(The pictures ^ will tell who's perspective it is from this is John the tree is Alex)

Also I am really sorry that I haven't been able to update this in so long, I just have been really busy going back to school and everything.

Sorry! ~Author

I had been watching them, well actually I had been following Alex more.  He was doing horrible, worse then Laf and Herc.  He would sit in what used to be my room too and cry himself to sleep, then wake from nightmares. He was horrible at trying to hide it.

I wish I could talk to him, I wish we could communicate...

I saw him in the hallway to our apartment.  He dropped the keys and just seemed to break.  He cried, cried for what seemed like hours.

I didn't think he would be able to hear me, but I might as well try...

"Alex, everything is going to be alright."  I started.  "I'm here for you if you need me,"  The tears blur my vision but somehow in someway he heard me.

He heard  me...

He runs for me, but can't reach me.  He falls to the ground and I leave.  I want to comfort him but I can't.  I can't see him like this, his hair greasy in a pony tail, his eyes red from crying, that upset look on his face.

I back up till I hit the wall.

His face... I had never see it before.  This hurt more then the hot stinging pain when I was shot with the gun.

I watched him as he cried, he banged his fists on the floor.  I  didn't think you were able to feel pain in the after life...

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I enter his dream.

He is standing there in front of me.  I don't think he can see me though because the light does not reach me where I am standing.

I watch him as he walks towards the desk and picks up the book.  He flips through the pages taking in what some of them have to say.  I see as he tenses, slams the book shut, pausing for a moment deep in thought.

I couldn't even begin to imagine what he had read.

I walk up closer behind him till he was only inches away.  I slip my arms around him as he places the book gently down.

He tenses again, foreign to the comfort he had not had in a long time.  Tears fill my eyes blurring my vision as he turns around.  He buried his face in my chest.  He had gotten so small, and quivered as I held him.

"John," His voice cracks, "Why did you leave me!  You left me, and... and..."  His words slowly came to a stop.

I feel my shirt dampen as he cried.  I try to hold my tears, and with great effort I do.

"I wish I could tell you this on earth," I said, feeling my heart beat in my throat.  My head was telling me not to tell him, yet my heart was telling me to tell him.  He needed to know.

"What?  Your not going to leave me again are you!"  He looks up at me eyes wide with fear.  

I can't hold in a small chuckle.  He was just... too cute.  "I love you," I bend down and kiss him on the cheek.  He doesn't even get a second to make sense of what I said before the dream falls away.  I felt myself cracking apart with it.

I end where I started.  I had followed him to his room, where he had fallen asleep.

"Dammit!  You left me! John!   You left me!" He cries out.

I turn away as tears sting my eyes. He throws the pillow across the room and I hear the sound of glass shattering.

What the hell did I just do?

Sorry this chapter was shorter it was kinda rushed, but all and all I liked it!  I hope you liked it too!  

Thanks for reading!

~Author