"No blame me please" I beg and he shakes head with sweet smile "resent me, give up on me Zhan, so you can live" blood trails slowly slides down on his snowy neck, as knife cuts the skin and coldness runs through my whole body, feeling I'm about to faint. I dig nails into my palms, to cause pain, to stay awake so he won't feel lonely while taking last breath "me, kill me, stop torturing my Zhan" I keep whispering and lose very last hope when suddenly door widely opens. Zhan falls down as dad is forced to let go and loud sound of gunshot startles me, unable to understand what is happening I look up at young man standing in front of me and realize my legs isn't tied with chain anymore.

"help please" without caring who he is I raise my hands and he quickly cuts handcuffs too "Gege" I scream and crawl towards Zhan, removing my father's unconscious body from him I take Zhan in my embrace and try to stop the bleeding "don't you dare, you aren't allowed to die. live and take revenge on me, it's only me... reason of every your suffering. open your beautiful eyes I beg you, I would rather see hate in them than watch closed forever, you can't...you can't leave me all alone, please Zhan" his fingers slightly moves between my palms and someone holds my shoulders, shaking me roughly

"Try to pull yourself together Mr Wang, there is no time for this we have to leave"

"But"

"I'm familiar with this kind of situations, cut on his neck doesn't seem very deep, I think he passed out due to strong shock. Here use this for the time being" he gives me handkerchief and I put it on Zhan's wound, other guards help me to lift him up and my stare freezes at dad who isn't moving all those time

"He is alive if you're worrying, I just hit his nape with pistol grip"

"Worrying?" The fact how absurdly this sounds makes me laugh loudly and grab his collar, feeling insane anger and hatred filling my mind "Kill...please kill him right now" guard's eyes widens and he avoids my stare, do I look like insane?

"I only got order to save Mr Xiao, not to kill someone, if willing this much do it yourself"

"fuck it" I quickly take gun from his belt and aim it at dad's head, trying to stop my shaking hands. I didn't know then... that those few seconds of hesitation... was going to remain as one of the greatest regret of my life. You have to do it Yibo, you have to end everything, not your father, after everything he had done to you he isn't your father anymore, I nonstop keep telling myself and the scenes of him tormenting us repeats in my mind. The moment I deeply breath in and put finger on the trigger, he suddenly opens eyes and my hands shivers, loud sound of gun fills the room and strong smell of the powder makes me tremble. Dragged back by guards I can't even see if it was successful shot and honestly I'm not even sure what I was truly wishing for at that moment.

"Hurry up, more his men are coming, we all are going to die here if not leave right now"

"Alright" I use remaining energy and follow two guards back, who are carrying Zhan. I hold his tiny hand between my palms and control it's heart rate and warmness, as long as he is alive...everything, I can endure absolutely everything. After few minutes of walking we reach big van and I get in, carefully placing Zhan's head on my lap. He yelps from pain as his bleeding back touches the seat and I bend down, caressing his face with my lips, he shouldn't...he should never experience this kind of violence again, only because of me already forgotten nightmare came back in his life. Even you do gege, how am I going to forgive myself?

Driver starts the engine and only after car moves I believe we really survived but thanks to who? Zhan lowly moans and noticing his pale lips I remember our condition, looking around I can't find anything and pat on the partition wall which separates us from the front seats

"Please water" I ask after little window opens and take bottle from them with such a adoration, I find it painfully funny. Used drinking the most fancy whiskeys and champagnes, whose few grams costs more than someone's whole month salary, only now i realize how priceless this simple liquid is. I take few drops in my mouth and hold Zhan's chin, lifting his face up a little. He parts lips and I caresses them with mine, slowly sharing the water. It becomes soft again and his cheeks regains pinkness too

"Sweet, gege's lips are too sweet as always" I whisper and he shivers as my tears drops on his face

"Yibo?" 

"Mn, it's me your Yibo"

"Yibo, did both us...died?"

"How is that even possible? My place is at the hell, not heaven like yours" I cup his face and slightly squeeze his cheeks

"You think..." He faintly smiles and chases my fingers like baby "you can free yourself from me this easily? I'm going to follow you there too"

"I have such a annoying boyfriend, it's too tiring you know?" he pouts cutely and this acts tears my heart apart, it isn't like I don't know how strong pain he is feeling now, how scared and suffered, still trying to hide everything behind his beautiful smile "it's over Zhan, we're safe now. You can rest my love ok? I'm here next to you" 

"but..."

"take care of your neck, please don't talk more. promise gege I won't leave your side, so sleep ok?" he opens eyes to make sure and only after I smile and peck on his lips, Zhan nods. noticing he is already sleeping I open window again and politely tell to familiar young man "it took kinda long time to ask but who..."

"We work under Mr Yang"

"So... it was Yang Zi, who sent you?"

"Guess she knew Mr Xiao was going to escape one day, so installed GPS in his phone. We got signal yesterday but it became very weak soon. Maybe because he left the city and device was taken away too. Fortunately we still could reach you on the time. Seems like...you're not fated to die today"

"I just can't...thank you enough, if it was a little late" I stop and tighten grip around Zhan's hand "if he..."

"Where do you plan to go now?"

"I won't put her in more danger and ruin relationship with her father, Yang Zi already did way too much more than we deserved. appearing at hospital is impossible cause police is searching for me, I can't leave him alone again too... Zhan will never forgive. What...what am I supposed to do"

"No place, you can hide together?"

"Wait..." Suddenly I remember little yacht me and poor Huai Sang were using before for some private parties. If it is still there I can somehow make it to work "yes think I do"  I tell address and sigh from relief, our future still seems blurry for me but for now only fact I have Zhan in my arms is totally enough for happiness. 

"here take this" he hands big box to me after we reach our destination and they carefully move Zhan in the yacht "for medical treatment and some food we bought on the way, should be enough for few days"

"please don't tell Yang Zi about Zhan's condition. just...that we're safe now and very grateful"

"ok, think our work here is done. good luck Mr Wang" I bow few times as sign of thanking and they leave. yacht separates from the coast and I wonder...is this really end of our tragedy? 

*****

First thing I do is cutting Zhan's bloody shirt and doing my best to take care of his scars, like...he did before for me. I give strong painkiller with sleeping pill and wait until his shivering face relaxes, after planting kiss on his forehead I leave sleeping Zhan in the bedroom and look around thinking what to do first. My legs hurts like hell but I can't let him to wake up in this messy situation, remembering what kind of perverted and dirty things we're doing on this yacht makes me too ashamed about my past. I start cleaning and pick useless stuff up, throwing it in the trash can. About two hours passes too fast and I take short shower feeling overly exhausted.

"Yibo?" I hear low call and rush into bedroom, still half asleep Zhan is trying to get up but falls down again. I immediately kneel down next to bed and hold his hands "where are we? it feels weird"

"on the yacht, in the sea. how do you feel? Does it still hurt too much?"

"Serves you right"

"What?"

"It was always me, taking care of you so now...you have to move your ass a little too"

"If you're this happy, I can beat you up again after you recover" I tease and gently hit his nose with my finger, Zhan frowns and shakes his head

"No thanks"

"Zhan... gege I'm very..."

"No" Zhan cuts me and pats hand on the bed "come here, lay down next to me" I obey and stay frozen in front of him, scared to even lightly touch...if he gets hurt more. He moves closer and rubs our noses together, sliding fingers into my hair "did you just take shower?"

"Mn"

"Smells nice as always, guess I'm too dirty and stinky now no?"

"Gege is always beautiful" I exclaim and he smiles "I'll help you to clean up, after you feel a little better and...I can leave if you want to cry"

"who said I do?" his chin starts trembling and finally let goes of his hold tears, Zhan clings into my neck and starts sobbing loudly while I silently keep petting his hair "I was too scared, I didn't...I didn't want to die, I want to live"

"I know, I know my love" I cup his face and wipe his tearing eyes away with nonstop kisses "it's over, let's think it was just nightmare and we already woke up ok?" 

"Ok but...I'm curious about how we survived?" He finally dares to ask and terrify sparkles in his eyes, remembering those moments 

"Thanks to Yang Zi, her guards helped us" I can't help myself but frown slightly

"...Is that so? but why are you making this kind of face Yibo?"

"It's just again and again I get sure ...I can never become better than her...for you. I adore her for saving us but somewhere deeply I'm still dying from jealousy"

"After everything? are you kidding me Yibo?"

"Zhan..."

"Yes maybe you're right but...can heart be ever reasonable? Let me be honest, I loved her and still do, but in totally different way. I think...this was exactly the matter between my parents too. What I feel for you Yibo, it's way too strong to be just fitted in one word. It's something I could never imagine my heart was capable to feel. At that moment... when I was about to die, I regretted every second we wasted in denial. Like everything became too meaningless, our egos, prides, anger, will of revenge. I felt too sorry...about our relationship"

"it's...this feels too weird no? like we're now"

"exactly, It's too hard to believe but think about it Yibo, we did too many things together like...almost even trying to kill each-other, then saving, having wild sex but never, we get never chance to just quietly look into each-other's eyes like this. I'm even discovering new things on your face"

"Really?" I ask curiously and gasp when Zhan softly kisses part between my eyebrows

"You have...cute little mole here"

"do I?" I ask and he frowns

"if I say so, that means you have" 

"ok, ok I give up" 

"what about me?"

"it's impossible to still see something new because...I know your body better than mine, like absolutely everything, all moles of yours, although you got like countless and especially..."

"what?" I bring my lips at his ear and whisper huskily "I have fave ones...at hidden places, where only I get chance to see"

"you...you romance killer brat" he shows teeth to me and I laugh loudly, wondering how he can be this adorable

"why blame me? it was you who started this conversation"

"you should laugh more often, it's too cute how your cheeks goes up when you smile widely" 

"you talk...you talk too much" I mumble feeling my heart is about to melt from too much sweetness "don't show this much love to me, I'm going to get used to it, it gonna...hurt more later if we..."

"no, don't say more" his lips warms mine and cuddles in my embrace "let's just use this days fullest, please let's just be happy together Yibo"

So just wanna say, that before few readers left this story only because I chose Yang Zi as Zhan's girlfriend? 😖 like seriously? 😅 without even giving chance to her and to me? it kinda hurt then but...I'm still happy to create perfect female character for me, I'm truly proud of her 🥰

And maybe gonna write spicy scene in next chapter? 😋😂think last smut in this story? not sure yet 🤔 Anyway hope you enjoy dear readers 🤗