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❝ I’m a fate worst
than death.❞

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C H A P T E R   E I G H T E E N

“At his mercy”

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GLANCING OVER MY my shoulder I saw Taehyung’s jaw was set tight. Hands clinging tight on to the steering wheel while his dark eyes trained on the road ahead.

The subtle growing of his jaw beard now added to the intimidating aura he carried. His face looked clean yet at the rugging look to it.

At the corner of my eyes I barely could've noticed the strange  black tattoo near base of his neck line, the initials so small that I couldn't even make them out. Squinting, I nervously bit my lips.

“You have a tattoo?”

I had asked, the first thing I ever directly asked to him after may be three days.  Three days have passed since then, I was told to, no actually forced to stay in the hospital, with men guarding outside my room. Only Namjoon would sometimes come to pay me a visit, where as Taehyung, it was hard to get see more of him, he was always in motion. And when I did saw him that was today only to discover him with freshly new wounds.

Everything about them feel so strange to me, it's like I never knew them at all.

“Do you not like it?”

He spoke profoundly, his hoarseness making chills to run down my spine as I sighed and looked away.

I know what he's trying to do, but I can't just seem to be near without being scared, he scares me.

Slowly shutting my eyes then reopening them, I breathed into the slow intakes as my heart wavered when the car hastily came to a halt.

Swallowing in a deep breath, I mustered up the remaining courage within me for what I was about to say next.

“Let’s not see eachother again. I want this whatever we've to end right here, from now on.”

I spoke quietly my eyes looking forward, as I felt the man turning sharply towards me.

“What?”

He murmured, his breath shudders as swallowing hardly, I slightly move to face him.

“I know you heard me the first time,” I whispered back, almost tongue twisted.

Looking upwards at him, I felt a little shaken from the dark look across his face.  Rubbing his jaw, he clenched tightly on to the steering wheel. The car now sleeping in cold tranquility of the dark.

“Are you leaving me, angel face?”

Taehyung asked slowly, leaning his head against the steering while he stared at me.

“I’m only saving even the little memories we had together, it's difficult you won't understand,” I spoke, numbly my voice breaking into a half sob.

“Saving or more like killing?”

He had asked in an humorous voice, straightening up. I felt my heart beating wildly all of a sudden seeing him give me a dark smile, his eyes lightening up at the look on my face, as I leaned back against my seat.

I wish he would stop doing that.

“I won't say it anymore but I think I'm just scared of you. I don't know who you really are, Taehyung,” I paused to find him actually listening to me with his full attention, swallowing,“if you...if you really want me to stay then tell me the truth. I won't judge you, let me see the real you,” I whispered the last part so slowly as my hand went closer to his face, then gently resting it against his cheek as I gazed into his dazzling eyes.

“Pa..ris,” he breath shudders as he moves my hand away from his face, taking it in the palm of his own hand while his eyes never left mine,  I was fascinated by it all, his features not perfection but so intensely dark, masculine.

“Is it too much to ask, Taehyung?”

I asked, my voice sounding almost into a broken one as with shuddering breath I stared up at him.

I couldn't possibly say what I was feeling right now, just that somewhere in my heart I badly wanted to him, say he wants me to stay.

I wanted to know the truth, I wanted to be with him through it all.

“You were right it's better if we don't see eachother anymore.”

His spoke as I see his eyes sparkle in the dark, letting go of my hand he hastily moves away from me. I could feel my heart tearing up, every atom of my being wanted just to be with him, my body longed to be close to him, when my mind shivered with terrors at the possibility of it.

For some time the two of us stayed in silence with neither of daring to say anything, as we felt the cold breeze, the calmness of the thrilling night, the empty sound of the few drizzle that fell on the wind screen.

Nothing could be felt now, like two hearts beating to be together but being not together, immune to everything. We were lost, without being able to find eachother.

And to my amusement a faint smile spread across my face, as I wiped the single tear that fell from my eye. An unwavering feeling dawned upon me.

“Is this what it feels?”

I had whispered to myself, before my hands unclasped the seatbelt that was tied around my waist, the sound of it that snapped the lost man out of thoughts as I found my gaze drifting towards him.

His eyes, showed an unknown emotion, a heavy silence fell through the land as my heart danced inside of my chest.

For one last time.

My eyes came to a close as I slowly leaned closer to him, then gently taking his face between my hands, I laid my lips slowly at the corner of his full one's. Taking the man by his pure surprise.

His eyes seemed to be widened, with his muscles tensed. I stared into his eyes as he pushed a lock of hair back from my eyes and I felt my face crumple. I placed my hand against his and clenched my jaw and breathed into the scent of him, trying to embed some of that solidity into myself.

And then before I could change my mind, I let out a strangled ‘bye’ that might have been a sob or a stupid half laugh, I'm not even sure I could tell. And I turned and walked out briskly.

“Goodbye, Kim Taehyung.”

TO BE CONTINUED

Author’s note:

I had to write this whole thing again, after wattpad fucking deleted it. Literally I'm just so tired so please excuse my writing if it sounds so shitty.

So why won't Taehyung tell her the truth? What is he hiding?

From now onwards the story would be taking some twists, and turns so i might be updating more frequently.

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