"boss wants to see you Zhan" she tells me with worrying expression and I frown, please not again

"seems like that brat can't breath without me"

"I didn't mean Yibo, it's Mr Wang"  so it's my turn now?  I'm trying to find fear or any other emotion in myself but in vain. am I more curious? will he beat me up like Yibo? or kill me? 

"promise that you gonna cry at my funeral" I laugh but she seems upset 

"your humor is way too dark sometimes, it scares me"

"ok, ok pretty I'm sorry" patting her hand I deeply breath in and enter the cabinet, Mr Wang raises his head and curiously eyes me as before, I do the same. he is about 45 years old, with little grey hair which gives him more manly and handsome look, his jawline sharp like Yibo's but eyes totally different, funny to say this but very warm until he shows true evil side. it's fully understandable why my mom and others adored him this much, everything about him gains trust and you feel like willing to rely on this man with your life. and I remember Zi Xuan's words again, if i could use my looks earlier like Mr Wang, would it be possible to live different life? but sure it isn't only about appearance, inside... we're still too different, never, I never want to be like him

"so it's you again, beautiful colouring  snake, which seems harmless but..."

"you Wang's men keep telling that I'm poisonous, guess who am I going to use it on?" 

"I see you got guts? much enough to seduce my son and sneak into our house, not only this but tried to gain my sympathy too"

"seems like you already made your conclusions, even it isn't true who am I to protest? you Wang family has to be always right"

"are you being sarcastic with me?" he grins and walks towards me, if I'm right about his personality, then this kind of behavior maybe gonna work or... I'm literally risking with my neck "guess you're bored by your life already" 

"no, I just startled living well, by using your son"

"that silly boy, going crazy about every ass, but guess you have something different. having your own ways to get what you want and..."

"money, I love and want money. Yibo is way too generous" they like this kind of people cause they're very easy to rule but... if you want to throw them away, best way is to kill

"I love giving money away too" as I thought, he is easily predictable "and about my son..."

"I'll gladly help you...with him, using violence isn't always best way to control someone"

"you know many things I guess, but are you teaching me what to do right now?"

"No, I'm just thinking loudly, it depends on you Mr Wang give your attention it or not. I have strong impact on him, sure different type than you but... maybe more effective, if you treat me well, I can be someone very useful" I stop and tighten fist in my pocket waiting for the answer, he nonstop scans my expressions and at the end laughs with satisfaction 

"it's good, I just lost someone who was taking care about this matter. I like you but...you won't like me if something goes wrong, think you know what I mean"

"I know" he opens the drawer and takes money out from it, throwing it to me. holding my pride back, I lean down and pick it up from the floor. what the hell are you doing Zhan? for what or for whom? but this man, I get strong will to destroy him without even thinking how dangerous it may become for me

*****

Yibo sits on the sofa leaning at it's back and smokes with closed eyes, I cough loudly and he awakes from the thoughts. 

"you're here"

"just fucking leave this" I take cigarette out from his lips and crush it on the ashtray, Yibo exclaims with surprised tone 

"don't act like caring wife, this is weird fro..." Yibo isn't done talking when I suddenly bring my face too close to his, our eyelashes almost touches, his breath immediately becomes heavy and I smirk, deeply looking in his widen eyes 

"if one day we kiss, I don't want your lips to smell like smoke" I whisper and move back, while his cheeks slowly turns red "such a surprise, so Wang Yibo has ability to be teased and blush too, sometimes you really look like human" I can notice how strongly my words always hits him and I do this on purpose, deeply in my heart I want and wish he gets upset, he does something bad again, so I can act the same. why Yibo? after everything you have done, why keep treating me like this

"what is wrong with you?" he asks and throws whole astray in the trash can "by any chance, did you meet my father?"

"I did" 

"did he... touch or harm you? are you...ok?"

"perfectly, we just made best deal. I sold something with very good price" 

"Zhan" I took money out from my pocket and hand it to him, Yibo looks down at it and painfully smiles "what is this?"

"easy money, you know? Zi Xuan was absolutely right, there is nothing easier than selling someone, I just said a few words with greedy expression and it was already done. of course that someone...is you" his expressions drastically changes to anger but there is too strong pain in his eyes

"does it feel good?" Yibo roughly grabs my hand and yells "hurting me like this? more and more, I'm sure you're very happy hearing about my secrets, knowing me better, was it your chance to find out what is most painful for me no? please, just beat me up, use anything it doesn't matter, I'm used to it, just stop this... no, you aren't able to do this, you aren't like this"

"didn't you do exactly the same Yibo? so many times, don't I get the right too? now that you already won trying to play victim?" 

"I did" he let goes and falls down "it isn't like I forgot but..." 

"you think it was easy? touching that money? yes I'm not like this, I'm disgusted by myself for doing this too but... I was fucking trying to save my ass and..." he looks up and I yell from frustration "and you too, can't you use your brain sometimes? I know it won't change much but... your dad thinks you can never dare to stand against him, he knows how much you fear but slowly, try to use this fact. you know everything what he does illegally and..."

"Zhan" he stops me and smiles "will you still stay?"

"what?" 

"before I never thought about this cause couldn't imagine living in different world, had nowhere to go, but now there is other reason stopping me, if you free yourself from this grip, if I stay without any power, if I can't control you anymore, won't you just leave? without looking back you'll get married to Yang Zi and...be happy? see? I'm this selfish, people say love is when you can let go of someone you love, and if they come back... this is why, I can't love and you'll never come back if I let go"

"Gosh Yibo, why so...what do you even want from me?" just feeling unable to understand everything what happens in his mind, I sit down next to him and sigh, I ask myself and... "yes you're right, I won't"

"And it was you talking about using brain a few minutes ago?" Yibo loudly laughs and places hand on my knee "you could just lie Zhan, you could just fool me and i would believe it. This is exactly the reason why I want you, in my world... you're the only honest and true one"

"This is too hard for me" I lean a little down as my head touches his shoulder and Yibo's hand visibly shivers "just a few minutes spent with him alone and I truly wonder how it was possible for you to hold until now, we're just...too strong and weak at the same time, I was used receiving love, at least from my family but in your world..."

"it isn't all, slowly you'll get to see more"

"Guess so" feeling calmer after sharing,  I stand up and walk towards the door "now take your shirt off and lie down on the stomach, I'll be back soon"

"For what?"

"Don't think dirty, just do what I said" he nods and I come back with ointment, sitting next to him I put it on my fingers and carefully rub on his new scars, Yibo looks up with surprised expression

"how did you know?"

"you kept avoiding me yesterday, usually you do this when don't want to show your pain"

"you know me so well" don't know this is good or bad but I do, I wonder my act now is gratefulness for what he did yesterday? Or I know it was cause of me like last time? Both reason is foolish but I still keep doing it, Yibo's eyes is tightly closed and I can notice his lips shaking in small smile. It feels good for me to see him in pain but...watching him smile...does it warms my heart a little? And without realizing I just start talking about me

"I was still going at the school, when rumors about dad being gay came out, slowly everything around me started changing. I couldn't understand why people were calling him disgusting when he was best dad for me, not only outside situation in my family became heavy and stressful too. Mom loved him too much I knew it and that is why she was hurting more. From being cute and lovable classmate suddenly I changed to filthy faggot's son, I didn't know the meaning and maybe others were same but they're just repeating words heard from their parents. kids sometimes... can be too cruel. There was only one guy who still wanted to be friend with me but at the end he had to change school and I was left alone. It was many times he got bullied cause of me and I was trying to heal his slight but still scars like now... he was my last friend, I scared to harm someone again but at the end... after what happened with Zi Xuan I realized,  being alone is hard but being betrayed is worst"

"Zhan, I'm very...I'm really..." he sits up and hesitantly moves his hand closer to mine, struggling to talk. I stare into his eyes and wonder if Yibo knows how he looks now, so...soft and lost...in his feelings for me? without realizing my fingers slides into his hair and he leans closer, the moment I'm about to hold him loud bell sound startles us both and I see disappointment in his eyes

"I'll open it" I murmur and quickly leave the room. The person standing at the door exclaims as soon as sees me and I move back with trembling hands "you? What are you doing here?"

"I was going to ask the same"

"Zhan, is it Huai Sang?" Yibo comes out still shirtless and based on his expression I guess it wasn't planned by him this time.

"Yang Zi" I avoid her shocked face and lower my head "we need to talk"

So here is Zhan's POV, hope you liked it dear readers 😊

❤️and although my single ass can't relate😅 still Happy Valentine's day to you 🥰 wish you spend it happily with your beloved one ❤️