back young master Wang, good luck in your revenge"

*****

after fixing my tie, I enter huge, fancy designed hall and try to hide my annoyance. special party-meeting for shareholders, caused by Huai Sang's family bankruptcy. at moments like this everyone becomes like vulture, doing their best to grab other's property as much as it's possible. These nice looking people, carrying ugly souls, born to dirty this world. Politely greeting everyone on the way I walk towards my parents and future parent in laws, Yang Zi who is wearing long elegant dress, slightly nods to me when our eyes meets and I smile widely, bowing to them.

"Mr Yang, ms yang nice to meet you, it's been while"

"my future son in law looks too handsome as always, having this looks and innate elegance, think you can become great politician like your father" 

"don't say this please, I can never be such a humble patriot and righteous person as him" 

"such a shy boy" he pats my shoulder and turns to my dad "I heard you're preparing for grand political action after winning last election as celebration"

"right, with all my dear supporters" he makes such a pure, sweet expression and I feel like puking. we'll see dad... if you'll be able to fulfill your plan

"you graduated overseas, no sweety?" mom asks Yang Zi and she politely answers "yes mam, at oxford university"

"ah USA, it's great" she excitedly says suddenly and everyone gasps around "my dear son is too lucky, having this smart and beautiful jie as his fiancee" not like first time she embarrasses us and not first time she fakes her tone while talking about me. I chuckle and address to them "please don't mind her mistake, at least she never mistakes shopping mall and beauty salon's locations"

"Yibo, this is disrespectful to Ms Wang" Yang Zi shakes her head and tries to change talking topic "what about Nie family's shares?"

"Liu family got everything, as I heard Chen went almost crazy and literally forced his father to buy it all, guess he is going to take the position in the company, which was supposed for Huai Sang in the future" hearing this, I tighten my fist to the point my palm is about to bleed, was taking his life away not enough? he is holding into everything what belonged to him, just you wait you asshole. I excuse myself and leave our parents with Yang Zi, after being quiet for a while I turn to her and finally dare to ask

"is...he ok?"

"I can't call it ok, but safe yes. I asked my father for two bodyguards, they'll follow Zhan everywhere, although he wasn't willing"

"but your dad, how did you explain?"

"he just trusts me"

"Yang Zi, I know how selfish it was from me, I can't thank you enough, if something..."

"it isn't like I'm doing this for you" she cuts me and deeply breaths in "and I'm not angel too Yibo, just proud woman who won't forcibly takes man she wants, if he doesn't loves her anymore. let's be honest, I truly resented you and do now too, don't thank me for helping him, cause if not you, Zhan shouldn't be in danger from the beginning"

"sharp words, but well deserved" I lower my head and painfully smile "you still love him"

"sure I do, you should know on your example how unique Zhan is, how it's possible to just forget him this easily but I know... you two love each-other, I want him to stay in my life even just as friend, it hurts but...Zhan is too precious to let go of him like this. so, no matter what happens I'm going to help"

"I know, I know best how special he is" feeling glare from someone I look around and notice Chen, who just left to terrace "I'll take my leave now, see you later" I slightly pat Yang Zi's hand and follow him back. There are few members of our generation and everyone goes silent after I join, looking at me with awkward expressions

"What is wrong? Gossiping about me?" I ask with grin and smash cigarette on the railing, handled by one of them "you all already stink unbearably from inside and outside, even fancy perfume can't cover it, why add smoke smell?"

"Did you decide to play "I'm cool guy" game again Yibo? After becoming softy?" Chen moves closer and points his finger to me "you don't have authorities as before anymore, and no one respects you too. all you own now, is that lowborn whore and..."

"Are you done?" I ask and don't move me eyes of his finger still facing to me

"Poor boy is all alone now" he tells others and laughs loudly "without his beloved friend Huai Sang, but guess I loved him more than you...you didn't even attend his funeral, when I shed too much tears, truly sincerely you know?"

"Let me see too... your tears" not expecting this at all, Chen can't protect himself when I grab his finger with fast movement. After a second it's placed on the railing and I hit my fist on it with whole strength, bone breaking sound is hearable. Chen's face shakes from unbearable pain and yelps loudly falling down, I show my teeth others who are going to help and they stop right away. bending down, I drag his trembling body up and dash at railing, my fingers wraps around his neck and make him lean back, his feet almost separates from the ground

"You said no one respects no? Who needs fucking respect when they still fear me? Look, is someone protecting you? The fact I let my guards down for a while, doesn't mean insects like you can defeat me. Listen very well" I bring my face closer and whisper at his ear "I can just throw you down from here but... too easy. I'm going to treat you exactly same way, you did to Huai Sang. I'll make you regret that moment, when you decided to fight against us" I move back and laugh "here, this is what we call sincere tears, caused by real pain. but this is only entry before real grand show"

"you can't, you can never win over me" He cries out and I let go, feeling quite satisfied. Doing things like this...realization that I missed and enjoy it, scares me a little. Glaring to others I leave terrace and call for my guards

"That filthy old man, right hand of Chen, you know no?"

"Yes boss"

"Bring him to me tomorrow, do it quietly, without noticing"

"But...your father"

"This is going to benefit him too, so just do what I said"

"Alright" they nod and I join party again, Chen hides his hand behind jacket and leaves quietly, I just need to act faster than him.

*****

Mr Cao, the most groveler person in our company is tied on the chair and shakes from the fair. The moment I remove blindfold from his eyes he sighs from relief seeing me

"Oh it's you little master Wang, are you here to save me? I was so scared thinking it was someone else"

"save you? Guess how many and what kind of enemies you have, if I'm the safest one?"

"But why did you..." He sweetly smiles and looks around "we could just talk quietly, somewhere nice. You know how highly I think about you, how I respect and..."

"Come one, don't make me shy. How come every old or young boss in our corporation is your fave? Anyway, let's just cut to the chase. I need information from you"

"About what?"

"Chen, that young brat. Tell me absolutely everything, what he is doing, planning, thinking, everything"

"But... I know nothing"

"then... what about cutting some part of yours? will it increase your memory? Let's start from the toes ok?"

"You must be kidding young master"

"Do I look like kidding for you?" I take phone from my pocket and move it to his face "or maybe you're going to talk after watching this?" His face goes pale and i smirk

"How did you get this?"

"Didn't you know? That dad had this kind of videos about you all? In case someday he needs to get rid of you easily. So...you tell me or want your wife to see you fucking your own stepdaughter?"

"He...he wants to completely take over the drug business"

"How?"

"New drug, very strong and effective, but still in the process of testing abroad. Actually Chen..."

"What?"

"Already started selling it, although even some animals aren't capable to endure it's impact"

"So...he is just dooming them for death? making experiments"

"Right"

"Get it for me, that drug"

"But Mr Wang"

"Just do it, don't care how but i need to have it, as soon as possible. and...if you run your tongue with someone about what happened today, I'll become your worst nightmare"

"I won't... I won't" he nonstop nods and I sign guards to take him out. Already having complete plan I dial dad's number and sweeten my tone

"I need to ask you something dad, give me more power...I mean underground club"

"Don't you have enough already?"

"I need full, please do it for me. I got new project yesterday from Yang Zi's father no? Let's call it gift for me"

"Damn you, I don't fucking care what you do there, as long as it won't harm me"

"Thanks" I cut the call and fall down on the sofa, covering my face, there is no way back anymore Yibo. now it's time to visit him... Barbie

So finally I updated 😅 was having busy time at work. sorry, maybe this chapter was kinda boring, because they didn't meet each-other, but I'll try to make it happen in next one😉🥰