Lisa's POV

"Jungkook,  what are you doing?" I exclaimed before he put me down straight on my bed,  me ended up sitting, him towering in front of me.

My heart dropped at the sight of him.

He looked so exhausted, his eyes carry bags underneath.

The moment he and the rest of Bangtan entered our dorm,  he went straight to my direction, carried me like a sack of rice, and headed immediately to my room.

Before he closes the dorm, my eyes caught a glimpse of a shocked Kim Seokjin.

His eyes softened the moment our eyes meet.

Crouching down a little so our face leveled, his hands softly brushed the locks of hair covering my face, a long sigh escaped his lips.

"Are you okay?" he whispered,  his voice was a little raspy, I had to remind myself to stay down and not to grab him this instant.

The last thing I need at this time is to let go of myself and allow me to fall deeper into this lovebug that I am getting.

"I am, stop worrying," I assured him while I try to avoid his glance. "Jennie was just being dramatic over everything. She was probably telling everybody that I runaway. She always says that." I shake my head a little.

Jennie always thought it's funny to tell people that I run away every time I was upset and decided to have time for myself.

It started when we were still trainees, a funny story that only we can understand.

"Don't scare me like that. I thought you were really missing," he mumbled before pulling me for a hug, the loud beating of his chest about to burst my eardrum.

Jungkook...

His warmth brought fire back to life my almost ashed burden and I guess badly needed him, his touch.

Him.

And then I did what I said I wouldn't do once he comes back, I cried.

I thought I've cried enough last night but I guess I didn't.

After being out until wee hours, Jennie and Jisoo unnie found me at the rooftop and insisted that I go home because it's too cold.

Jungkook must have felt the shaking of my body as he started rubbing my back to calm me down.

"Don't cry baby," he cooed,  his breath hitting the sensitive part of my skin and I felt my body shivering even more.

He pulled away from me a little as he desperately, but gently wipe away the tears streaming down my cheeks.

My eyes were probably already swollen from all the crying that I did last night.

Seeing him makes me change my mind about being mature and all. This time, I just wanted him to comfort me.

"You didn't answer my call..." I cried like a little kid and his eyes softened even more.

"I'm sorry baby. I'm so sorry,  please stop crying." he started giving pecks of kisses on my face and I can't help but chuckle at his actions.

"Yah,  stop that." I giggle, sniffling as I try to push him away. However, his arms were too strong I'm feeling a little stupid for even trying.

He was smiling cheekily as I try to push him,  resulting in us both falling on my bed,  my laughter echoing the whole room, our face directed towards my room's ceiling.

After a while,  our laughter died down and all that's left are our synchronized breathing, our hands intertwine as we stare at the empty space before us.

"Jungkook..." I called for his name.

"Hmm?"

My eyes closed for a moment,  contemplating how to ask the words that have been bothering me.

"Do you think we will ever be together for how many years?" I asked him and he was silent.

And then, I felt him moved from my bed,  turning his face towards mine but I didn't bother to do the same.

I don't think I can look at him straight in the eyes at this point.

"I don't know," he whispered and my heart dropped for a moment.

Does that mean he isn't sure about what he feels towards me?

I felt a sharp pain struck across my chest. I know he was being true but then again, I was hoping to hear some nice words. It's in our nature anyways, to ask a question and secretly wishes to hear the words that one is dying to hear.

Though I was a little prepared to hear the worse,  it still stings like a bee and I can't even say a word about it.

He's not your boyfriend Lisa,  stop daydreaming.

From the corner of my eyes,  I can see him staring at my face intently while his head was being supported by his other hand.

He must have noticed the expression plastered on my face because he started tracing my face's features as if remembering every angle of it. My eyes closed again at his touch.

"I said I don't know because we don't know what will happen in the future. But if you're asking me right now, I'd say I am always looking forward to seeing my future with you," he muttered and my cheeks blushed for a moment.

"I get excited by the sound of your voice or seeing your beautiful smile. And if you ever ask who I want to see the moment I wake up, I will gladly say that it's you, Lisa."

Unexpectedly, his words seemed to effectively wash away the pain that I was feeling.

Or maybe it was his mere presence?

Just seeing him makes me feel livelier like I have nothing to ever worry about.

I bite my lower lip,  remembering the words of my mom.

"Jimin and Chaeyoung's situation," I started.  "It keeps on getting complicated. And we both know something is happening or is about to happen with the others. Don't you think we shouldn't add up to that problem?  Don't you think we should give up?" I told him,  my other hand balled in a fist,  the words coming out of my mouth stings and as much as I wanted to deny it, I feel like my words hurt me more than what my mom had said.

A long sigh escaped his lips and I felt bad for throwing these words at him when he just arrived. 

He chose to go to me,  calm me down, and make sure I am okay but here I am,  dropping multiple bombs towards his fragile heart.

"No, Lisa. I didn't say Yes to your conditions of keeping us a secret so you can give up easily," he told me. His voice stern and I was so sure he was trying to take a good grip of himself.

My insides churn and I feel so stupid for making him upset.

"But there isn't an us yet," I stated and he didn't answer.

"There is an us. I will stand by that until I feel that you no longer like me the way I do to you." he snickered.

Lisa,  you are so selfish, pabo.

I turned my face towards his direction and brushed his coconut hair to the side.
"I'm sorry..." I told him. "Sorry for giving you a hard time."

He stared at me intently and my heart flipped multiple times,  unable to handles the strong emotion emitting from those bright orbs.

He removed his other hand from supporting his head and pulled me closer, now,  we're just two broken people hugging each other for support.

"If there is a problem, you can always tell me so we can talk about it. Don't bottle it up to yourself. I don't like the idea of you thinking negatively about everything. Please, Lisa,  promise me you won't give up on us that easily. I'll lose my shit if you drop me like I'm nothing at times like this." his voice cracked at the end and that's when I realize how affected he is by my words.

Shit Lisa. How can you do this to him?

I decided to be honest and tell him what's bothering me.

"My mom,  she was looking for a man who will marry me, not now but for my future," I told him and I felt his body stiffen for a moment.

"I need to meet your mom," he whispered before pulling away.

I felt nervous in his sudden words. The thought of my man meeting my mom flashes in my mind and I'm not sure how to react about it.

"She doesn't like idols," I told him. I don't want him to feel sad about it but I don't want to give him false hope either.

"Babe, I don't care if she doesn't like idols. I'll meet her as Jeon Jungkook,  the man who loves her daughter and not Jeon Jungkook of BTS. There's a huge difference between that." he mumbled, pouting at my lack of confidence.

I chuckled at his expression. 

"If you think this would make me give up, well think again babe. Jeon Jungkook never backs down on anything," he smirked and I can no longer take the cockiness within him,  so my free hand reached for the back of his neck and pulled him in for a quick kiss.

He was taken aback at my sudden action and I quickly turned my back on him before he realizes what just happened.

I covered my face immediately,  trying to stop myself from laughing out loud.

"Yah!" he exclaimed. "I need a proper kiss Lalisa! Come here! " he sat down immediately and I just pulled my blanket,  covering my whole body.

"Wow. That was so unfair." he talked to himself, disbelief inevitable on his voice.

As he was about to pull the covers, we heard the sound of the door opening.

"Did someone went out?" he asked and I removed the covers on my body.

"Or did someone came in? Didn't you all come in together? I mean,  the whole Bangtan?" I asked confused.

Both our eyes widen as we headed straight to the door, my hair disheveled and my eyes red from all the crying.

Once my door opened,  our jaws landed on the floor,  YG Sajangnim and Bang Pd stood in front of us.

Shit. We are in trouble, aren't we?