The chapter turned out good than I expected.

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Bella's POV:

I heard enough. I heard her confession and I saw what happened.

I knew I'm not wrong when I judge about her feelings towards him but now, I'm not even sure whether how he feels about her.

He...did used me to make her jealous. He just confessed it.

My cheeks were getting stained in tears and I could feel my heart breaking.

She was right there holding his hand with those loving eyes gazing up at him and he was just staring at her, just like they did on the evening today.

Maybe, he couldn't forget her fully.

So, I'm just a filler for his heart?

Doesn't that 'I want you, Bella' meant nothing. Stupid of me to believe that he is falling for me and that I could win his heart over mine yet I even decided to give him my...first time.

But, things seem to be more clear that he isn't moved on with her.

If that's not for the voice to call out her name, I think they might have kissed as he would fall for her desirable eyes again. She's his first love after all.

I'm just a mere woman who happened to create something in him but not anything more than that. He, himself wasn't clear about what's he is doing with me.

I shouldn't expect very much, aren't I?

Tears add up more from my eyes, wetting my cheeks as I peered around the other side. I saw him sitting with his both hand on the head while thinking something. His face contracting disappointment and hurt.

Well, maybe he might thinking me as a trouble now.

I tighten my hold around the duvet and I tried my best to not sob out aloud at the thought. I felt the bed dipping behind me and his arm slowly traveled around me while pulling me closely to his body.

Now, he is seeking me to comfort himself. I'm just a comforter for him and nothing else.

I bite onto my lips to not burst out more because the statement that mentioned just now was so true and he had said it so many times.

His heavy breath already fanning my neck as I felt his heartbeats slowing over my back. I tried my best to not fit in perfectly around his arm but I couldn't. It was like my body was already made for him to mold onto.

I couldn't bear up with this closeness anymore. I just couldn't let him hold me like this after knowing that he is confused about us or even worse, that he was just seeking me for comfort.

For once, I have feelings too and this closeness will only add up more hurt towards my feelings. So, I pried myself from him with full patience. Afraid that if I move any harder, he would wake up and I would end up getting caught for crying.

Waking up to a sitting form as his hand dropped on his side, I saw him sleeping peacefully in a vulnerable way.

His face less stressing and his eyes closed firmly without any scrunch.

Flashback of me seeing him just like this when he practically flopped on me after kissing me senselessly as he was drunk that time. He looked the same vulnerable as now and my heart swollen with passion.

How badly I want this man to shower me with love as he did to her before. How badly I want him to only have me in his head. How badly I want him to forget her wholely and fill me in.

I just don't know why I'm even still expecting now.

I was just a comforter and everything that happened between us was an infatuation for him. Cherry might be the one who's forever in his heart and I don't think that might change.

Poor Noah that now, he got to know that his ex was still in love with him and he couldn't do anything.

How much hurt he could be in right now? What might he do if there's no me?

I smiled sadly and wiped out my tears as I sat straight on the bed.

I let a man in my heart for the first time and I ended up getting hurt at last.

I-I just thought that things would be different and special between us as I wanted.

But, it's not.

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Getting in the plane while I checked my luggage to be complete. I took the seat near the window and he sat beside me, intertwining our fingers. I tried my best to pretend nice while avoiding this hurt and he already questioned me twice about what's wrong with me.

I just, couldn't let him know the truth behind my dismay.

I couldn't refuse to believe that he is even doing all this to make her jealous. But, she wasn't sitting with us.

She just walked passed us and side eyed him tenderly. I couldn't notice his expression but I knew that he noticed her.

Then, why holding hands with me? Just to make her jealous again?

That's how my mind thinking since the night yesterday. He said that I did something to him and he even denied about using me to make her jealous till now, but how can I believe it?

His hand pulling away from mine as he looked up at me with serious.

"What happened, Bella? I could feel that your not settling yourself well today morning and you kind of...like off. Are you okay? " his voice grew tense as he questioned me again. I quickly shook my head as I smiled a little.

How could I ever say that he is the cause behind this. I'm no brave enough to even confess the thing that bothers me about him and that ' I want you too' after the kiss was a hard work of days.

"Your isn't like usual, Bella. What happen? Is it something that involves me? " his question became like a stern statement and I looked him blankly.

"T-There's nothing about you....involving in. I-I just...don't feel well. " I tried to lessen the situation with a lie and I could feel his eyes soften.

His hand gently pressing towards my forehead to check my temperature.

"Its so hot. Why this sudden fever? " he questioned firmly as his hand cupped my face while his thumb traces my cheek.

I know, all night crying will surely give you fever.

"You are going to be fine. " he leaned in and kissed my cheek while whispering this.

"We are going to the doctor as soon as we land, alright. " he cooed as I'm his little child and I nodded innocently.

Why is this man making me so hard to disbelief him?

"Noah...oh, Bella's here. Alright, urmm...can I get to talk to you alone, for a moment? " Cherry came in from nowhere and asked against him.

"I don't want to...or we can just talk here instead. " Noah explained as he pulled away from me.

Am I in the middle of them right now? Because, I know that I clearly offended the both of them to speak.

Why do I feel so pathetic?

"Then, I will leave. " I said softly as I stood up, his eyes piercing at my side. His hand instanly gripping mine, making me to stop in place.

"Why do you should leave? You can-- " he was saying but she cut him in middle.

"She can leave. I needed to talk in private as well. " Cherry chimed in coyly as she gestured me to leave by her glaring eyes.

I know, I can't win over him against her.

"Y-Ya, I should leave. I...don't want to bother your guy's conversation. " I uttered while laughing awkwardly as I freed my hand from his hold.

"Your not bothering anyone here, Bella. You stay here with me. " Noah strictly ordered and I tried my best to fight back the threatening tears.

"I needed to leave, Noah. Please. I...think, I need to use the washroom. " I explained slowly and he looked me with suspicious but his grip loosen around mine.

Letting me go to stuff myself in tears.

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