Elena's point of view

"STOP THERE AND LET ME CORRECT IT, I WANNA LIVE A LIFE FROM A NEW PERSPECTIVE!"

We stare at Winter as she sings to the top of her lungs. She has in her earphones so she doesn't know how loud she truly is, Valerie growls before kicking the younger girl off the bench.

Winter: HEY!

Valerie rolls her eyes, returning to her book.

Me: Hey Val?

She hums.

Me: What did you mean by masochist the other day?
Valerie: You're still thinking about that?

Yes because, well, she's not wrong.

Sex, kinks and fetishes is something I never was very knowledgeable in. When I lost my virginity I wasn't experienced enough, it was crappy and lasted three minutes at most.

But I noticed certain things...

One time I had sex and the guy choked me, he wasn't experienced and ended up making me black out. Once I woke up I seen him fully dressed pacing and damn near crying thinking he killed me.

I was excited, the pressure on my neck, the barely breathing, the pleasure. It aroused me.

Valerie: It was a joke, don't think too deep.
Me: No I know that, but what if you're right? What if I keep pestering Yuta because I like his reactions?

She blinks.

At first it was annoying because he had no right to treat me like such, but after a while it amused me.

Valerie: It would make sense. You read and watch things that hurt your feelings on purpose, it's like you like pain.

Hm.

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Yuta's point of view

I haven't had much 'fun' since I ran into Raven in Japan. No other girl has caught my eye, most of them say the same thing to me over and over.

"Oh my God I love you!"

"Korea and Japan's it boy!"

"Do you need a girlfriend?"

No one needs a boyfriend or girlfriend.

But I do feel like I need someone to take this frustration out on. The boys and I go out to the club as a small stress relief from the work week.

San: It feels like I haven't hung out with you losers in forever.
Seonghwa: Why do we keep inviting him?
San: Because you love me!

Their friendship has came very far since college. Yeosang and Hongjoong take a shot of vodka, making twin faces as the bitter drinks burn their throat.

Xiaojun: What's been up?
Seonghwa: Nothing really, my dad must've forgot he retired because every time I go into the office he's sitting there.

I chuckle.

San: It's always entertaining watching you two go at. How's the no mafia life?
Xiaojun: It's so boring.
Hongjoong: I never thought I'd see the day where you stopped.

No one did. Who would want to give up a kingdom like that? Love makes you do crazy things, eventhough he's bored he doesn't regret his decision.

When he told me the situation with him and Santana's parents I wanted to kill him because I couldn't imagine the pain she went through. However, I listened to his story and understood.

Me: Has anyone heard from Wooyoung?
San: I have! He's doing well, the baby and Sauni are going home tomorrow.

I nod not really saying much. It's been years so it really shouldn't bother me but she broke me.

Love and I never had a good first impression. Your parents are suppose to be the first people in your life to love you, my mother did, my father beat me any chance he got.

Then I thought I'd have a shot in college, Sauni ruined that.

Sure I look around and see my friends married and happy but honestly, I don't think I can ever have that. I don't think I deserve any of that either.

San: Is that my sexy girlfriend?
Yeosang: You call my sister 'sexy' in front of me again, I'll kill you.

I look towards the entrance and see the girls along with Elena.

Ugh, why the hell do they make friends with everyone?

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my eyes are crossing im so sleepy. lmaoo goodnight 🤍