SORRY THAT I'VE BEEN OUT LATELY!

But hey, I'm back. ✨

So... Grammys yesterday, Harry won and I cried the whole evening, plus the suits, plus the banana necklace, plus his nails, plus his purple boa, I mean. IS HE EVEN REAL?

Like, I don't get it.

Well, I'm super excited and happy for him, everything he achieved he deserves it so much.
I love him.

As for this.... Buckle your seatbelts up, because they're not many chapters left...

AND GUYS WHAT THE HELL 500 VOTES ALREADY, WHAT'S HAPPENING????

Mag 🦋

T H I R T Y

I stayed the whole rest of the day just watching the sky and laying down on the outside bed near the pool of the rooftop, the same one in where Harry and I first had sex a few months ago.

The sun was setting and my tears had dried, but I still didn't want to leave yet. I knew that the time I left, it would be definitive, it would be real.
And I wasn't ready.

I had turned off my phone, I didn't want to hear from Niall and I knew Harry and Emily would probably be still rehearsing so they wouldn't bother me either.
I needed to be alone with my thoughts and smoking my tears away.
The smoke will clean my mind, or at least I'd like to think that.

I zoned off more than once, just sinking in whatever crossed my mind, just letting me go. I knew I didn't have much options now that I was kicked out.
I was going to end up being a failure the rest of my life.

The sky was turning dark blue and I knew I had to face reality eventually.
But I simply couldn't, I wanted to enjoy until the very las second inside this Academy that had given me plenty. The place I called home for the past three years.

The place that gave me confidence but that now had taken all away from me.

I heard a noise coming from the door of the rooftop behind me, but I didn't even bother to look until I felt a body laying down by my side.

"Hey bunny."

I turned my face to his side to look at him.

"Hey."

He intertwined his hand with mine in between our bodies and then he turned his head to look at the sky. I did the same.

"It's been a while since I've been here." - He said.

"Yeah."

"Great night that one though." - He said and I chuckled. - "Our first kiss."

"Our first everything."

"True."

"Did you finish the rehearsal?" - I asked, turning to him.

"Nope. I left Zayn in charge, I wanted to find you."

"Well, you found me."

"Do you want me to go?"

"No, I missed you."

"Me too."

"Niall told you?"

"He told me you surely were here. I've been texting you like crazy today and you weren't replying, so I asked him."

"Sorry. I needed time."

"It's okay. Are you going to tell me what happened?"

"So, Claudia found out about us, someone told her. She kicked me out. Good news is that you're not going to be fired." - I said sarcastically.

"How are you doing?"

"So I came here because I was grieving. It's ridiculous to feel this sad about a place. I know it. But I just needed to cry over it, you know?"

"I know." - He smiled. - "You think it was Liam the person who told her?"

"Most likely."

"Then I guess he is no longer the prince Nutcracker."

"Are you going to replace him?"

"Yes, with you."

"Me? I can't."

"Why?"

"Because I don't study here anymore."

"And? Your contract is with me, for my company, not with the Academy."

"Wait. Really?"

"Yes!" - He giggled. - "You thought you were out?"

"Yeah." - I said astonished.

"Well, no. You're still stuck with me." - He said and I laughed.

"That's the best news I had today."

"C'mere." - He said and pulled me close to his chest, hugging me from my waist.

"There's one more thing." - I said.

"What?"

"She also left me without a place to sleep, I don't know where to go. And I'm here because I don't want to pack my things yet, I'm procrastinating it." - I said and he giggled.

"You have a place to sleep." - He said and I raised an eyebrow at him. - "With me. Stay with me."

"I can't Harry. I don't want to intrude on your private space."

Harry laughed.

"Louis, you pretty much live there anyways! The only thing that would change is that I'll give you half of my drawers and hangers."

I frowned.

"You sure?"

"Don't you want to live with me?"

"Yes, but you think it's the best?"

"I think that your aunt just gave me the perfect excuse to have you by my side all the time."

I giggled and moved closer to his body, connecting our lips together for the first time today and kissing him softly.

"You should have told me she was your aunt, though. It was quite a surprise." - He continued and I laughed.

"Sorry. There's no other secret, I promise."

He smiled and pecked my lips.
I buried my face on his neck, and tightened the grip around his shoulders.
The memory of my aunt came to my mind again, and just the thought of not dancing anymore made me shiver, making a few more tears roll down my cheeks and stamping his shirt.

"You don't need a degree to be excellent. You know that, right?" - He said softly.

"I just wanted to end the year."

"I never ended my studies, I just went for it, and I was pretty amazing."

"You were lucky someone saw you."

"Lou, I see you, I can put you under the spotlight, I can make other people see you as well, you don't need the degree this academy gives you."

"No one is going to pay attention to you because you're my boyfriend."

"Then show them. I'm sure you're going to dazzle everyone with your solo."

"Which solo?"

"The prince Nutcracker solo." - He said while smiling.

I analyzed his eyes and his smile for a second.
He believes in me.

"Am I really that good? I mean, I know I always say I'm the best and that people believe I have quite an ego, but in reality I'm not so sure. So, as my mentor, not my boyfriend, you really think I can do that solo and not screw it up?"

"I think that solo was meant for you. I mean I actually created it for you, the whole choreography I made was thought for your body and skills, not Liam's."

I smiled widely and grabbed his cheeks, kissing him once more.

"Thanks."

"You're welcome bunny." - He said and I smiled. - "Now stop crying, I hate to see you like this." - He said and wiped my tears away.

I nodded and pressed my forehead against his'.

"Do you feel better? Did you eat today?"

"I've spent the whole day here, I didn't eat at all."

"Then we should head home and I'll cook you something you like."

"I still have to pack all of my things." - I sighed and pouted.

"We can ask Emily to do that."

"I haven't told her yet."

"Ok, what about this? We go to your dorm, we talk to Emily, we pack and then we drive home and I cook for you. We can worry about everything else tomorrow."

"Can we have sex?"

"Sure."

"Then I'll happily go with you."

He laughed.

"I feel used."

"Don't be. I love you."  - I said, kissing him shortly.

I closed my eyes and hugged him tighter, happy that he found me, happy that he's mine.