Jungkook's POV

"Aissst!" I screamed in frustration and Hobi hyung almost curses in surprise as he jumped from the couch he was sitting in.

"Yah! Jungkook!" he glared at me while his hands clasped right to where his heart is located.

He threw a pillow to Namjoon hyung who was laughing at his reaction.

These two.

"Why? Is there a problem?" Namjoon hyung asked and I just rolled my eyes at them.

Namjoon Hyung, Hobi Hyung, and I were in the living room in our dorm. Thankfully, the other members weren't around.

Jin and Yoongi hyung were somewhere, God knows where.

Jimin hyung is probably;y with his wife while Taehyung is no doubt with Jennie. He had been all over the lady ever since.

So here I am, stuck with my two hyungs and I'm not even sure if it's a good idea.

The last time I was with them asking for advice, everything went downhill for me. And right now, I'm desperate to pour out all my emotions.

Should I call Yoongi hyung instead?

But I can't tell him. I was barely even able to tell Namjoon and Hobi hyung how I feel about Lisa. That's after I made them promise not to tell anyone about it.

To my surprise, the two looked so serious and listened to me intently. I don't even get why they look afraid.

"Is this about Lisa again?" Hobi hyung looked energetic, his eyebrows wiggling as he dances weirdly in front of me. Soon enough, Namjoon hyung follows.

The two had been teasing me whenever the others are not around. I don't even know why I decided to tell them about it and I'm quite surprised how we manage to keep it within just the three of us.

"Don't even think about it." I stopped them. I was so frustrated, the incident yesterday kept flashing off my mind.

Lisa said No to me.

She fucking said no straight to my face. Imagine my shock after her response.

After that, we barely even talked and I was so goddamn afraid to receive another rejection so I did not bother asking why.

All she did was turn her attention back to the television and didn't even bother glancing back at me. We stayed like that for God knows how long.

Just when I had the courage to ask her again, the door suddenly opened revealing her members and she immediately went back to her room, not even saying goodbye.

Chaeyoung asked me what's wrong but I didn't answer. I just bid my goodbye and headed back home like nothing ever happened.

And it kills me now.

Why did she say no?

Was it because of what I said about supposedly liking Yeri?

I didn't mean that.

It was all Namjoon and Hobi hyung's idea. They told me to make her jealous and suggested that I tell her that.

But guess what? Lisa ended up avoiding me.

I almost lost my shit after that.

Thank God for Jimin hyung, I had an excuse to stay in their dorm.

Seeing Lisa sad makes my heart shatter into millions of pieces.

She barely even smiles at me. The last straw was when she locked herself in her room the entire time we were here.

If I did not hear Jimin hyung talking with Chaeyoung about going to their agency without Lisa, I wouldn't have the chance to talk to her in private.

But it didn't turn out to what I was anticipating.

After summoning all the courage that I had stored since two years ago, I tried to ask her to date me.

I thought she likes me back.

We kissed, for fuck's sake! Was that all nothing to her?

I feel so frustrated right now.

"Wait, I was so curious. You never told us when you started liking Lisa. You two were always bickering with each other and you're always getting angry whenever she floods you weird messages." Hobi hyung pouted.

"Right, and didn't you almost blocked her after she sent you multiple indecent photos of men in bikinis?" Namjoon hyung added. He was giggling at the thought. He saw the photos and he was laughing so hard.

"And Jimin had to drag you all over before we can convince you to go with us to their dorm."

I bent down, my elbows on my knees as my hands cover my face.

"I don't know," I muttered.

A long sigh escaped my lips. What Hobi hyung said was partly true, But it wasn't because I don't want to see her.

I didn't know when it started. At first, I just like Blackpink because of their concept and I feel like they are really good. You know, since I have a soft spot for YG artists.

I wasn't really fond of visiting their dorm, not because I hate Lisa but because I keep getting flustered whenever she's around.

Her smile makes my heart flutter and the way she looks at me straight in the eyes almost makes me lose my shit every time.

And her doe eyes, it makes my knees go weak with just the sight of it.

I was afraid.

I have never felt too lost before, not because of a girl.

All my life, I just practice and performed. Never once did I paid any attention to any girl. And if I did, it may be because I admire their talent.

But with Lisa, it was so different.

She made me feel thousand of emotions and it scares me. I didn't know how to handle this new emotion within me.

Back then, I never felt lonely just because I didn't saw some girl for two days, but I did with her. Heck, it wasn't even a good one day but I was already longing for her.

I started missing her weird banters, the way her laugh sounded heaven to my ears whenever she beat me into something.

I tried to keep my cool every time, pretending I was mad about it. The truth is, I let her win most of the time so I'd have another reason to play with her.

I don't mind her sending me weird photos and flooding me spams if that's what it takes for her to talk to me.

I know I said I would block her but I'm secretly anticipating the next messages that she'll be sending, thinking about what other tricks she would pull off under her sleeves.

Once, I woke up in my room with her trying to write something on my face, I was actually startled. I thought I was dreaming.

She was there, staring at me. Before I knew it, I pulled her closer and hug her.

I didn't know where I had the courage to ask her to stay but I'm glad I did.

When I saw that Bambam was about to go to Lisa, I run like a maniac, only to see her jumping over Bambam, hugging him like they were in a relationship. I felt so dejected.

Or that time when Bambam, Yugyeom, and I were video calling each other, I almost curse the guy.

I didn't know why but I ended up going to her place still. I didn't care if I'd be devastated to see her with him. The thought of her and him inside her room alone scared the shit out of me.

That time when I was so lost after finding out that Jimin hyung and Chaeyoung were married, I was so afraid, and yet she was there for me.

At that I lost it, I kissed her and it broke my heart a little after she turned her heels and run away from me.

The following events are even weirder. I tried to brush off the feeling, afraid that she will distance herself more to me.

We started acting like some best friends, except that I felt far more different from that.

So I was determined to confess to her. I asked for Namjoon and Hobi hyung's help.

Namjoon hyung said that I should check how Lisa feels about me. That's why I dropped the Yeri bomb.

But then everything turned on me. She started doing what I was afraid she'll do, she distanced herself, avoided me like I'm someone who got some disease.

And then there's our concert tour and the whole Jimin and Chaeyoung drama, which we're glad is finally over, by the way, so we ended up not seeing each other more.

I knew she got jealous. But I was too stupid to realize that she was probably hurt.

So I took the courage, I confessed.

My heart dropped at the thought.

"She said No," I whispered.

The weigh of her words finally daunting into me.

And it hurts.

It hurt like fuck I feel like crying. I don't care what our members would say.

I haven't slept a wink since last night. I was thinking about what went wrong.

What am I suppose to do now?

"Who said no?" Namjoon hyung asked, confused.

"Yah, did you confessed?" Hobi hyung shrieked as the two went closer to my direction, too eager to hear what I was about to say.

I groan in response.

Just then, I felt my phone buzz, so I pulled it out of my pocket.

My heart started hammering inside my chest when I noticed who it is.

"Pancake?" Namjoon hyung read and I stood up from my seat and move farther away from the two. 

"Yah, yah, Jungkook, let us see." Hobi hyung whined.

I did not bother answering.

My hands sweating, I gulped before I opened her message.

"Come here. Dorm. Now."

And that's just what it takes for me to rush over to where my heart is.

I quickly rushed out of our dorm not bothering to answer my hyung's calls.

I don't know what this is all about but I'd take the risk.

Wait for me Lisa.