All The Lies
Song: Undo- Sanna Nielsen
I am not sure how long that I am out for. It could have been a couple of hours or even days, either way my head is pounding and I feel like my whole body is twisted in knots. The room is dim and as my eyes try to adjust to my surroundings, I realize that I am back at home. How in the hell did I get back here? I don't have time to think about it because suddenly I feel everything starting to rise in my throat. I jolt out of bed and make my way over to the bathroom just in time to reach the toilet to puke. I guess I had more to drink than I thought.
I lean back and sit for a few second before getting right back up to puke some more. "Ugh!" I moan out. "Nasty shit, why do I keep doing this?" I ask myself. I let my stomach calm down some before pulling up into standing and walk over to the sink. I turn on the water and reach down into the stream with my hands to gather some before bringing to my mouth. I swish it around and then spit it out. I still have that god awful after taste in my mouth. I reach for my toothbrush and toothpaste. Seconds later I rinse out my mouth and grab the mouthwash. I look into the mirror again. I look awful.
There are big black rings around my eyes from the left over makeup and I look almost like a zombie. My hair is hideous and all tangled up. I turn around to turn on the shower and strip out of my clothes. They smell like stale smoke and beer from when I went out into that godawful bar. I get in and the hot water feels so freaking good against my skin. I wash my hair and then get out to dry off. I wrap the towel around me and go back into the bedroom to grab some clothes. As I am reaching into the closet I hear distant voices that I did not hear earlier. I quickly throw on a pair of jeans and a thin black long sleeve shirt.
The voices sound very familiar, even though I really can't make out what they are saying. It sounds like it is coming from the roof top. When I walk out of the room, I notice that the door that leads to the roof is open. I wonder why they are out there and what on Earth are they arguing about. I walk up the stairs to lead outside and their voice become clearer as I reach the top. I stop the moment my feet hit the roof. What the hell is my dad doing here and the better question is, why in the hell is he arguing with Eli?
I don't let them see me as I step a few more steps forward enough to him them arguing.
"Eli I should let you go you know that right? You continue to fuck up. All you have to do is watch over her, make sure that she is alright and dammit to hell here she is fucking drunk and let's not mention she could have gotten in the fucking truck and who knows where she would be."
"Sir...I swear to you, I will watch over her. She's safe is she not? I fucking killed the two guys to protect her."
"She should have never been in the fucking bar to begin with." He turns to look out at the skyline. "Dammit, we pay you damn good money to just do one job."
"I'm sorry sir. I should have been there. I dropped her off at the Dance Company; I watched her walk in before I drove off to park. Look I don't know what fucking happened."
"Exactly, you don't know. I should kill your ass, you know that right? You keep messing up. Because you were not paying attention that fucker tried to take her."
"And she took care of herself. She handled herself well with Gabe as well."
"She shouldn't have too. You should have intervened and took his ass out."
"And I told you, she had come home and he was not with her. I didn't see him come in with her and he didn't. He arrived late. I should have been watching. I will admit I should have been. I told you and Mrs. Adler that I am truly sorry. Mekhi, she is home. She is safe. I swear to god that I will not let anything happen to her."
My mind is turning in a million directions. I thought he worked for Gabe's family. I thought they hired him to find out about Gabe. He knew all along that I killed him and not only that but he has been watching me way before Gabe. My eyes swell with tears. I have been lied to not only by him but my family. I remember back to when I first moved to New York and how I kept feeling that I was being watched. I remember even mentioning it a few times to Gabe and he blew it off. My thoughts skip over to the day I was over at Eli's and I noticed the telescope was set on my place. Even then I questioned about it and knew deep down something was wrong. I was too dumb to see it then or maybe I was too mixed up in the emotions of thinking that I was in love. He fucking manipulated me. He has been stalking me, watching my every move for the past few years. What the hell.
I stand there with my feet frozen to the floor beneath me. I am speechless. This can't be happening. This whole time he has lied to me. This whole fucking time! I have made out with Gabe a few times on this roof top, not to mention other areas in the apartment and he has been watching me. He saw me that night along with every other night. I think about all the other times that I have even walked around naked and how even then I bet he was watching me. My body sways as my knees feel like they want to give out and I knock over a nearby plant to catch myself. When I look up, both of them are looking towards me.
"Vi...sweetheart you are awake." My father starts out talking to me but then turn to Eli. "We are done here. You should leave now."
I look over at Eli and he doesn't take his eyes off of me. I stare back with watery eyes. I look back at my dad and shake my head slowly in disbelief. "No...finish your business with Eli or whatever the fuck his name is." I turn and head back down the steps.
When I get to the bottom, I run over and grab my shoes. I slip them on and head towards the door. I hear mom in the living room. "Violet...honey are you ok? Violet what is wrong?" She yells to get me to stop, but the tears are streaming down too fast and I am not about to have this conversation with her right now. I take the elevator all the way down. I walk past Charles and he quickly opens the front door for me.
When I step out, I notice the car and watch as Ashton gets out the driver side to come around to the sidewalk. I wave him off. "Don't...just don't."
"Violet...let me give you a lift."
I turn around to face him and Atticus is standing right by his side. There is a huge lump in the back of my throat and I feel like screaming and I practically do at the both of them, "Did you know? DID YOU!!!"
They stop and look at each other wondering if they should say anything. I know in that moment that they both knew. Atticus takes a step closer to me as I take a step backwards.
"Don't...just don't." I sniffle and my voice cracks, "Don't fucking follow me. I don't care how much they pay you, just don't...follow me." I turn back around and walk off. By the time I was at the end of the street I was in a full force run.
I run and run until I find myself at the park. The familiar tree awaits me as I run up and fall beneath it. I am so mad about everything but mostly for myself for falling in love with him. I pound my fist into the ground several times and cry out. I let it all out until I just can't go any more. I sit there for hours just thinking about all the times that he could have been watching me. He knew about the guy in the parking lot, he knew about the cop, and he for sure knew about Gabe.
The sun starts to rise in the early morning and I am still here in the park. I don't want to go home but I left my purse with all my money as well as my phone. I am starving and I have no other choice but to go home to at least get my purse. I stand up and start walking back. I hope that they are all gone by the time I get back. About an hour later, I am standing out front of the apartment complex. The car is still there but no one is inside.
Charles sees me and opens the door for me. "It's nice to see you this morning."
I glance up as if I can already see them. "I take it they are all up in the apartment?"
"I'm afraid so. Hope everything is alright."
I cast my eyes to the floor. "I'm not sure it ever will be." I try to smile back at him but it quickly turns to upside down.
The whole way up, I try to gather myself. I bat my eyes a few times to try to get rid of the tears. I know it's not going to help any because I can feel them burning. I know they are probably red as ever from crying all night. The door opens and I walk in. They are all sitting in the kitchen and living room areas. I look around and Eli of course is not there. My dad jumps up the moment he sees me. "Violet we can explain."
I hold my hand up for him to stop. I look around the room and they are all wanting to put in their two cents. "I have never felt so humiliated in my life. You two hired him to watch me." I glance over at Ashton and Atticus. "And you two knew about him." My eyes start to tear up all over again. "I thought he was working for Gabe's family...wow...just fucking wow. I thought you all trusted me and thought I could do things on my own but you undermined me all the way. You guys really done it this time."
My mom starts in, "Violet we were only..." but I stop her.
"No...just stop. I'm tired of being followed. I am tired of you guys controlling my every fucking move. Why are you even here? Seriously, how did you even know to come now? Did Eli say he lost track of me or is there someone else also watching me as well? Who...WHO else is fucking watching me?"
My dad looks over at my mom and sighs, "Davenport called said you quit. We have worked so hard getting you to where you need to be and do you have any idea how much money we have spent."
"Davenport?" I look over at him. "Davenport called you." Of course he did. This whole time he has been relaying information back to them.
"Yes as a matter of fact he did; he said that you have been coming in late. You are not trying at all and when he talked to you...you walked out. What the fuck is that all about?"
The anger builds up inside of me. I raise my voice back at him, "You guys don't get it. I bust my ass off in that studio. I want to be on top but the fact is...is that I am not good enough. I will never be good enough don't you see that. After the accident, it just messed everything up."
"Vi..."
"No just listen for once. I am fucking drained out alright. I am tired of waking up at dawn and dancing all day and still not cutting it. I'm tired. I get that you guys spent a lot of money and I appreciate all that you guys do for me but you guys crossed the line when you hired Eli to watch my ever freaking move."
"First of all we pay Davenport a shitload of money for you and yes he tells us everything that goes on here with you. Secondly yes, we hired Eli to watch over you for your own protection, nothing more."
Davenport has told them everything; of course he has that is how they knew that I got hurt to begin with. But if they hired Eli to watch me as well, it makes me wonder how long. "Really just to watch over me; where is he now?"
"We let him go, so you don't have to worry about him anymore."
I walk across the living room and look out the window. I know he is at home watching over me. I step out on the balcony so that he can see me. "Did you know he lives just right over there?"
My dad walks out onto the balcony. "How do you know that?"
I turn to look at him, shooting him a hateful glare. "Because I was there. He has this telescope and he can see everything I do just like you paid him to do." I turn to walk back into the room.
He reaches out for my arm. "Wait, what do you mean you were over there?"
I look up at my mom as I feel my eyes water up again. She stares back into my eyes but surprisingly doesn't say anything. I blink before glancing back up at him. I was about to say something and she bursts out as she realizes then what is going on between us. "You are in love with him."
My dad glares down at me. "Is it true? Are you in love with him?"
I swallow the lump in my throat. I look between the both of them as I try to fight back all the tears and feelings that I had for him. "No...I'm not. How could I possibly be in love with someone that is hired to watch me." With that, I walk across the room and head to my bedroom. I shut the door behind me. I turn around and place my back against the door and cry as I slide down to the floor.
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