I can't help it,
I'm distant
That is how I have always lived
But now you demand,
That I open up to you
You say you will understand,
But you won't
I have been through so much
That it's ripping me apart,
I want to cry out
To scream,to break down,
it seems so small
But I hide it well,
I smile even though I want to cry
I know everything about everyone,
I laugh even though I  want to scream,
Yet everyone knows so little,
About me
I can't,
I don't want you to worry
To panic,
To get to close
I will only let you down,
But you demand to know?
Fine,
If you can prove your self
Show me you can handle,
My dark past,
To look past every thing I told you,
To look deeper,
To not ask,but to listen.