Spent all night dancing around my thoughts and some questions that I'm itching to ask. I even had to restrain myself from calling him. Maaga raw s'yang matulog. Ayoko naman s'yang bulabugin sa dis-oras ng gabi.

I often see Allen spending his free time at the library. Madalas, sa mga araw na may emergency meeting ang profs namin. The library is the only place where you can enjoy peace. I started killing time in there too because of that.

I didn't know that Allen is fond of reading books. Especially, about plants and flowers. Nung una, I thought he was just curious about it but I noticed that he's always reading that particular book.

I let it slide from my thoughts because my mind is occupied with acads these days. But when I saw him reviving every single dying flower in the garden... that was it. Hindi na naman ako pinatatahimik ng curiosity ko.

Once again, I let it slide out of my thoughts. But him, accompanying me every dismissal and sprinting away every time we part ways made my curiosity reach its limit.

Hanggang sa dumating na nga ang araw na pinagbigyan ko na ang curiousity na ito.

Allen is a part-time florist at the most well-known flower shop in town.

My heart feels so warm just thinking about all of these.

Everyone knows Allen as an active soccer player. You always see that determination and focus in his eyes every time he plays. How he would run with so much vigor and how strong every kick is. He looked so cool.

Seeing him looking so gentle with flowers in his hand made me want to capture that moment and keep the photo for myself.

I slept feeling giddy like a high school kid.

I woke up with a question popping on my mind: Pero bakit feeling ko, tinatago n'ya ito sa akin?

Kasi sa tuwing tinitingnan ko ang binabasa n'ya, agad n'yang sinasara ang libro. When I approached him while fixing the flowers, he jolted and dropped the shovel he was holding - looking like a kid caught stealing sweets.

And when I offered to accompany him on his errands (now I know, it's his part-time work) every dismissal, he would nervously refuse.

Is he hiding it from me? Doesn't he want me to know? Kung oo, Bakit? Why is it that big deal from him? Why hold him back from telling me? Those are the questions that lingered in my mind all day.

I knew I had to reach out to him.

But somehow, there's a part of me that I don't want to press forcefully. Maybe he had reasons.

After class, I watched their practice on the field as usual. This time, with Angel. Bago raw n'ya kasing crush 'yung bagong player kaya ayon, sigaw ng sigaw sa tuwing makakapuntos ito.

I playfully slapped the back of her thigh to make her sit.

In return, she playfully mocked me for sitting in silence while Allen did several goals. Ano raw klaseng girlfriend ako at bakit hindi ko raw magawang i-cheer.

I retort back and said, she's not even the guy's girlfriend and here she is shouting as if he knows her.

She curses at me and I laughed. Gagawin daw n'yang boyfriend iyon in just a month and I just have to wait and see.

Hmm.

Cheering?

Do girlfriends actually do that for their boyfriends? 

Nang matapos ang practice, we've decided to eat a little snack on the way home. I was too surprised to see Angel with the guy and saw her wink in my direction before turning in the opposite direction from us. Napailing nalang ako.

When I saw the familiar intersection where we used to take separate ways, I waved Allen goodbye and he did the same.

God knows how I wanted to follow him.

But it's better not to force the information out of him just because I wanted to badly know.

I will wait no matter how long will it takes for him to feel comfortable telling it to me.