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i open my eyes to feel a cold empty spot on the bed i lookover its still night time 2 am i get up and walk down the stairs to see levi on the phone talking to someone "No thats not what- Ugh fuck this...ill talk to you later." he says hanging up and throwing his phone with a smash "l-levi?" I ask he turns to me "whats wrong." "nothing go back to bed." he says "n-no i." "Y/N!" he raises his voice i step back he softens seeing that he scared me "Im sorry its nothing." he says "levi please." "you cant this isnt something you can fix." he says "then can i help" i say he sighs "a woman came into the office eariler looking for me she wanted me back." he says "oh...." i say "im not going to her y/n i have you you know that right." he says i nod and look down "but she.....she was one of your submissives before.?" i say holding my arm "yes." he says begin honest "oh...." i reply again "i told her to leave and never come back i dont know why shed want me back she was the worst." he says "did she listen." i say "yes of course." he says "i-im sorry ill just go to bed ive broken so many rules already...." i say "you have...but its fine im just fifty shades of fucked up" he says leaning against the table i begin to walk off but stop i take a breath "show me then." i say "i cant give you the kind of submission she gave you even over a phone call let alone face to face i will listen to you to an extent but....i cant....do that until y-you show me." i say looking at him he turns to me "y/n" "punish me....why did she want to come what she wanted to come back to....punish me show me the worst of what you would do.....or i cant understand

we stand in the red room he goes over taking something i dont see "y/n i dont want to do this to you." "i cant understand other wise." i say "y/n..." "levi....please." i say he sigh and nods "i love you. i love you with everything i have." he says i nod "i-i love you too." i say taking a breath he kisses my cheek and then lifts my shirt up over my head leaving me in my panties and no bra "bend over." he says i sigh and do as he says laying on the side of the table in the room he comes over ting my hands down "i-im gonna hit you six times and your gonna count with me if not it starts over." he says i nod he sighs i close my eyes as i then feel him hit my lower back and butt with what i think is a belt it sting i hiss in pain shutting my eyes cloed more "count y/n." he says "o-one." i say an other hit "two...." i feel tears running down my cheeks as he hits me again "three." i cry as memories of my uncle hurting me he hits me a memory of my uncle throwing me onto the ground "four." the belt strikes me "five...." i say crying "last one..." i hear him by now his voice sound like white noise the last whip ".....six" i say i lay there in pain and embarresment and regret the belt drops to the floor with a clink i he walks over taking off the restraints i still lay there "y/n...." he says taking my arm i stand up pulling back "No! dont Fucking touch me." i say pulling i say pulling away "this something you do to those who dont listen the onse who break the most rules...." i say tears streaming down my face "not just th-this." he says looking down "this is what you want d-does this give you pleasure" i say covering my top "im sorry." he says walking to me. "no.." i say he takes me into him i hit his shoulders pulling him off me "l-levi let go.." i yell "im sorry y/n i-" "NO LET GO!" i sob i hit his chest he pulls away i grab my shirt pulling it back on "I-i love you....but this......this brought up memories that i never shouldve thought of i never shouldve asked...." i say and walk out

i lay on the guest bed, sleeping in there for how ever long i need to, crying the door opens and i feel the bed dip slightly on the other side my back to him "please dont hate me." he says "You will never to that to me ever again!" i say crying "yes." he says i sigh "im not what you want." i say "n-no no You are everything i want." he says "ill run the company when youre gone ill be your assistant and scince i moved out of my apartment ill continue to stay here if thats alright-" i say "thats perfect." "b-but.... im sleeping in here, i dont want you to call or text me and our relashonship is back to being work." i say he sighs "y/n please" "i know that i asked you to show me and im sorry." i say crying "im sorry mr akerman." i say "y/n...." he says "i....i need you to leave" i say a few seconds pass "please." i say the bed rises against as he walks out the door closes.

i walk down the stairs holding my jacket he sits on the couch his hands pressed together as he wears his suit for the day "you have work?" i say "im leaving." he seeing me and standing immedetly "oh." "the office is yours now you can decoratie how you want you can hire who you want when you want your incontrol of everything.....i have a name change scheduled for you if you want it." he says "when will you be back" i ask "so i can give it back to you" i say "a new buliding will be bulit a few blocks down thats will be mine i know you like writing so you can make yours a publishing building if you wish." he says "you ddint answer me." i say "when will you be back." I say still caring about his well being "i dont know." he says i nod and walk off to the elevator i walk in "y/n wait" he says "stop." i say he doesnt "red!" i exclaime he stop dead in his tracks i sigh thank god that worked i step back and press the floor button he sighs understanding "goodbye y/n" "goodbye levi" i say the door closes

(hey guys so thats the first book i hope you liked it if so the second book is being written and is in current process when the first chapter / pilot of the second is out it will be posted as a notification on my board so yeah thank you and i hope you enjoyed reading)!