I cant describe how I feel for you. I'm too conflicted. I'm feeling too much at once and I can't think straight.
I didn't even wanna live past 27 and yet u have me thinking about growing together and getting a home and settling down and it's fucking terrifying. I wish I didn't think so far ahead cause it so fucking scary. I cant even tell u what I want to do tomorrow but I see where I wanna be with you in the future.

I'm so indecisive in my own thoughts and feelings that it makes me sick and drives my brain mad. I wish I could tell you. I wish my lips moved like my fingers.

But again, I don't think you would understand. You try your best but I just don't think you will.