Lisa's POV

What the fuck is going on?

My mind was lost at the sight of Jungkook being hugged by my mom. But at the same time, butterflies started banging right through my stomach at the sight of his beautiful face.

Even with the confused expression written all over his face, he still looks so drop-dead gorgeous I can't blame my mom for fangirling over Bangtan's maknae.

I tucked my lower lip in between my teeth, my heart skipping a beat the moment our eyes locked.

Jeon Jungkook...

It's been eleven months since we broke up and for those six months, all we shared are casual conversations every time both Bangtan and Blackpink are together.

We went back to being enemies and though it hurts that our relationship ended like this, I can't blame him.

He was hurt.

I hurt him.

He probably thought bad about me because he thought I two-timed him with Bambam. And just like what Bambam told me, Jungkook had built a protective wall in front of him that doesn't allow me to enter.

He was protecting his heart and knowing him, he probably thought it was for the better.

I just wished he had given me a chance to explain. To be honest, even if he did, I'm not even sure if he would believe me. Technically speaking, he thinks I am a bad woman.

"Lisa, what are you doing,  not introducing your boyfriend to us?" she exclaimed and I almost choked on my saliva at what she said.

My eyes landing back on Jungkook. He looked taken aback at my mom's words.

He'd probably get mad all the more thinking that I was playing him.

"Omma," I said frantically. "He is not my b-"

"It's nice to finally meet you M'am. My name is Jeon Jungkook," he stated before bowing his head towards my mom, my mouth hanging wide open along the process.

As soon as he lifted his head,  his eyes met mine and I'm sure I sure something spark at the glint on his eyes but I was too confused to even determine what it was.

"Jungkook..." I whispered.

What is he doing? Why is he lying and pretending to still be my boyfriend when he's not?

My mom left us alone as she skips her way towards the kitchen and I can hear her calling my stepdad.

The girls were not here. I told them my family will be visiting so they went and stayed at Chaeyoung's house instead.

The chances of Jungkook coming over our dorm, alone,  never once crossed my mind.

"What are you doing here?" my voice shaking a little. He was in front of me, in flesh, and I'm sure in about five steps I should be able to touch his face again like I always do when we were still together.

I never thought a day would come that I will be able to stand this close to him.

But this isn't right. I can't bring him into this mess. Not when I already broke his heart a long time ago.

"Bambam told me he'd give me back what I originally own..." he stated my eyes automatically closing at the sound of his voice.

Calm down, Lisa. You can't let your feelings get in the way...

Wait, what did he just say?

"What does that have to do with being here?"

And then I remembered, Bambam was invited by my parents for a meal.

And it is not a secret to me that he is currently dating Mina.

I bite my lower lip in annoyance, "That idiot, I'm going to kill him once I see him," I whispered to myself.

My eyes landed back on him, "I'm sorry you have to be caught up in this situation. You can leave, don't worry about my Mom. I can explain everything to her," I told him but to my surprise, he started walking towards the cushion and plopped his body over it like how he used to when he used to visit the dorm.

"What are you doing?" I asked him. He was acting differently than he used before we last saw each other.

"So you told your Mom that I am your boyfriend," he muttered while he very unlikely played the hem of his shirt.

Is he nervous?

"I didn't but Bambam did," I shyly told him. I'm not even sure what he's thinking right now.

He looked surprised at my words and I can't blame him. Even to me, it sounded really weird, but then my relationship with him and Bambam had been so messed up even from the beginning.

He looked like a lost bunny...

Slowly, he stood up from his seat and walked closer to me. His steps were light and his hooded eyes made my heartbeat stop for a moment.

"Why?" he whispered, his voice full of curiosity and even though I feel like I've once again fallen in a trance before him, the realization hit me so bad.

"Does it matter?"I asked him,  pain evident in my voice.

"Yes, because I don't understand. You two were fucking engaged but why does your mother thinks that I am your boyfriend?" he asked,  his tongue running over his lower lip.

A set of feeble noises came out of my mouth.

"Why are you asking now?  Don't you think knowing these things now is way past eleven months overdue?" sarcasm greeting him through my voice.

I bite my lower lip in frustration, my hands balling into a fist as anger starts to take over me.

"I'm confused," he attempted to move closer but I stepped back a little, his eyes widening, taken aback at my actions.

"Don't be," I told him brushing off his attempt to a longer conversation. "It's been so long, you don't need to trouble yourself about me," I told him bitterly.

He lifted his hand and I was startled when he started brushing off the strands of hair covering my face.

"Fear... It makes people be blinded to what's right and wrong..." he stated and I was lost in his dark orbs once again. "And I was afraid Lisa..."

"I missed you..." he whispered and as if on cue, all the butterflies on my stomach seemed to vanish, instead,  the elephants living inside me started getting wild.

His hands suddenly cupped my cheeks, my eyes following his every move.

As soon as our eyes locked, his movements were swift. In a flash, his lips were on mine,  devouring every flesh it can reach.

And I was hungry myself. I started kissing him back. All those emotions that I've been keeping for so long taking over. I was longing for his touch, to feel the lips of someone I cherish with my all, of someone who needed me.

His lips were hungry.  I felt his tongue exploring mine and my body shivered all the more.

A farewell kiss, this isn't it, right?  Because he could have done it long ago.

We were so engrossed with the kissing,  we were startled when we heard someone clearing their throat.

Our lips parted in an instant, my hand covering my lips the moment I caught the disappointed look on my mother's eyes.

I felt Jungkook's hand clutching into mine and my eyes bore over his.

He looked at me reassuringly.

"You really are in a relationship with him huh?" she started and I felt Jungkook's grip tightening.

"Too bad, you and Bambam are going to get married soon," she stated and I felt my knees shaking.

Why is everything so hard for me?

My eyes once again locked into Jungkook's,  sorrow visible on my face.

Everything is as still messed up like it used to be.

And moreover, him kissing me, what does it mean?

Do you still love me Jeon Jungkook?

With this messy life that I have,  can we still be together?