CHAPTER TWENTY THREE |

( only one shines through my heart,
and that one is you . )

Both Roman and I stared at Kevin, the man I used to love. Kevin still had that sick smirk on his face, oh how I wanted to smack that smirk off his face. Just him standing in front of me, made my blood boiled. What was I expecting? He wasn't going to listen to me telling him not to tell anyone about our past relationship.

Kevin chuckles and pats Roman's shoulder, "See ya later buddy." Kevin stops and looks at me. "You know where to find me when you want me."

I swallow a lump in throat as he stalks off. My dig my nails into the palms of my hands to stop them from shaking.

"Charlotte you care to explain anything?" Roman asked confused.

"I don't need to explain anything, let's leave already." I say.

Roman nods and we walk silently to his locker room to get his stuff.

The car ride was silent, I wasn't daring to speak. What do I say?
"Oh yeah Kevin, the guy who power bomb you into the announced table, is my ex husband who keeps on stalking me and won't leave me alone, but don't worry I don't have anymore feelings for him, all my feelings are to you."

As soon as we get into the room, I immediately walk to the balcony of the hotel room. I slide out a plastic chair and plop myself onto it, bringing my knees to my chest.
I feel if I was stuck in a situation that I just cannot get out of. If it seems things wasn't worse between Ric and I, now I have to deal with whatever Kevin is up to.

I felt Roman sit next to me. I am dreading whatever is coming next.
"I didn't know Kevin was you're ex husband. I normally don't like getting into other people's business, but with what happened back there, I need to know."

I sigh, I didn't want to bring Roman into this. Whatever went on is between Kevin and I, but I felt if I could tell Roman anything.

"Are you sure you want to know? It's quite a long and isn't a really interesting story." I say looking straight ahead at the dark sky.

Roman places his hand over mine, "I am sure Charlotte."

I take a deep breath, trying to think where to start. I guess its appropriate to start from the very beginning, right?

"Once upon of time my dear ole brother introduce me to one of his closest friend......."

"Ashley!" I whip my to the right, letting my straighten blonde hair fall to my back. I saw my younger brother beckoning me to come. I walked towards the direction of  my brother and a man.

I was still laughing at the joke my friend Haley told me. "This is Ashley."He told his dashing friend.
"Sis this is one of my close friends, Kevin Steen."

I felt tingles all around my stomach, Kevin was tall and muscular, he had brown hair and deep brown eyes that had me falling deep into them.

Kevin reached his hand out and I placed mine in his hand. Kevin brings my hand up to his lips and places a soft kiss. I gave his a shy smile letting some hair fall to my face, for him not to notice the faint blush on my cheeks.

"Its a pleasure meeting you Ashley." Kevin tells me softly. My knees felt weak. I didn't understand how this man could make me feel all nervous. I was never a nervous person around people, but around him I felt if I had to be perfect around him.

"You too Kevin." I say.

Reid looks between us with a sly smirk on his face. Oh that sneaky bastard. "Well I let you too get to know each other, I'm gonna go help mom in the kitchen." With that, Reid walks off away from us. Please don't leave.

"Its a lovely party you're family is throwing." Kevin tells me, I could tell he was nervous too.

I shrug, "I'm glad you're enjoying it, I am not really a big party girl." My parents were hosting a Christmas party. Family friends and family surrounded the place.

"Really? You look like one."

"I was for awhile, put I just don't like being around people."

"Good thing I don't either because I want to talk to you some more, how about we take this outside." I bite my lip and nod.

"After you."

Kevin offered his arm for me to take and I happily wrap my arm around his. We walk through the crowd of people who were sipping on eggnog and chatting. Goosebumps formed up and down my arms once the December night hit me. I had totally forgot that I was wearing a tight black shirt with the sleaves ending above my elbows, and a red skater skirt with my black pumps.

"Fuck." I mummble under my breath.

"Cold?" Kevin asks me. I nod my head and he slides off his army jacket and draped it over my shoulders. "I know its very cliche for me to give you my jacket but you need it more than me." I send him a kind smile.

We sat at on the blue lawn chairs that my parents have kept around for awhile.  "So Ashle-"

"You can call me Charlotte." I cut him off.

"Charlotte... I love it. So Charlotte, have you lived here all your life?"

" I have. I have never moved away from this place. Its my home. How about you?"

"I'm from Canada originally but I moved to the U.S to live out my dream."

"What's you're dream?" I ask all of a sudden curious.

He chuckles and shakes his head, "You're going to laugh and think it's dumb."

I kiss my teeth, "I won't. No dream is dumb. Now come on Kev, spill it."

He smiles at my nickname for him, "I want to be a wrestler for the wwe, for now I am just working around the independent circuit."

I nudge at him with my elbow, "That isn't dumb. I find quite cool for you to be working in the indies."

He cocks at his head at me, "Huh, most girls would of rolled their eyes and told me to get a real job."

A smirk grows onto my face, "Who said I was like most girls?"

A smirk grows on his own too, "True."

"Can I tell you something absolutely crazy and insane?" I ask him.

"Go for it sweetheart." My cheeks heat up more from that.

"I want to be a wrestler. Not some ordinary woman wrestler, I want to be the greatest. I want to complete in mad matches, matches that no woman dares to step into. I want to beat my father's championship reign. I want to something more than a pretty face."

Kevin smiles at me, I feel if that's just what we have been doing. "I can guarantee all that will happen, just by talking to you for ten minutes I know you will do great things in you're life."

I couldn't help the smile that was growing big on my face. I look up at the dark sky, the stars shine brightly.

"Aren't they all beautiful?" I ask completely memorized.

Kevin shrugs his shoulders, "There is too many stars in the sky tonight but only one shines through my heart, and that is you."

"We talked all night. I let my guard down for some man I meet just that night, but Kevin was just so easy to talk to. I could talked to him forever. After that night, we talked every day after that. We hanged out almost everyday of the week. It wasn't long till I started growing feelings for my best friend........."

"Ugh shut up Reid! I hope you twist you're ankle tonight during you're match!" I shouted at my younger brother and slammed the door that lead to the bunks. We all rented a big bus to travel with the ROH  promotion.
I stomped over to where the bunk my best friend Kevin was at. I groaned and slumped down next to me. He puts whatever he has in his hands away and wraps his arm around my shoulders.

"I swear that boy annoys me at times." I say.

"He is you're brother."

I poke his chest, "He is you're best friend."

"Ouch, you got me there."
We continued to talk around radom things and what not.

"So what did you have in you're hands a while ago?" I asked.

Kevin picks up a notebook, "A notebook duh."

I playfully roll my eyes, " What's inside?"

He looks at it and shrugs, "Promos and stuff like that."

"Can I read it?" I asked with curiosity in my eyes.

"No."

"Please?"

"Charlotte no."

"Please Kevin!"

A mischief smirk appears on his face, "Fine, but only if you try to catch it."

"Okay!" I say loudly trying to get it out of his grasp.

He tossed the book around trying his best to keep it from me.

"Give it to me!" I exclaimed while laughing at the same time.

"Nope you're too slow."

"Please!"

"Why?"

"I'm curious!"

"You know curiosity killed the cat."

"Yeah but cats have nine lives!" I suddenly take a leap trying to get the book but I end up falling on Kevin.

I was suddenly straddling him. I looked down at his big bro eyes, my heart quicken. Kevin looked back at me, one of his hands was on my waist. Our breathing was uneven. We both wanted each other.  His eyes flickered to my lips and my eyes. Then he crashed his lips onto mine.
I kiss him back with no hestation. I cup his face with my hands. He drops the notebook somewhere and runs his hand through my blonde locks. I felt a strong connection I never felt before. All my worries of the world just vanished. Kevin was the center of my universe. I felt complete.

We finally pulled away, out of breath. We stared at each other, a smile both crawled upon our faces. I then connected our lips again.

"For the next two years we started dating. I was the happiest I could be with him. He was just my other half. It wasn't long till he proposed to me....."

"I would like my beautiful girlfriend to come out her to this very ring right now." Kevin spoke to the ROH universe. I looked confusedly at Reid questioning what was Kevin doing.
Reid smiled widely and rushed me out of the curtain.

I smiles shyly at everyone, I had been training but I was never out in a live show or something.
Kevin happily opened the ropes for me to step into the ring.

He laced our hands together and walked to the middle of the ring. He stood in front of me smiling down at me. "Hi dear." He greeted.

"Hi." I said sweetly.

"A person once told me that I would never find love, but oh wasn't that person wrong. Before I met you angel, I was a messed. Life wasn't treating me good. I am definitely not regreting it when Reid made me get my ass up and go to some Christmas party that you're parents were hosting. I would of never meet you. You are the best of me. I am welling to get every morning because of you. You make my world a hell of a lot better. I could never have done anything I was able to do without you're support. I am so in love with you Charlotte." He looked around and smirked, "That's why I think this is the perfect time to do this."

I looked at him strange, what was he doing? He then got on his knees, making tears flood to my eyes. I gasped as he pulled out a small black velvet box that contained a beautiful ring in it.

"So would you Ashely Elizabeth Fliehr do me the honors and becoming my forever and always?"

I rapidly nodded my head and let him placed the ring onto my finger. I wrapped my arms around him, pure joy and love was taking over me.

"Those years were the best years of my life. Everything was perfect. I had finally had someone I was extremely in love with and a good relationship with my family. Life was good. I thought I had it all, then the worst day of my life happened. Reid had suddenly passed away." I got choked up on the last part. I couldn't stop tears from falling out of my green eyes.
Roman laced our hands together and rubbed the back if my hand in confront.

"Nothing in life could of prepare me for his death. I cried day in and day out. I was a messed. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him. The reason I still keep this old phone is because it is the one That Reid brought me and it holds all the old memories of my past life." I wiped the tears that were rolling off of my cheeks.
"Kevin had stuck to my side. He was a good husband to me. He made sure I was alright instead of making sure if he was too. That's when he started to heavily drink and smoke. Every single day he smelled like alcohol and cancer sticks. That funny and loving man I once knew was gone. I tried my best to try to stop him but I couldn't. We would get into huge fights, terrible ones. I wasn't the only one who lost someone, he lost his best friend. He worried about me instead of paying attention to himself. The liquor and cigarettes were just his escape from his life."
I took a deep breath before I started the next part. Roman had a worried and sympathy looked on his face. I hated telling him this but I busted needed to get this off of my chest.

"We feel out of love. Love didn't existed anymore for us. We both hurt each other badly. We just didn't work anymore. By then I was already wrestling and I got signed to NXT. I didn't tell Kevin I got in, I wanted to be free from him. So I packed up my bags and moved down to Florida and sent the divorced papers to him. From there till a couple of weeks ago, we hadn't spoken."

I stared off at to the distance, I suddenly broke down into a sobbed. I hated talking about my past, it just brought me into a depression. Roman quickly wrapped his arms around me, holding me tight.

"I just don't know what to do anymore. I wished you didn't find out about Kevin. I wished I didn't bring you into this. I just wish I wasn't so broken. My heart hurts. Everything just fucking hurts."

"Life sucks terribly Charlotte," Roman told me softly while he ran his fingers through my hair. "But am we can do is just survive. You have been brave for so long now, and its time for you to put down you're ruined armor. Its okay. Everything will be okay. I know that's the most horrible thing I can tell you right now, but you will be okay. I will make sure you'll be okay. I swear for as long as I'm breathing, I will make sure you will be alright." He says fighting his grip on me.

Being in his arms made me feel safe as usual. This is where I belonged. Roman was my freash air. Roman if you're listening,

Please never let go of me.

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Well what a intense past two chapters. Okay everyone let's just take a deep breath and listen to what I got to say.

Kevin is Charlotte Ex husband.

Wow that sounds weird saying that, but right at the same time.

No one guessed it! You don't know how hard I laughed when someone would guessed the wrong person.

Maybe some were like:

OMG WHAT? HOW? I WAS IMAGING HIM IN A TUX AND CHARLOTTE IN A WHITE GOWN.AHHH JDHDHDJDBDBDB

*cough* *cough* Haley *cough*

But for ones who are gonna be like,

"Ew kevin???"

YES KEVIN NOW STFU AND LEAVE MY LITTLE PRIZE FIGHTER ALONE.

Just look how precious he is!

I made a little edit to go along with this chapter because I'm so freaking extra.

But anyways I hope you all like this long chapter....

Thoughts?

Merry late Christmas yo!

And happy birthday to my husband, the loml, my sunlight, my little angel

ANDREW DENNIS BIERSACK

Stay Strong!