(Hey I know I mentioned in the beginning that you're from america but idk if I said if your family lives in England now too.)

Y/n pov

I laid awake in my bed, dreading the day that was about to present it's self to me.

I breathed out, trying to bring myself to get out of my bed.

I sat up and pushed myself out of the bed.

I walked into the bathroom and rested against the wall, looking into the mirror.

I stared at my miserable condition.

My messy hair that stuck out in random places, matted with knots, and the roots soaked with grease.

My eyes were red from tears, sunken in, and accompanied with dark bags that sat directly below them.

My lips were chapped from lack of moisture because I haven't had the motivation to get out of bed and get water.

My skin was also dry and flaky for the same reason.

My back ached and my legs felt weak.

I sighed and checked my phone.

I had left it in the bathroom and I haven't checked it since I found out what happened.

I had forty-three unread messages and eighteen missed calls , mostly from Dan, and the rest from relatives, most likely them apologizing for the unexpected news.

I opened Dan's messages.

"Please answer me."

"I know you're sad."

"I'll see you in the morning. Please try and get ready in time."

"I will be there for you the whole time."

I read them to myself.

"I'm so glad to have him in my life. I don't know what I'd do without him." I smiled faintly, for the first time in two days.

I took off my pajamas and climbed into the shower, turning of the shower and adjusting it to the right temperature.

I sat down and let the water run through my messy hair.

I reached up and grabbed my shampoo and let my arm fall back down.

I had no energy to do this.

But I had to.

I washed my hair and conditioned it, leaving the conditioner in long enough that I could comb out all of the harsh tangles.

I rinsed it out and shaved.

This process took me twice as long because I struggled to motivate myself to continue.

After I managed to complete all of my tasks, I remained on the shower floor for a while.

after a few minutes I forced myself to get out of the shower and get ready.

I turned off the water and step out of the shower, drying my body and hair with a towel. 

I wrapped my hair up in a towel and put my pajamas and did my make up.

I tried to cover my dark circles with concealer and darken my oddly pale skin.

I put on some winged eyeliner and mascara.

then I brushed my hair.

I let my hair air dry as I chose my outfit.

It wasn't hard to find something black because pretty much my whole wardrobe consisted of blacks and greys.

I finally chose a simple long sleeved dress that fell to my knees.

I pulled the dress over my head and slipped on some black ankle boots.

I walked into the bathroom and pulled my hair up into a sock bun and sprayed in some hair spray.

I looked in the mirror and nodded at effort.

I heard my phone buzzing so I grabbed it to answer.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Thank God you're alive, Y/n!" Dan exclaimed.

"yep." I said with very little enthusiasm.

"I'll be there soon, Okay?" He said, some concern in his tone.

"Okay, I'm ready." I sighed.

"Okay, hang in there." He said.

"I will." I said and hung up.

I laid back on my bed, waiting to hear the knock at the door.

I must have been laying there for about five minutes when I heard the thumps on the door.

I honestly was excited to see Dan so I rushed down stairs to get the door.

I opened the door to see Dan wearing a suit and his fringe was neatly combed to the side.

He smiled sympathetically.

"Come on, let's go. I talked to your mom and It's all put together. We'll drive down there and then afterwards we'll drive back and you can relax." Dan explained.

I nodded.

I gathered my things and walked to the car with Dan.

I climbed in and relaxed against the seat.

I felt Dan's hand rest on my leg.

I blushed a deep shade of red and tried to hide it by looking out the window as I watch outside.

- time skip to during the funeral-

I watched as they lowered my grandfather's casket into the grave, directly beside his wife who had died when I was younger, much too young to remember her.

"George shall now rest for eternity with his beloved high school sweet heart, Sharon. They were apart for far too long, and now they are together again." The priest explained.

I stood watching them lower down the casket.

Tears streamed down my face.

Dan rubbed my back trying to sooth me.

People started to leave and headed back to the church.

I stood with in front of the grave staring down at the fresh dirt that they cover the casket with, fresh flowers in hand and tears falling from my eyes and onto the slightly frost covered grass.

I heard footsteps approaching but I didn't bother to turn around.

Dan stood beside me staring down at the grave as well.

"I'm sorry." Dan said pulling me into a hug and kissing the top of my head.

"He never got to meet you." I said into his chest.

"I wish I could have met him." He rubbed my back.

"It's never too late, right?" I asked, pulling away from the hug and looking up at him.

He smiled weakly and shook his head.

I knelt down beside the fresh dirt and placed the flowers against the gravestone that had my grandparents names on it.

"Hey Grandpa" I started. "I know you're probably busy catching up with grandma after all these years." I said, letting a tear stream down my cheek.

"I just wanted to introduce you to someone." I continued.

"Grandpa, grandma? This is Dan my, uh, well I don't know what we are yet-" I stated.

"Boyfriend?" He offered, implying that he wanted to be more than friends.

I smiled brightly. "Boyfriend," I corrected myself.

"Grandpa I'm sure you've heard of him before," I said looking back at the new gravestone. "I talked about him all the time, telling you how much he inspired me?" I asked as if I'd a response.

"Remember when I showed you the video of him? I remember what you said, "what a lovely boy, he's perfect for you.' " I explained, laughing a little.

I looked at Dan who was blushing but smiling brightly.

"Oh, and remember how I always told you that I would meet him someday?" I asked. "And how you said you wanted to as well?" I continued.

"Well I did, and now he's here, meeting you" I explained, tears streaming down my face.

"You'd get along so well," I started.

"You guys hate the same personality." I told him.

"And grandma?" I started. "Take care of grandpa for me, we both know he can get himself in trouble" I chuckled.

"I love you guys so much." I said, wiping away my tears with my sleeve.

I set the flowers down in the center of the grave.

"Blue roses," I began. "I know you had them at your wedding, and how you got them for grandma on your anniversary, even after she passed away. Every single year." I continued, fighting through the tears.

"I'll keep that tradition." I promised.

"Me too." Dan said.

I smiled at him.

"Well Mr. and Mrs. (last name), it was so lovely to meet you. I promise we will come visit you both very soon." Dan said and I nodded.

We stood and dan grabbed my hand as we walked to the car heading back to the church.

Dan and I drove back to the church to say goodbye to my family and head back.

-time skip to your apartment-

I walked into my apartment, dan following close behind.

I set my things to the counter and kicked off my shoes.

I felt dans arm snake around my waist, pulling me back against his chest as he rested his chin in the crook of my neck.

"You did good today, I know how hard it is to lose someone." He said, swaying side to side a bit.

I nodded.

"I'm tired I'm gonna go to bed, if you want to you can stay over again, I don't mind" I said trying to lighten the mood.

Dan stretched his arms and yawned. "I guess so." He agreed.

We walked up stairs and I changed in my pajamas in the bathroom

I walked out to see dan shirtless under the covers already half asleep.

I climbed in beside him and snuggled up to him.

He wrapped his arms around me and we both drifted off to sleep.

I'm finally happy

(This is somewhat based off of a true story. I went to my grandpas funeral on Monday [i know two funerals in a week sucks right?] and got this idea so yeah)