Amanda García has everything planned, as always. It's 7:32 a.m., and you still have 15 minutes, at the most, to fine-tune your last moves in your apartment before leaving to head to your regular work. She works in an Environmental Consultant in Barcelona. This month work has been light, so she has had more time to be distracted by the city, make attempts at social life, visit her mother, fix flaws in her apartment, visit her sister who also lives alone like her although not far from your neighborhood, or grab a temporary photography contract. That's right, 37-year-old Amanda is also a photographer, one of the best in the city, maybe in the country, not in the mood to show off.
As she waters her geraniums and thinks about everyday trivia, she suddenly hears her mobile phone ringing in the living room, inside her bag, ready for the moment to go out. Amanda stops watering the geraniums and goes to answer the call. She recognizes the number and can't help but make that smile, like a smile of happy mischief, on her lips.
A pleasant manly voice sounds on the other end of the line:
- Amanda, I'm Álvaro, good morning. A thousand apologies for calling you so early, I hope I am not interrupting you in something.
- Hello Álvaro- she answers animatedly, and sits down on the sofa.- Don't worry, don't interrupt. How are you doing, what happened now.
- Haha, I'm here all busy, since it's the end of the month, you know, you have to prepare the material for the next number ...
-Of course, it will already be March, you must have a lot of work ...
-... yes, and I'll just have an interview this weekend and Pablo won't be able to take the photos, he had a last-minute problem and ...
-... and you need me to "soquilize" you
- ... Yes!
They both laugh. "Oh yeah. Work, just what I was waiting for" Amanda says to herself, and smiles.
-So, - Álvaro continues- will you be available ?. I would need you to come here on Thursday to sign the maximum contract until the afternoon. Because on Friday ... ah, here comes the crucial part ...
-Which.
- ... The interview is in Berlin.

Amanda drops slightly, almost like surrender, her head back, leaning on the back of the sofa. You have a feeling, and that's almost like a conviction.
After that silence, Álvaro continues on the other side of the line:
- So, with Anita, who will do the interview, an assistant, me and you, if you obviously dare, we should leave this Friday at dawn to be in Berlin in the morning, prepare the ground and begin the interview at exactly four o'clock. the afternoon. Everything like a clock.
- So, - finally answers Amanda- it would take all day ...
- Clear. Because we have until seven in the afternoon, at the most, to finish the interview, the photos, and that. Are you willing
Amanda thought about it for a second, and knew that if things were to be like this, there was no point, at this point in her life, that she should continue to avoid him.
- It's okay. - She says- Come on, let's do it.

Álvaro thanked him and gave him the last details to finalize the contract.
On Thursday, Amanda was to take the train to Madrid and go to the offices of Esquire magazine, "the smart man's guide," to sign the contract.

After the call ended, Amanda was aware that she had not asked who the person interviewed was. Deep down, the presentiment told him.

- It would be very absurd ... - she said in the silence of her apartment. She noticed the time, 7:48, it was time to leave.
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It is already Friday, and it is still dawn in Madrid, the team in which Amanda is going, is ready to leave for Berlin.
During the trip, Amanda is thinking about the confirmation of her hunch.
They told him on Thursday: "We are going to interview an amazing actor."
Then she thought, slightly closing her eyes "And his name is Daniel Brühl ..."
"Daniel Brühl, what do you think," they told him.
"I knew ..." She said to herself again, and replied with a feigned mischievous smile: "Wow, how exciting."
They told him how they had come for some time looking to get the interview, and the time had come, in good time. The actor's agent, the German star, had given them the green light.
- Many in Spain fight around defending their Spanish nationality - Ana tells him, she is by his side now and they have inevitably ended up talking about the future interviewee. Amanda turns to see her almost surprised that she had not been paying attention to the conversation that seemed to exist at that moment. Ana continues with her observation - And it is true. You know, he is not only a German actor, he is also Spanish. She has filmed good films in Spain. He comes here every so often, and even has a Spanish Tapas bar in Berlin. I think he really loves Spain as much as Germany ...
- He's European ...- Amanda interrupts, she couldn't help it. And Ana confirms:
- Exactly, I think he said it once.
"She has been studying" thinks Amanda about Ana's opinions regarding that man who ...
- Amanda ...- Ana, interrupts his thoughts, and approaches her a little to say in a low and condescending voice, enough to make her feel that she was aware of a sensitive topic: - I know that you ... they had a relationship.

The two were together in the row of seats on the plane, Alvaro and the assistant were in front, and at that moment the plane was as claustrophobic for Amanda as a sealed box. After Ana's statement, Amanda remains silent, with a slight smile with closed lips and open eyes, blinks twice in a row and widens her friendly smile. Ana also smiles.
- I know. - Amanda says- It was inevitable that you knew, you are going to interview him, and of course you must know many things about him, and of course ... there I am, no ...- Amanda laughs trying not to seem uncomfortable, the He really isn't, he really expected it, but ... it was something that still made his hands sweat.
Ana laughs too and affirms with her head saying
- So is. But, I don't want you to feel ... uncomfortable, or something like that. I just wanted not to act like I didn't know when I know, as you already said, that I obviously have knowledge of that subject.

Amanda only limited herself to shaking her head slightly affirming each sentence of Ana.

- When I found out that you were going to take the photos ...- Ana continued- I really said to myself ... "Wow". The truth is, I don't know if I would cheer up ... Personally I avoid my "ex". I know it is not entirely correct, but personally I avoid it. And I see you ... you are so calm ... so smiling, so pretty ... Wow, I admire you ...

"Okay ..." Amanda thinks "Really ...". It was time to say something and end that talk.

- Yes, look, the matter of the relationship was so long ago, but so long ... - That was not true, Amanda knew it, even so she put a tone of slight exaggeration to strengthen her position - ... that now it's just not something that affects me or makes me feel "uncomfortable" anymore. It was something beautiful, which is fondly remembered and ... now, life goes on. We are both friends ...
-Oh yeah?. Look how good
-... Yes we are. - That wasn't true either- And for that reason, everything is fine ... - Amanda made a sign with her hands to indicate to Ana that something was going on ... They both smiled. Amanda most of all. Exaggeration, exaggeration ... If Ana knew her more ... she would have already noticed.
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They have finally reached Berlin. The morning is calm. The pleasant climate and the air is not so bad.
"Nice day to die" Amanda says to herself, while she loads her strategic luggage in the back of the car that will take them to the hotel, it will be a stay of only one day ... except for Amanda who plans to stay one more day to resolve a minor issue from a recent contract with another fashion magazine in Berlin.

Everything had to be prepared in the photographic studio for when Daniel Brühl arrived.

It was already a little after three in the afternoon. Amanda's hands wouldn't stop sweating, and maybe other parts of her body too ... "Oh shit ..." was the only thing she could muster now.
Álvaro watches him, with that worried attitude, the bangs bordering his big dark eyes, that impossible bun and his hands glued to the camera as if they had glue.
"We are all nervous, right," she said then. Amanda stared at him suddenly, wide-eyed like a scared deer. Álvaro, the king of style (he was literally the magazine's director of beauty and styling), found her funny and encouraged her.
- No worries, calm down ...
- It doesn't come ...- Álvaro and Amanda turn to see Ana, she is standing in front of the wall with her hands resting on her waist. - It should be here.
Amanda is alarmed and aware of the time asks:
- Wasn't the interview at four?
- Yes- Ana looks at her and says- at four o'clock we begin the interview, but he must be here half an hour before. It's already 3:33 p.m., and it hasn't arrived yet. What nerves.

Nervous was Amanda. As soon as she heard about the half hour, she felt her heart shrink cowardly in her chest and she began to shake hopelessly. "Oh no, not again ..." She told herself. Once she started shaking she couldn't control it.
- Well, - exclaims Álvaro - then we won't feel bad about some porritos.- Álvaro takes out a pack of cigarettes and offers them to Amanda, she rejects it arguing that she doesn't smoke, the truth is that she never had and would not. Ana does accept and says:
- Daniel will like one of those, keep one for him.

"Uff ... Don't encourage him to become addicted" thinks Amanda immediately.

Suddenly, the aforementioned arrives, steadily but with an air of simplicity, goes through the door and stands in front of them. Everyone turns to see him, everyone except Amanda, who barely hears the footsteps, clings to her camera, clenches her jaw with her lips slightly parted and her eyes narrowed.

Daniel Brühl wears an impeccable navy blue lapel coat and olive green wool hat. "He has style" thought Ana. Daniel raises his eyes to them and says in a direct but affable way:

- Hello everyone. Here I am. That I have to do?

Then Amanda turns and offers her innocent and carefree face to the newcomer. She is 37 years old; but the bangs, the open plaid shirt with the simple white T-shirt underneath, the navy blue jeans, those combat boots and the way he clings to the camera give him an even younger look, about 4 years younger.

Daniel looks at her, it was a brief shock. He blinks subtly looking at her. He approaches her with a single step and says in a firm but very humorous tone:
- Eeeh ... I know you.
Everyone, smiling, looks at Amanda who also smiles and only thinks "Of course you know me, asshole"
Daniel gets even closer and ...
"Don't you dare" thinks Amanda ... Daniel hugs her gently and rests his cheek on hers. Amanda smells that familiar scent: lemon verbena, coriander and amber; and confirms in her thoughts "L'Homme Sport, by Yves Saint Laurent". She doesn't feel any tension, just a halo of warmth. That reassures her, it's a good sign. The brief hug ends and Álvaro exclaims
- Ah, look, I didn't know.
- Yes, she was a girlfriend.- Daniel answers, with a calm tone, as if it were an old childhood anecdote.
Amanda falls apart inside. Who else was there to fool. It was all true.
Álvaro is surprised. Ana is smiling. The assistant also smiles. Amanda ... you have to smile.
It was time for work.
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Ana, sitting opposite Daniel, has the tape recorder near the actor and her elbow leaning on the table that distances them. Ask your first question:

- Third time you are nominated for the Golden Globe and you do not take it. How does your body fit?

"Second time" Amanda corrects but to herself, and then reprimands herself "How do I know that? I'm crazy."
Daniel can't help but smile and responds with the soft tone that characterizes his voice when speaking in his mother tongue:

- Very relaxed. The prizes are not the important thing. It's so nice to go to Los Angeles and get recognition from people for The Alienist rather than for Inglourious Basterds or Rush. The series reach so many people ... But I'm not going to lie either, that they give you an award is very nice.

Amanda knows the best thing to do is fall back on her trusty old salvation, she grabs her headphones and puts them on. "Do your magic, Thunder" he thinks he barely plays the song Love Walked In.
Álvaro, for his part, continues to choose which outfits Daniel will use for the photographs,
"That damn taste" thinks Amanda when she sees him in that eagerness.
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It's already 5:37 PM and they haven't taken any pictures yet.
Daniel is immersed in the interview that became talk, this helped him not to focus on that Amanda was hovering after him. Probably, deep down, he was emotionally preparing himself, just as Felicitas had taught him, to deal with the situation of Amanda pointing her camera at him just as she had done twenty years ago.

It was difficult, but inevitable, to remember days when, sitting somewhere in the Volkspark Friedrichshain, they enjoyed the silence, the trees and the chirping of birds. Daniel, back then, felt too naive or too optimistic about Amanda's presence in his everyday life. He admired and loved her so much that it was an indisputable part of his life, and of his heart. Everything, and completely. She was in his thoughts at all hours, and he gave himself as far as his use of reason limited.
He smiled all the time.
At the beginning, he always smiles, then the first tears appear. His were slow to appear, but they appeared anyway, although those forms were too sad because they broke an illusion, and many dreams.

- Well, what time is it.- Ana finally interrupts her interview.
"Very late," Álvaro tells him, approaching the table.
- No!. We must take the photos now, or we will return with nothing. - Ana exclaims.
Daniel exhales through his nose and gets up from his chair preparing himself for Álvaro's instructions.
Amanda removes her headphones, and she knows the time has come. You no longer feel any shaking. She is ready and is even pleased with what she will do.

"Promise me that you will always stay. That you will never let me go. That you will love me forever. And that we will end this life together.
Because I couldn't bear to see you go

Those promises appear in Amanda's mind as soon as she sees Daniel heading to the dressing rooms ey the same air ..." Amanda thought, and then, holding her camera, in a stern and determined way she whispered: "Well, you will have to"
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- He has everything, don't you think?

Ana makes that observation with pleasure, once Daniel leaves the dressing room with the first outfit chosen by Álvaro, and Amanda affirms:
- Of course, it's Daniel Brühl.
- Álvaro will fit in with everything. Many men would not look so good in such a variety of clothes and styles.
"That is the farce of fashion stereotypes." Amanda says.
Ana asks, amused:
- Do you want to argue about that?
- Yes but later.
A voice is raised on the other side:
- Amanda !!
Amanda runs.
- Yes Boss.

Daniel looks at her a second time and looks down as quickly as possible. He assumes his role and decides to delight in being photographed by her. Unintentionally, with such a decision, he has awakened something inside him.

- All right, Mr Brühl, to the wall.

She has spoken for the first time, and Daniel feels in that voice an inevitable doom.
"The same voice" he thinks. Decides to do a test, and turns to face the wall.
Amanda, who was already getting ready on the tripod, raises her head and indicates:
- Head on, please.

"The mood has diminished" thinks Daniel, and turns around smiling. Amanda is unfazed and says:

- Very well. Now do your magic, Mr. Brühl.

Álvaro and Ana smile as they observe the scene.

"Maybe she still has a bit of humor" thinks Daniel, and begins to assume her role as a model.

The first photos come out. And they are confirmation. Daniel can't do it yet. He has not fixed his eyes on the camera (on her) in any pose.

Álvaro takes Daniel into the dressing room again, and combines another outfit.

The photos and outfits keep changing. And, between phrases and laughs, Daniel realizes the absurdity of not looking up. And he looks at Amanda over and over again, he looks at her and he's glad he can see her. Remember the terms they were in two years ago.
"I have made a decision" he had said and she did not show any signs of enthusiasm or regret "love is not just a feeling, it is a decision, and I have decided to love Felicitas, I have decided to love ... the family that I am going to build. I will have a son, a woman, a life ... I have decided to be happy. "
And she continued to show no sign of enthusiasm or regret. He ended by saying:
"You are too much for me"

And so they remained, neither friends nor enemies, neither love nor hate. Only two different routes. She was going home and he was going home.

- Now yes, turn around.- Amanda's voice is firm, she tuned it by doing field work for the environmental consultant. He looks at Daniel and thinks that that Canali overshirt, the Dior Men trousers and the Church's shoes must show off.

It is the turn of a new set. At some point, Álvaro turns to Amanda and asks her:
- Why did you use it?
Amanda responds with a sly grin:
- For fun.

Then she grabs the camera in her hands, she suddenly approaches Daniel. He breathes on the edge. She takes a photo of him focusing, without a tripod. And suddenly she crouches down, kneels on one of her knees without taking her focus off him. She feels a tilt in her chest, a numbness in her limbs and remembers how to control her breathing. Amanda takes a photo of him, kneeling, it's like she's her mercy. He lowers the camera and sighs disappointed ... She looks up at him and they both look at each other ...
It is so inevitable.
"I know," Álvaro exclaims. Approaching with a windbreaker
-That shirt, - says Amanda- no ...
"There is no contrast, yes, yes ..." he places the jacket at a short distance over Daniel and affirms: Let him change for this one.
Daniel changes. In the new BOSS jacket, she presents herself to Amanda again. She tells him:
-Look here, Daniel.
She has tute him. A photo, and then:
- With the pose of a rude, modern, handsome and trendy man, please.
Daniel lets out a short laugh and says:
- Must see.

Amanda then has an idea.
She suggests going outside to take some photos, with the Berlin night in the background. Everyone cheers up.

The Friedrichshain neighborhood has been filled with gambling dens. It is the area of ​​the scene, the most underground. People passing by recognize Daniel and look at him, but no one approaches.

Until a boy comes up to him and hugs him. Daniel greets him cheerfully, they exchange a few sentences and the boy leaves.
-He was the son of my favorite cousin, who lives around here. What an illusion it has made me. I have to see them more. - Daniel clarifies.
One more photo and Ana will continue with the interview.

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In the last half hour, Daniel has returned to sit at the table and Ana has introduced him back to the conversation. Again, Daniel applies the sedative to his thoughts about Amanda, and only thinks about Ana's questions.

- Would you do Spanish cinema again?

- Yes, with Bardem, my idol. And not so long ago we almost worked together, but in the end it didn't come out.

- And haven't you thought about provoking that meeting?

- I'm working on it, writing my first film as a director. A great help me, the writer Daniel Kehlmann. I only see Bardem and me as protagonists. I'm that cool, even when I dream.

They both laugh. And a few meters behind, Amanda smiles, with that particular scowl on her lips.
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The interview had ended an hour ago. Daniel already at home climbs the stairs and goes to the study. There he finds Felicitas, sitting in front of his laptop. He approaches her from behind and hugs her, she can perceive his aroma and his warmth. She corresponds to her hug and asks while stroking her hand:
- How did you go.
Daniel can read a part of the thesis that she is writing for the doctorate that she aspires to obtain. He admires her, just as he once admired Amanda.
- It was nice; but I feel incredibly tired.
She perceives it. It's so sweet when it's out of stock. He adds:
- So I'll take a shower and ... what do you want for dinner?
- Are you not so tired as to prepare a dinner?
- Not for you.
He kisses her on the temple. Felicitas tells him:
- Do what makes you feel good.
Daniel smiles.
Before showering, Daniel stops by to see Anton, his son. The two and a half year old sleeps peacefully in his cozy room. Daniel kisses his forehead and gently strokes his kinky golden hair. He really looks like an angel.
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The next day, and her affairs in Berlin settled, Amanda stops in a park to drink water before leaving for Barcelona. Then a particularly familiar man stops in front of her.
He looks at her and can't believe it, and without much else to do he just laughs.

"What's wrong?" Amanda says to herself when she sees Daniel's reaction.

- Is incredible. It is impossible!

He exclaims. And truly, fate was a cruel player for both of them. He sits next to her and watches her without fear or tension.
She looks at him too and finally just says with an interesting tone:
- Good Morning...
- Good Morning. I thought you left yesterday.
- I had an issue here. I already did, and now I'm leaving.
Daniel watches her, she watches him. The same looks. They are both happy to see each other that way.
- Yesterday was a big surprise.- says Daniel.
- I can imagine it. I had time to process it; but still you knew how to assume it.
- I feel like I have better control over my emotions.
"Should I say that?" Daniel evaluates his response.
- Being married to a psychologist brings these advantages ...
Amanda has not lost his usual mannerisms. Lips, hands, eyes and nose ... She has a variety of funny faces to display in every conversation.
Daniel nods his head silently. He watches her ...
She is so calm ...
- And you, what does your beau do?
- What
- Aren't you someone's girl?
- Whose girl?
- Of someone.
- What
Daniel frowns, smiling, still looking at him.
- You're very weird.
- I'm not weird. I am a limited edition.- Amanda immediately drinks her bottle of water without stopping looking at him with her big and crafty eyes. Daniel laughs softly and briefly, averting his gaze from her to fix it in front where some children run happily, finally he says:
- You've come here before.
"It was a question, or a statement" Amanda wonders internally without knowing what to answer, finally responding:
- Of course.
Daniel keeps a brief silence until he finally confesses an event that moved him at the time.
- I saw you running once in Orankesse.
She stops drinking her water. And narrow her eyes. Your mind remembers the event as well. It was another day, maybe, or the same day ...
What she felt that time, and then she wrote a few lines in her notebook. Some absurd lines. "For Daniel. I don't expect you to read this ..."
Daniel stops looking straight ahead and looks at her again, lowering his gaze immediately. He's busy.

- Have you ever seen me?

That was the question Amanda wasn't expecting.
- Of course. You are everywhere.- she answers, and again uses her gestures.
Daniel looks up. A gust of wind passes in their midst. The trees that cover them sway gently and let some rays of sunlight pass over Daniel's pupils.
Amanda sees it and can't help but remember her own voice saying sometime in the past:

"Did you know that while most admire the beauty of blue and green eyes, few know that brown eyes in light are the most precious thing you can see"

- So much so?
Daniel has finally spoken.

- So much so. As soon as you arrive in Berlin, you just have to go near a cinema or something cultural. I don't even have to try, there is a big can of your ads, news, posters, and other weeds of yours scattered around Berlin ... You even have a star on the Berlin walk of fame ...

Daniel laughs. His eyes narrow. And he affirms without presumptuous spirit:
- I'm fucking special.
- Here.
- Outside not so much.
- Not enough.
Again a silence. The gusts of wind have stopped. Daniel looks at the trees and asks:
- And what time do you leave for Barcelona? ...
Amanda walks away from him and, feigning offense, replies:
- Calm down my friend.
Daniel clarifies immediately:
- It's just a question, I'm not demanding you.
- And who would you be to demand me? I'll be leaving very early tomorrow. What remains of the day I am going to enjoy.
- I thought you were a very busy woman.
- Do you see me busy now?
- You don't have a job in Barcelona?
- Is that of your interest?
- When I arrived you said that you were leaving now. That sounded like something present. I'm not throwing you out.
- And who are you to throw me away? Your performances are up to you.
Amanda takes her last sip of water.
Daniel resigns himself. One last kind question:
- Do you want any suggestions to spend your afternoon?
- I'm in your neighborhood, at SMARTments Business, Storkower Str. 156a.

With such specific information, Amanda knew what Daniel would answer:
- That's kind of sad.
- Boring.
- Yes. But you can go further. Down there is the Marienhof, for example.
-I'll keep that in mind.- Amanda was still calm. -Why do you look at those children so much.
Daniel smiles and answers:
- They make me think of my son. He will barely turn three years old, he is a worm.

Amanda smiles. She still watches it.
Daniel hesitates to tell him, but finally he does:
- I'll be a father again. In November, or in October. I will have two children ...
As you tell him, look at those children who won't stop playing.
-Congratulations, - Amanda says in a soft and sincere voice.
- Thank you.
- Apparently I bring you the blessings. Every time we see each other, you have the news of a new son.

Daniel smiles and affirms silently.
It was true. Last time, he had said something similar to him about being a father for the first time.
Daniel senses that the end must come.
- Well, I guess I should go now.
Amanda doesn't look at him anymore. She is staring at the other end of the park. Now a breeze is blowing his bangs. Her hair is layered down to her shoulders and is still very dark. His slightly pronounced cheekbones and the funny scowl on his lips express a thought that does not have well-defined words. Daniel watches all this, watches her and finally knows ... He knows ... Always ...
Suddenly Amanda notices that he is watching her and looks at him again and asks him with reluctance and intrigue:
- What
She closes her lips in the familiar grin. Daniel smiles and without stopping looking at her he answers:
- You have not changed anything.

- Why would I do. What are you laughing at.
- I think this will be the first time we meet and we don't end up in some kind of discussion.
- You haven't left yet to confirm that.
Daniel, smiling, nods energetically.
Amanda averts her gaze from him and now looks at the children, adding:
- Besides, we are too old for such things. At least I don't have the same spirits anymore.
"Oh yeah?" Daniel laughs because he still recognizes the hint of dispute in his attitude. In the end, she hadn't changed. He does.
Amanda doesn't respond, she smiles. Finally she looks at her and says with an air of exhaustion:
- So, you leave or I leave.
Daniel's eyes are on the ground. He nods his head affirmatively and stands up. He walks over to her, crouches down, and looks into her eyes. She is quiet. He holds her gaze, and says:
- I'm not afraid of you, Daniel.
Daniel still looks at her and affirms in his soft voice:
- Neither do I.
He then kisses her on the cheek, safely, with kindness ... without fear.
Amanda says nothing about such action. Daniel straightens up and says, before leaving:
- Now yes, bye, Amanda. Don't let your guard down while enjoying the city.
Amanda watches him walk away and get lost in a gentle breeze. The children keep playing, it seems that for them there was no tomorrow, only that present, that perfect present.
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Night has already fallen on the Prenzlauer Berg neighborhood.
Daniel is lying on his bed, the room is dark, and he meditates in silence. He thinks how good it would be to smoke a cigarette, but then he refrains, remembering that he has been controlling that habit for a long time.
Felicitas is back in the studio finishing her thesis,
"Neuropsychoendocrinological and psychophysiological aspects of trauma memory", was the title. In the afternoon they had gone out for a walk with Anton in the vicinity of her house. At that moment Daniel was happy, but there was a hint of anxiety.
Now, at this moment, he kept thinking ...
It was possible that despite so many things in the end he couldn't help but feel moved.
It was a sentence.
The more he thought, the more he condemned himself.
He should have been bored of seeing the same gestures, but seeing them brought him joy. He shouldn't be thinking ... about her, but he's been thinking about it since yesterday.

They always fell. Every time they saw each other again, they ended up together in some way, in some brief, intense, and fleeting way. And then the end always came, and it was like a dagger.
Now, after putting their lives in order, it was not conceivable that something stirred inside him.
But it was something that stung her. It kept him restless. I couldn't stop ...
He closed his eyes. Her thumb was sliding across her lips, a tic.
Then she let... she let her mind open to those thoughts she had been holding for many hours. He remembered her. Since the first day. It was so long ago.
"Ricky?"
That was the first word he heard from Amanda.
"Ricky?"
And her hand was resting on her shoulder. She was on a ledge and wanted to go down. A certain Ricky was with her and should be her support. But he passed by and a hand rested on her shoulder. He looked at her, the scowl on his lips, the expression in his big dark eyes, that impossible hair, and that incredulous voice: "Ricky?"

"Daniel"
That he had corrected, he had told her his name. He had smiled.

"Daniel"

Then he saw her throughout his life in different circumstances. Far, close, in thoughts, in contact with his skin, in contact with his feelings ...

"The answer is written in my eyes"

The promises. The looks. The time ... That hidden and finally failed marriage.
Where had that been?
It is impossible.

And that son who was never born. Those tears. The separation. That pain...

It is impossible.

And the beginning of the sentence. See her again. Love her like never before, or be confused. That she ended up hating him because he was an idiot, because the promises he had made had not been kept.

And the beginning of the sentence. See her again. Love her like never before, or be confused. That she ended up hating him because he was an idiot, because the promises he had made had not been kept. For choosing someone else ... For leaving her alone ...
He would never forget the car scene, he shouldn't have underestimated that she had the courage to throw him out.
Amanda was so strong ... She's so strong ...
Seeing her again, loving her more, or being confused, or being intoxicated with that feeling.
They always ended badly.

"What do the shadows mean? ... That they wonder from those gloom"

It is impossible.

They could never be together.

"I am unhappy, with you and without you"

See it now. See it and have no fear. See her and feel that she is so cold. See it and ...

"I have taken a decision..."

See it and feel ...

He begins to feel that he already misses her. He begins to feel that he already loves her.

"The answer is written in my eyes"

Seeing her and knowing that she can't ... She can't resist ... She can't.

Daniel rolls over on the bed. Take a deep breath and know it, that's the way it has to be. There is no way and you don't want ... You want it, you want it with all your might.

"Do what makes you feel good"

Daniel can't take it anymore. He gets up and grabs his jacket. He puts on his shoes and his heart beats like a drum in his chest. Take a deep breath and want to do it fast. There is no time. Yes that's how things have to be ... there's no time.

- I will go out for a moment. I'll be back, I won't go far.- He tells Felicitas without even looking at her, he knows that she can perceive it.

"Are you feeling okay?" She asks in a calm tone.

- Yes. Well I want ... I want to clear my mind. I'm thinking about the movie and I feel like I have to go out for a moment to give myself some ...
- It's a good idea. I understand you. Go easy. Do not worry too much. If you want to talk about it, we'll do it later.
She was always so understanding. She was beautiful, smart, insightful, and she understood. I loved her. He also loved her.

Daniel blows her a kiss and leaves. He comes out determined to jump into that sensation ...
He also loved her ... But this was something different, it was something very intense, very strong ... inevitable. It was born to her and she could control it ... but she didn't want to. He wanted to feel it, because it fascinated him.

He loved her ... he had loved her for twenty years. He had her tangled in his life, forever.

There he went.
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Amanda had fallen into a brief depression. After the afternoon, alone, she had only been able to consolidate her negative thoughts.

He is happy. She has managed to fulfill her dreams, and is so high.

She began to analyze her own life and in the end she felt that nothing made sense.

Now, at night, she is in her room and stops pretending that she does not care and that she does not feel anything. It's stupid. He will be 40 years old, he is an independent woman, and to hell if what he feels does not go with his reality.
She assumes it.

I was always thinking about her, that was the truth. She was there or here, and he was thousands of miles away. It was always like this.
Feel a cold around you.
She heard his name on various occasions and inside her that always made her smile.
I missed.
I was hoping to see it. Even if it's just passing through, when I was going to Berlin, or when I knew he was going to Barcelona.
In his world, she had no relevance, and he didn't expect to have her.

Her heart was calling out to her.
I missed. It didn't matter what they said or if it didn't make sense. I missed.
I loved him.

And the mistakes of the past, the pains, and the disappointments were there, in the past. There was nothing to do for them.

She grabbed her headphones and put them on. She lay down on her bed and didn't think of anything else.

Meanwhile. A hand was approaching her door. Daniel was out there knocking on his door.
Daniel waited anxiously for her to open it, but half a minute passed and she didn't.
He knocked again, approached the door trying to hear her breathe somewhere.
She did not open.
Daniel leaned his head against the door, and felt resignation.
She wouldn't open that door. Never more again...
She closed her eyes at that sentence, and pulled away slightly. She turned and headed for the stairs. She stopped and came to.

"No longer"

He thought, and raced down the stairs.

It was 9:43 p.m. And it was very cold in Prenzlauer Berg.
And nothing is forever.