x Carry On x

"Hunter?! Oh God!" Kat flung her arms around me, her face pouring with tears. I didn't respond to her hug though. I couldn't move my arms. "Angel, what happened? They wont tell me what happened!"

"He jumped out of the car," I said quietly. "Daniel, he jumped out of the car."

I wasn't sure if I believed the words myself. I just didn't understand. Had Daniel tried to commit suicide? Or was it just a drunken mistake made from anger and betrayal?

Oh god, this was all my fault wasn't it?

"Hunter please look at me," Kat whimpered.

I realized her hands on the side of my face, forcing our eyes to meet. She placed a finger on my cheek, wiping away tears I didn't realize I was crying.

"Hunter please tell me he fell," she whispered. "Please tell me he fell out of the car. Not jumped,"

I shook my head. "He said "fuck life" and then he jumped out of the car. I tried to..I tried to pull over to talk to him. But he did it so quick. Jake tried to reach him but he...he just jumped Kat. And it's all my fucking fault. I'm the one that he was mad at. I'm the one that didn't notice he was struggling. Did you know that he's been seeing an older girl? And being beaten up by her friends? Why couldn't he come to us about that? Why did he have to hide away? I swore that I wouldn't mess things up with Daniel. I swore that I'd make sure he had an amazing life. But loo kat it, everything's fucking falling apart!"

* Daniel's Pov (Flashback) *

"Hi Daniel, are you ready to meet your new parents?"

I faced the 2 grown ups, my eyes looking back and forth between them. One was a women, and she was really pretty. She had really blonde hair, like the sun. And her smile was really wide, like she was happy to see me even though I didn't know her properly.

I looked at the man and at first, he scared me a little. He was quite tall and had black hair which covered his green eyes. His skin was really pale and he had a small smile on his face.

I wasn't sure if I should run and be scared or just sit in silence.

Then the man smiled at me. "Hey Danny,"

His voice was nice, comforting almost. I smiled back at him without needing to try. There was just something about him that made me kind of happy.

"Daniel do you remember Hunter and Kat?" Mrs Frost asked me as she gestured to the grown ups.

I nodded quietly. I'd met them a few times, but I couldn't remember that well. The last time must have been 2 weeks ago when they said they were going to take me home with them.

Mrs Frost smiled. "I think Hunter's brought you something?"

"Oh yeah," Hunter mumbled as he fiddled around in his pocket. I felt myself smiling even more for some reason; he just looked so nervous. He wasn't like most guys who I would cringe away from, he was nice. Hunter finally pulled a small ipod and held it out to me.

"I put in all of the bands you told me you liked and the ones I showed you last time. I wasn't sure what color you wanted, so I just got you black because I like that color. If you don't like it I can take it back and get you something-"

I cut him off by jumping out of my seat and throwing my arms around him. I held myself close to his chest, hugging him tightly as he picked me up.

"Thankyou Hunter," I said with a smile.

He ruffled my hair and handed me the ipod. "Glad you like it kid,"

"Am I coming home with you?" I asked.

Hunter raised an eye-brow. "Do you want to come home with me and Kat?"

I nodded eagerly.

"Then you're coming,"

I smiled so hard that it hurt, and I hugged my new Dad tighter than I thought was possible. He chuckled softly, ruffling my hair a little bit before pulling his head back.

"Let's go home Danny,"

* Present Time *

"Daniel baby, please open your eyes. Please. You look so broken here. You're faced is all cut and bruised but you're stll absolutley beautiful. Please Daniel, open your eyes. Open your eyes, Angel. Open your eyes for me and Dad,"

I want to, I really want to.

But I can't.

"Danny please,"

Dad?

Is that your voice?

Dad please don't cry? I'm trying to open my eyes, I'm really trying. I just can't. 

"Hunter what if he doesn't wake up...?"

Mom don't say that! I promise I'll open my eyes! I promise! I'm really trying to but I can't move my body! I can't control anything!

"Sorry, visiting hours are over. You can come back tomorrow,"

What?! No!

Mom, Dad, please don't leave?! I don't want to be on my own! I want to hear your voices! Dad please stay?! Dad don't go?!

Wait?!

Dad?!

* Kat's Pov *

 "Oh God, he jumped out the car?" James asked in astonishment as I told him what happened. Hunter was outside smoking with Alex. Hunter hadn't smoked properly since he was 17, but I wasn't going to blame him. I wouldn't be surprised if I ended up having one.

I was worried about Hunter; really worried. The last time he'd been as emotionless as this was when all of his problems were still unfixed. I was so afraid he was going to hurt himself. 

I nodded weakly and James wrapped his arms around me. "When he jumped out he got hit by 3 cars, James. 3 cars. He's on life support! And Hunter blames himself James. What if he self harms?"

"He wont," James assured me. "Daniel is his top priority at the minute. He wont waste time blaming himself too much. But...just in case, do you think we should call Chris?"

I nodded. "Yeah. How's Jake holding up?"

"He's alright. Just a bit shaken up,"

"I can't believe this is happening," I whimpered. "I'm so scared James. I just can't believe it,"

* Hunter's Pov (1 Hour Later) *

 Chris sat on the bench outside with me. James had called him and explained what happened, and he'd come running as soon as he heard. 

Now he was facing me in concern, knowing exactly what I was thinking.

"This is not your fault Hunter,"

I rolled my eyes. Of course it was my fault. 

Chris sighed. "How could it be?"

"Cause I wasn't there for him," I said quietly. "He's been in an abusive relationship, and he's more scared of his past than I thought. The other day he was looking for razors to hurt himself. And he tried to destroy my Dad's grave when I told him what happened. I just don't know how to help him,"

Chris smiled a little. "You know Daniel is a walk in the park compared to what you were like,"

"That doesn't help,"

"I know," he sighed. "I'm just telling you that when Daniel wakes up-"

"If Daniel wakes up,"

Chris ignored me. "When Daniel wakes up, we'll get things sorted properly. Talk to him about whatever relationship he's in, and make sure that he never sees them again. Talk to him about different ways to vent anger. Tell him that self harm is just an excuse to blame yourself, tell him that it isn't a comfort, that it doesn't help. Tell him everything about how you and your Dad fixed things. Don't tell him to forgive John, just tell him to understand. Make sure he knows how much you and Kat and James and Alex and I love him. Make sure that-"

"Chris?! Hunter?!"

We both looked up to the sound of James' panicked voice. "Guys you've gotta get in here! There was this beeping coming from Daniel's room and they wheeled him off to some surgery room? I don't know what's happening but it looked really bad!"

* Daniel's Pov *

 I could feel my body moving, like I was lying in the back of a car going really fast. It felt weird, but what felt even weirder was that I couldn't actually feel my body.

I could think, but I couldn't move anything even though I wanted to.

Suddenly there was a huge shock to my chest; making me feel the pain. I cried out in agony, but no sound escaped my lips. Another shock made me scream again, but there was still no sound.

I could feel myself slipping away.

"No pulse,"

There was a lot of talking going on, but that was the only phrase I managed to catch properly. I panicked immediatley, needing to open my eyes.

I didn't want to die, I just wanted my Dad.

"We're losing him,"

No!

I could feel something dragging my body away into even more darkness than I was already in. I tried so hard to open my eyes, to scream I was okay.

But nothing came out.

The last thing I heard was, "Time of death; 3 43 AM."

Where am I?

"Dad?!" I called out, just wanting him to walk up to me and wrap his arms around me. I walked down  the road, ignoring the rain hitting against my body.

Was I dead?

I didn't know it rained when you died.

"Dad I'm scared!"

There was no reply.

"Dad please?!"

Silence.

"Dad I wanna go home! Please take me home?!"

"Daniel?"

An unfamilar voice penetrated my ears, and I turned around to face a strange man. At first I thought he was my Dad. He looked like him. Black hair, green eyes, they looked alike.

"Where's my Dad?" I cried; tears finally running down my cheek. "I want my Dad,"

"Your Dad's not here," the man said quietly. He opened his arms out to me and I suddenly felt as if I could trust him. I moved forwards and embraced myself in the hug, crynig into the man's chest.

"I want to go home," 

"It's gonna be okay," the man assured me. "I can keep you safe here,"

"I don't want to stay here though! I want to go home to my Dad! You're not my Dad! I want him!"

"Daniel my name is John,"

 * Kat's Pov *

 "What's happened?!" I demanded as a Doctor walked up to his; sympathy written all over his face. Hunter's arms were around me, holding me tight. He was trying to be strong for Daniel but we all knew he was on the urge of breaking down.

"We're very sorry,"

"WHAT?!" 

I cried into Hunter so hard that I thought he was going to break down with me. He held onto my body really tight, as if afraid I was going to disappear. 

"No!" I whimpered. "Not my baby! No!"

Everyone was quiet, all you could hear were my terrified cries. There just had to be some mistake, right?! Daniel couldn't be dead! He couldn't! 

"Wait?!" Another Doctor urged as she ran out of the room. "You need to get back in here now!"

"What's happening?" Chris demanded. 

But we got no reply. The Doctors ran back off the Daniel's room.

* Daniel's Pov *

 "Sorry I blamed you," I whispered. "I just thought that you were a bad guy. I didn't know how sorry you were, that you didn't mean it all in the end."

"I love my son," John promised. "And I love my grandson too. That's why I can't stand to see this happen to the both of you?"

"Am I dead?"

"I don't know," he admitted. "Is this all in your head?"

I shrugged. "I hope so. I want to wake up and see my Dad,"

"You can if you promise me something.."

"Anything!"

John smiled and pulled me close. "Promise that you're gonna defeat your demons and all the non believers, the plans that they have made?"

I recognized the words, but weren't quite sure where they came from. I nodded anyways.

"I promise!"

"And promise that you're gonna carry on?"

"I promise!"

"Promise that you're always gonna be there for you Dad? He acts strong but he's so scared,"

"I promise,"

John smiled. "When you're ready you can come back here,"

"Where's here?"

He winked at me. "That's a secret,"

"But-"

"Close your eyes Daniel,"

I closed them; willing to do whatever I could to get home to my Dad. I felt John let go of me and his footsteps in the distance. Realizing he must be walking away, I shot my eyes open.

Only when I opened my eyes, I wasn't there anymore.

"Daniel?!"