Crescent's p.o.v

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The door opened and I quickly closed it and went to the bathroom and took a shower.I got out and and looked at my body.It was covered in bruises.Bite marks from when I was raped.Stab marks from Mandy.Slap and punch marks from elena and many more.I cleaned my new cuts and got dressed in am oversized shirt and some shorts.That night I cried myself to sleep.

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I stayed in my secret room all day until school was out.I got dressed in jeans and a red shirt with a hoodie.I went out the secret room and to my bedroom.I got my diary and went downstairs."Aunt Jenna I am going to the cemetery."I said."Ok be back soon"I heard.I walked to the cemetery and sat next to my parents grave.I put the flowers I got on the way here."I miss you mom and dad.I really wish you were here right now."I didn't realize I was squeezing the flowers until some of my blood fell on my lap.I put the flowers on the grave.One for each of them..I took the thorns out of my hands and something weird happened.It healed.I grabbed my diary and started writing.

Dear diary,

I am visiting my parents grave.When they died they took a peice of my heart with them.Without that peice I don't think I will ever be truly happy.All I want is for the bullying to stop.All the rapes and beatings.Even before my parents died it still happened.I lost my virginity to a bunch of jocks in middle school.They raped me in the middle of the football field.One recorded it and sended it to everyone.That was when my suffering started.I want my family to love me.And lastly I want someone to love me as much as I love them.But I guess it will never happen.

I need to kill myself,

Crescent gilbert

I shut my diary and took my jacket off.I unwrapped the bandages and felt the cool wind blow against my scars."Are you okay?"I heard a soft voice say.I looked up and saw Stefan and Elena.Elena just glared at me whilst stefan had a worried look in his eyes."Y-yeah I am...f-fine."I said putting my jacket on and walking out of the cemetery.I walked all the way to a lake a coupe blocks from the end of the town.It was cold out here so I sat on the dock.

I sat there for five minutes until I was pushed in.Someone was holding my head.I looked up but it was a blurry figure.I could tell they had brown hair.The person pulled me up by my hair.It was elena."Stay away from stefan"She said."What did I ever do to you."I said trying to get out of her grip."What you did to me was be born."She said letting go.She walked back to wherever she has been before.I sighed and started to walk home.

Once I got home I went to my secret room and took a shower and put on different clothes.I put on dark blue jeans and a green halter top with green converses and a dark blue hoodie.I put my hair in a bun."Why am I so ugly and worthless."I whispered.I walked downstairs and walked to the grill.When I got in there everyone sneered at me.I just looked down and walked to a booth.

"What can I get you?"A harsh voice asked.I looked up and saw matt."C-can I-I get some w-wa-water pl-please."I asked."Sure"He snarled.He was about to walk away when I stopped him."Wait."I said."What?"He asked."What did I ever do to make everyone hate me?"I asked."You were acting cruel and mean.Elena said you talked about us behind our backs."He said."I barely know anyone in this town.I am to busy looking over my shoulder waiting and hiding until the next hit comes.I almost drowned because I am useless and ugly."I said and walked out of the grill and went home.

I walked up to the roof of the house and went to the edge.I looked down and saw stefan about to knock on the door when elena opened it.I went back down and to the door."Hey stefan."I said."Hey crescent um you left this at the cemetery.I didn't read it or anything."He said."Okay um see you later." I said walking away."Wait... um Elena told me what happened the other night um are you okay."He asked."Yeah I am fine."I said.I went out of the room and went to bed.