Song: Heaven- Julia Michaels

I make my way up the stairs after an agonizing twenty minutes. I hate these fucking crutches. No sooner than I make it to my bathroom, I throw the damn things against the sink and they fall over making a clanging sound along the tiled floor. I strip out of my sweaty clothes and toss them into the hamper, the whole time trying to balance on the one good leg and cussing like a sailor. The last thing I need is a busted up face or cracking my tail bone. I look under the sink and pull out the plastic that we had in here the last time I was home. I start to wrap the cast so that I can hop into the shower.

I turn on the water and as it heats up, I look at myself in the mirror on the wall. I admire my thin body and all the slight curves in the right place, even though there are still signs of bruises that line the skin, a few more weeks at home they will fade. I know that if I don't continue to work out and dance that my body will start to fill into more curves. Unfortunately for me, I can only do so much with this freaking leg in a cast. The room starts to steam up from the heated water and I know I need to get in and out before Eli decides to come up here. I'm not sure that I can handle be naked alone with him right now.

The water feels amazing against my heated skin. I stand there closing my eyes and feeling every little drop consume over me. I was about to grab the shampoo when the glass door opens and in steps Eli. I quickly cover up my breast and between my legs with my arms and hands. "What the hell are you doing?"

He doesn't bother covering himself up, as a matter of fact he holds his hands out to his side so that I can get a better look at him. My God, his body must have been created out of stone, edged precisely in every taunt crease by some God from above. His muscles tense up as the veins protrude and then relax. The water hits his chest and I watch as it slides effortlessly down to his waist and to his... I feel my eyes bulge out, not to mention that I am so unaware of biting my bottom lip until I gnawed a little too hard. I let out a gasp. I quickly look back up to him and he is smiling ear to ear with those fucking dimples practically winking at me.

"Eli...I..."

"You what? Come on it's not like I haven't seen you naked." He reaches out and moves my hands away from my body. I am now standing there completely naked in front of him and as the water beams down on me, my nipples go instantly hard. "Let me help you out." He reaches over and grabs the shampoo. I watch as he squirts a quarter size about into his hands and then start to rub them together. "Turn around," he orders while still looking at the soapy mess in his hands. 

I slowly look back into his eyes and he only has to make his eyes move to tell me again. I pivot around with my back against him. No sooner than his hands touch my head of hair and starts massaging into my scalp, my body starts to quiver. I let him shampoo my hair and then rinse it out. I was about to grab the puff to wash my body, but of course he stops me and does it. Not only does he wash my body, but he makes sure that he touches every little inch of me. Once rinsed all the way off, he pins me against the marble wall.

He leans into me and softly kisses my lips and then trails along my jaw line towards my ear. "I want you," he whispers.

"Eli...we can't...not here." I pant and let out another soft groan as he kiss my ear and then down my neck.

"I don't care about them...I want you...I need you." Between words he is kissing me. He trails down to my breast and the moment his lips form around the one nipple, I am panting. My hands dig into his back, begging for more.

I'm not sure when his mouth lands on my sweet spot, but my body starts to buck upward to him, craving more of him. His tongue swirls around and dives into me and if that wasn't enough his fingers slide inward and I grab his head begging him not to go anywhere. I craved him. I wanted him. I needed him in that moment. I screamed out and he stops to look up at me with this naughty smile and glistening eyes. He holds his finger up to his lips to tell me to be quite, knowing if I squeal loud enough they will come to check on me.

I pull him up into standing and take his lips. I let his tongue invade my mouth. I wanted him and he knew he had me. His hands turn me around and now my breast is shoved into the marbled wall. His hands find their way between my legs and then just as fast he is inside of me, all of him. He holds be firmly against the wall as he pounds into me. I didn't even mind when he wrapped his hand around my hair and tugged my head back ever so lightly as he forced his way into me.

I was huffing and panting more as I got ready to climax and the moment I did his hands are quickly around my mouth to keep me from alerting the whole house. Moments later, I feel his body jerking against mine and I feel him coming inside of me.

"Shit...I didn't mean to do that. I should have pulled out. Fuck," he hisses at himself.

I slowly turn around to look at him. His face is all red. I'm pretty sure it's not from being embarrassed instead it's from the heated up passion between us. I reach out and pat his stone hard chest. "It's fine, really. It will be ok."

"Fuck...I wasn't wearing a condom. Tell me you are on something?"

I glare back at him like he has got to be fucking kidding me. "Of course I am. Do you think that I am that stupid?" I step to his side, pushing him out of the way and open the door to get out.

He huffs out loud, "Shit...I didn't say that. I just..."

Now I get a little defensive. "What are you afraid that I might get pregnant. Believe me I won't." I reach for a towel and he yanks it out of my hand. "I can dry myself off, Eli. I am not helpless you know."

"I know but I want to do it." He wraps the towel around me and starts to dry me off. I could turn this into a huge argument but I don't. Once completely dried off he takes off the plastic around my cast and discards it in the trash.

My hands find their way over my breast again out of instinct. "I should get dressed." I pick up the crutches from the floor and make my way into the bedroom and over to the closet without saying a word to him. I pick out a thin dress, sliding it over my head and then down my body.

Once I come back into the room, he has on his jeans. He is still shirtless and I think he knows that I can't resist not looking at him. I quickly advert my eyes away from him.

He lets out a grumbled groan, "We need to talk."

I raise my eyebrows up at him. I'm not really sure what is on his mind but after what we just did in the shower I'm starting to really wonder if that was like a peace offering.

"Eli look...I have been on Depo for years now. I thought it was just easier to take it so I wouldn't have to worry about getting pregnant. Believe me I have no intentions on having a baby anytime in the near future. Really you have nothing to worry about."

"Actually that is not what I wanted to talk about...however that is good to know. I think we should have already had that conversation before now."

I walk over and sit on the edge of my bed as I place the crutches by my side. I throw my hands in my lap and look up at him. "So what is it then?"

He starts to pace the floor and I know the moment he does that something is up.

"Eli...just tell me."

"You were right. I am kinda sorta working for your parents still." He stops and looks at me to get my reaction and I quickly close my eyes to force the tears away. I knew it; I just knew that he was still under their spells. He walks over and squats down. He grabs my hands and tugs for me to open my eyes to not only hear what he has to say but to see him. "It's not what you are thinking. I swear it's not please let me explain."

I open my eyes to look back at him. I have to swallow the lump in the back of my throat before I lash out at him. "So what the hell was that in the shower? What, Eli? You are trying to fuck with my head, my emotions before you admit the fucking truth to me. What the fuck?" I pull away from him and my hands go instantly to my head tugging my hair.

He reaches for them and pulls them back down. "Stop pulling at your hair...please just let me explain what is going on?"

"Oh...you couldn't explain to me days ago. Why were you really there Eli? Why were you watching me? Why are you still working for them? Why all the fucking lies?"

"Please...I can explain."