Jungkook's POV

"We're back. Are you ready?" I turned around and was greeted by Hobi hyung's worried expression.

After turning my attention back to the crowd of people flocking to the exit, I released a long sigh from my lips.

"Do you think she'll ever forgive me?" I worriedly asked and he kept his lips mum, my stomach churning in anticipation.

"I can't decide on that Jungkook. You rarely saw each other within these past few months and I can tell you that you prolonged this too much," he stated and my heart dropped at his words. He looked at me pitifully. "Lisa is a wonderful girl. I'm sure the two of you can work this out," he added and I felt butterflies running around my stomach at the mention of her name.

Eleven months...It's been so long. I wonder how I was able to last this long.

My mind flashes back to the night where everything started.

*flashback*

"Wipe that grin off your face before I throw my slippers on you Jeon Jungkook," I chuckled at Hosoek hyung's words.

Lisa just took a run and headed back to Chaeyoung and Jimin hyung's house. The images of her flush cheeks still linger on my mind.

Oh God, I love that sweet Thai.

"Hyung, next time, knock on my door okay?" I told him and he just gagged at my words. He was standing right in front of my door, his right hand leaning on the wall.

"I swear I'm going to kill the both of you one day," he said pouting before his eyes squinting a little. "Isn't that Lisa's phone?" he asked pointing right under my pillow and I turned and followed his gaze.

"Right," I whispered before grabbing it. "I'll just go and give this to her tomorrow," I told him and he just shrugged his shoulders before pulling my door closed.

Whistling, I moved back to my bed and lay flat, my hands fiddling with Lisa's phone.

My smile widened at the sight of her display photo. It was a photo of our hands intertwined which I took a few weeks ago when we sneaked into the rooftop of their dorm.

It has been a year and a half since we started dating and though it was hard for both of us to keep it a secret, my days have always been better with just the mere fact of her being mine.

"Aissst!" I almost cursed when her phone slipped on my hands, landing straight to my forehead after it started ringing.

"Why does Bambam keep on calling Lisa anyway?" my brows furrowed. After ringing for some time. the call ended and my eyebrow raised, even more, when I saw how he had tried calling twelve times already.

What does he have to say to her that he had to call endlessly?

To be honest, even though I knew that Bambam and Lisa are just friends, sometimes I still get insecure about the fact that Bambam is still close to her and is still being linked to her as her boyfriend.

The first time I saw Lisa jumped over Bambam back when we were still not in a relationship broke my heart into a million pieces. I thought they were dating or something. But the stupid me still decided to profess my love to her. And I'm thankful I did or we wouldn't end up together like this.

I carefully put her phone on my bedside table. She's probably asleep so I'd give the phone tomorrow.

As I carefully pull my covers, I heard her phone ringing once again.

Should I answer? I'll just tell Bambam that Lisa left her phone in our dorm so he won't ask questions and he'd stop calling. But then the ringing stopped once again so I just shrugged my shoulders and went back to sleep.

It wasn't a good five minutes and then the phone started ringing once again.

"How is Lisa able to handle Bambam at this point?" I uttered in disbelief. I put a mental note to talk to Bambam some time about this.

After a long sigh, I reached for Lisa's phone on my bedside table.

"I'll just tell him to call Lisa tomorrow," I mumbled to myself, a little sleepy.

Right after I hit the answer button, I was startled when I heard Bambam's screaming.

"Babe, thank God you answered! Why have you been ignoring me? Is this how you are going to treat your fiance' huh?" he snickered and my heart dropped to the floor at his words. I felt the blood on my face getting drained. In an instant, I was able to sit on my bed as my heart starts beating rapidly.

No way.

"Lisa..." he mumbled and I noticed how he's slurring.

Is he drunk?

"Have you told Jungkook about us?" he whispered and his voice cracked.

Shit.

Are they in a relationship?

Is Lisa two-timing me all along?

"You need to tell him, Lisa. I'm having a hard time. This is breaking me too," he said and his voice was shaking. " I've given you enough time. Would you like for me to tell Jungkook instead?" he asked and my free hand balled into a fist.

Fuck.

I felt the corners of my eyes suddenly stinging.

Everything, all those hugs, and kisses, all those sweet nothings and midnight conversations, are those not real?

Every time she told me she loves me, is she telling me those out of pity?

"Lisa... It's always Jungkook, Can't you do this for me too?" he asked and I can hear the pain in his voice.

Bambam knows about us.

They must be having fun while I was clueless all along.

Before I even knew it, my tears were already streaming down my cheeks.

It hurts.

It feels like my whole world is crashing in front of me, my body started to feel so numb and my head feels like I'm getting dizzy.

"Please..." he once again pleaded and I don't know if I should feel bad for "apparently" getting in their way.

I feel so fucking stupid.

They were dating all along. And not only that, they were engaged.

I cleared my throat and calmed myself a little.

"This isn't Lisa. But don't worry, she doesn't need to tell me. I get it," I told him before dropping the call before he can even respond, a frustrated grunt escaped my mouth after.

"Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!" I said as I continuously punch on the pillow in front of me as I sit on my bed, tears still streaming down my cheeks.

"Why Lisa, why?" I said as I sob on my own. The pain I am feeling inside is close to tearing my heart apart.

The whole night I was crying, asking myself what I did wrong for her to do me like this.

Did she hate me that much for her to break my heart like this?

I was lost the whole day until I decided to return her phone. But goddamn it, just seeing her beautiful face makes me wanna pretend that I don't know anything. For a moment, I wanted to act like there's nothing wrong and nothing ever happened. For a minute I want us to stay together, no matter how deceitful everything will be.

But I wanted to retain that so little self-respect that I have. At least I want to keep.

So even though it pains me to make that decision, I'm letting her go.

After indirectly breaking up with her, I almost went back and hug her when I saw how hurt her eyes looked. But Bambam's words kept ringing back in my ears.

Three months after we broke up, I had a little incident with Bambam. He was being cocky about being in a relationship and I knew he was talking about Lisa, I don't even know why but I acted like nothing happened and I was still talking to him casually. Though there were moments when he was approaching me to talk about what happened I dismiss him every time. I don't want him to feed me lies.

I knew I shouldn't have been pissed off but I ended up swinging my fist on his face after he said stupid words about his past girlfriends.

And then I got drunk.

I missed her. I missed her damn much that I ended up heading towards their dorm but then I saw Bambam's shoes.

They were together. It felts like a bucket of ice washed over my face, I had to turn my back immediately but I ended up crashing on the stacks of shoes on the entrance.

"Jungkook!" I was startled when I heard someone tap me on the shoulder, and that pulled me back from my trains of thought.

"Huh?" I asked turning my attention back to Hoseok hyung.

"You spaced out. We have to go," he mumbled, worried at my state. I gave him a smile before following him, The others had already walked out of the exit. From where I was, I can hear our fans screaming.

I'm not even sure if Lisa is in Korea. The past few months, both Blackpink and BTS had been very busy and only Jimin hyung finds time to fly back and forth to Korea because of Chaeyoung and Ashton.

Recently, I heard Bambam was dating Mina. And the stupid me thought that maybe I still have a chance, that we still have a chance.

If Bambam can date, Lisa should be able to date as well. At this point, I no longer care if I'd look desperate. If I have to beg on my knees so she would accept me, I would.

I just need her back.

My whole year was dull without her.

I no longer care if I'd look stupid in front of her and Bambam. I love her and I'm willing to put down my pride if that's what it takes to have her back.

I just wish I can have her back.

So the moment we reach our dorm, I will head straight to Lisa's and try once again.

"Please take me back, Lisa," I silently whispered to myself.