I'm to far gone.
I've used my last chance.
I'm falling deeper and deeper
Into the darkness.
My friends gave up.
They've had enough
I stand alone,
On the edge
Ready to plummet
Into the churning,
Clanking sea
Of dull red capsules.

I fall.
I let go.
I tilt my head back
And let them fill me

1 for the family who stayed 
2 for the people who tried
3 for the ones I leave behind
4 for the people who walked by as I shattered into a million pieces
5 for the number of times I tried to back out
6 for the times I almost asked for help
7 for the pain I've caused my friends
8 for filling the emptiness inside
9 for sleepless nights filled with doubt
10 for the times I've cried tonight
11 for the lies I've heard
12 for the "I'm fines" I've replyed with
13 for the family I lost
14 for the minutes I stared it the bottle in front of me
15 for the years I've suffered on this earth
16 for the year I'll never make it too

I swallow the down one by one
There is no turning back
I can't continue.
I have become to much