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Kannamma's POV!

It has been 4 days since that horrible day. I'm now in my office finishing my works and ready to leave.

Well, after that day, I didn't talk with him. I'm trying my best to avoid him. Yet he's sending good morning and good night wishes everyday and asking me Whether I'm okay or not.

I'm just sending him a one word msg. I'm already in a turmoil and he's making it difficult by his sweet gestures!

I went to home the next day that is Sunday. I was greeted with lots of questions from my family like..

What happened to you? Why are you looking pale?

Why did you go there suddenly?

Are you not interested in this marriage? Are you depressed?

Why did you put your mobile on silent mode?

And so on...

I give my best in answering them... Or should I say lieing to them.. They left me after that.

Savitri aththa called on that day and talked with me. She didn't asked about my answer in the marriage proposal.. Well, she didn't even touch that topic but talked randomly which was more than relief for me then.

Then two days after that, I came to know that Kavin's thatha is desperate in  getting Kavin married to Pooja!

At first, it was so heartbreaking. I cried and cried thinking about them. The thought of Kavin with somebody else literally torn my heart. But I can't do anything now.

I compromised myself by saying they're meant for each other. They looked cute together. And Pooja is one of the perfect girls for him! He deserves someone like her.. Not like me..

Now I'm slowy accepting the truth. And about Ram machan. I already made-up my mind. I'm not going to marry anyone. That's my final decision.

But I don't want to say this to my family as they'll raise questions and to the top of it, my anna and anni didn't started their life because of me. I don't know how to refuse this.. I'm in utter confusion.

If I agree, Ram machan life will be spoiled. If I refuse, Anna and anni will never start their life. Either way, there'll be a problem. So.. What do I do now?

I reached my home thinking this all. I slowly went to my room and refreshed myself. Maya is studing now as her university exams already gets started.

I came to hall, Anni gave coffee for me, anna and amma. She took coffee for maya to our room. Amma looked at me curiously like she wants to tell something yet she didn't initiate anything. I cared less about that as I'm in no mood to talk with anyone.

I killed time by playing games and surfing feeds in my mobile. Nowadays, it's my routine to spend time like this as I don't want to involve in conversations with anyone.

There are lot of things running in my mind at a time. Dinner time came. My appa returned to our home. We started eating our dinner in silence.

After eating dinner, we all settled in sofa for watching tv. My appa cleared his throat to get attention. We all looked at him curiously.

Probably, I'm not having good vibes about this!

So Kannamma.. It has been a week since your aththa asked your hand to marry ram. You neither said your answer nor we didn't ask you till now. But now I guess, it's time to talk about this da.. He said.

I expect this is coming but not this much early. I don't have any way to escape from this.

Uhmm.. Yes pa.. You can tell me anything. I said hesitantly.

Well, savitri family is in chennai now. They're st.. He started but cut off by Maya.

What? They're here? Then why don't they come here? Aww! I'm missing sanju! She started talking without minding anyone.

Hey kuttychaththan! First let him talk d! Anna hitted her head being annoyed in which she rubbed her head while twisting her lips at him.

Yes.. They're here in Chennai. They're staying in one hotel as it will not be auspicious and will be awkward for them to come here especially when we're planning about marriage. He paused and then continued..

And Ramakrishna wants to talk to you alone before marriage. So, if you're okay means, we'll tell them. And if you don't want to marry him, we're not going to force you dear. Just tell your answer. You don't have to be sad or stress about this. Okay? Appa said calmly with a smile.

He wants to talk with me? Huh?

It has been more than 3 years since I saw him. I seen him in prathap machan's marriage.

Argh Kannamma! It is important that when you seen him last? Just think about what to answer!

I neither want to agree nor want to disagree. What to do?

What about saying yes to them and asking ram machan to stop this marriage saying the truth? Yup! That'd be a great idea!

Kannamma! Oyee.. Kannamma! Where are you lost! Amma asked me swaying her hands in front of my face making me came out of my thoughts. I just smiled.

Ok pa.. I'll talk with him! I said.

Oyee gundus(fatty)! We're not asking.. Will you talk with him or not! We're asking whether you're okay for this marriage or not! Anna said.

Rendum onnu than da tharuthala!
(Both are same only you dummy!)

Maya said in which she earned a screwing of her ears from amma.

He's not your younger brother! Give him respect.. And he's married now! Your anni is also here! So less your talks.. Amma scolded her.

So what ma.. I didn't say anything wrong! See anni is also laughing! Maya said pointing towards ilakya anni who's trying her best to suppress her laughter.

Amma punched on Maya's head in which Maya screamed in pain while rubbing her head.

Unaku vaai kolupu athigam aiduchu! Dosa karandi edutha than ne adanguva!

(Your talking too much! You'll be obedient only if I took the dosa karandi (a type of spoon which is used to make dosa)!)

Amma warned her.

Ma.. Don't you know it's wrong to beat your child who's taller than your shoulder? Maya said pouting and glaring amma.

So what d kuttychaththan! As if you're taller than amma😂 You're a Minion only ryt? Anna mocked her in which maya twisted her lips.

For your kind information, na onnum minion illa! Na crt ana height la than iruken! Ne than panamarathula paathi valanthu iruka.. Valanthu ketavane!😒

(For your kind information, I'm not minion! I'm average height only! You're the one who's tallest like palm tree.. Spoiled tower!😒)

They both started taunting each other. They're still same like before. They don't even changed a bit after his marriage too.

Maya! Mughil! Both shut your mouth now! Are you both are child or what? You both are grown up yet still bickering with each other like a kid! God! Mughil for God's sake, you're married now! Behave like a man! Amma started her all india radio in which anna and maya closed their ears with a pout.

Ezhil.. Leave it dear.. See our kannamma is smiling after a long week. Besides, we know about our crazy children ryt? They're always like this since birth. So it's impossible to change them. Habits never dies! And about ilakya, she'll surely can understand them as she also have a brother. Isn't it ilakya?  Appa asked anni in which she nodded with a smile.

Hmm.. Hmm.. You'll always take their side only.. 😒 Ok leave it.. Coming to the real issue.. thank god! Kannamma finally agreed! Honey.. Let's call savitri anni! Amma said with a sigh.

Within few minutes, Amma called and talked with aththa excitedly while I went to my room and laid down crying at my cruel fate.

The next day which is Friday, I woke up and went to my office after getting ready. The day went with lots of work. It was hectic!

I finished my works and got ready to leave now. While taking my bag and phne, a message popped in my mobile. I took and saw it.

It's from unknown number! Who could it be?

I opened it.

Unknown: Hi Kannamma! I'm Ramakrishna.. This is my number. I guess that you know already that I want to talk with you privately before marriage. I heard that you agreed. So can we meet tomorrow in xyz cafe at 3 pm?

Oh it's him? What should I do now? Should I send him okay? Yes.. I should!

I saved his number quickly and sent him Okay. I then took my stuffs and went outside.

When I was about to start my scooter. There he is standing in front of me! What he is doing here?

Kavin.. I said confusedly.

Uhm.. Kannamma.. I.. I want to talk with you. He said hesitantly not looking at me.

What? Huh? I asked him perplexed.

Not here.. Can we go somewhere? Please.. Just 10 mins! He pleaded showing his puppy dog eyes which no one could say no.

I nodded not knowing what to do now!

Thanks.. Follow my bike okay? He said. I nodded again.

He drove his bike before me leading the way. I followed him not knowing what he's up to now!

God! Please don't make my situation tougher again and again! Please..

Finally he stopped in a temple. He gestured me to follow him.

Why he made me to come here? Is he going to marry me?

Stupid kannamma! Stop your crazy thoughts!

He didn't say anything instead gestured me to pray god. I prayed god. Then he led me to the place where the people will sit but there's no much crowd today.

I sat with him. He smiled hesitantly at me.

Uhmm.. Kannamma.. I.. I want to talk with you! He said.

You already said this but didn't tell about what you want to talk! I asked.

Ab.. About my.. About our love! He stammered.

Our love? I asked him confusingly.

Yes! I know Kannamma.. I know that you're loving me.. But you're afraid of something. I can clearly see the love in your eyes and I know it's not fake and I'm not imagining. You love me! Why are you refusing to accept this?

If you have any problem or insecurities or anything, just tell me.. I swear I'll never leave you no matter how much big the problem is! I want you.. I want just you in my life to be with my side always! And I promise the same that I'll be in your side till my death! I want to make a cute family with you..

But please accept that you love me! Why are you silent! Say something!

He said in a go!

I was speechless.. He mentioned family which makes my heart heavy. I have no words to say. How he know that I love him? Is it that much obvious that he find out just seeing my face?

Kannamma.. Don't get confused and weak.. Just reject him! Just make him hate you!

Kavin.. What rubbish are you talking just now? Are you insane or what? When did I say that I love you? Haan?

Kavin.. Let me tell you clearly.. You're fooling yourself by thinking that I'm loving you! It will never happen. Just come to reality and accept this.

Moreover, I'm.. I'm going to marry my cousin. I think you already know that.. And I heard that you and Pooja are getting married. Pooja is just perfect for you.. Just marry her. I'm not for you.

You can't force me to love you And you also didn't love me. It's just.. Maybe.. Maybe an attra.. Attraction or infatuation.. You'll forget me soon.. I kn.. I was cut off by him suddenly.

Stop it! Just stop it di! What the hell you're talking? You.. You're talking too much! What you said?? What? I'm fooling myself?.. No! Damn no! You're the one who's trying to fool yourself as well as me!

Every-damn-one knows that you're loving me except you! But you'll never accept that and didn't even tell the damn reason for that. If I ask, you'll start blabbering like no love.. No earth! Dammit!

If you desperately want to marry your cousin, just go and marry him! But you don't have any rights to tell me whom I should marry or not! Okay?

And you don't have the damn rights to call my love as attraction or infatuation or whatever the hell! I LOVE YOU! That's it.. I'm not forcing you to love me. I'm just asking you to accept the love you have for me! But you'll never accept that ryt?

I know love can't be forced. Because love itself is a force! I have confidence in my love and I strongly believe that you're loving me. If my belief is true, then it will make you come to me.. And how can you say my love as attraction.. You don't know how much it hurts me💔 you'll regret it..

So hereafter, I'll never disturb you! Or even come in front of you. You're free now. No msg, no txt, no call, no meet.. Nothing! Remember kannamma! I'll never talk with you until you come to me and apologize for saying my love as attraction!

He said in a go with lot of hurt and fresh tears in his eyes. It hurts me to hell yet I'm going to hurt him more..

Yes! Your love is just attraction not a love! And I'm not going to apologize for that! Just leave me already! Go away! I yelled at him but inside I'm literally dying..

He was taken back by my outburst.

Stop it d! Dammit! Enough is enough Kannamma! I swear you'll regret your words later.. Just be happy.. Good bye!

Saying this, he left. I Cried my heart out there.

Why? Why this fate is playing cruelly in my life?😭

I love you Kavin! I love you more than anything in this world!

But I can't give you a cute family like you mentioned before! I can't give you happiness!💔😭

I came to reality when my phne started ringing. I took it and looked at the caller id. It's from my anna.

I checked the time, it's past 7😳?

I'm here for more than 2 hours?

Cursing myself in my mind, I attended the call and told him that I'm in temple and will be there in 15 minutes.

I went to my home. I did my routine. Appa came and we ate dinner. After dinner, I decided to tell them about ram machan's msg.

I cleared my throat and they looked at me curiously.

Appa.. Ram machan texted me to come to cafe tomorrow. I said. Appa smiled.

We know that da. He already get permission from us today morning itself. We agreed, after that only he texted you! Are you really okay? Appa asked me. I nodded.

I'm going to make him cancel this marriage by himself!

I went to my room after that. Maya started her night studies. When I entered, she paused studying and turned to me.

Kanns! Are you really okay to marry ram machan? She asked me.

Huh? Why are you asking? I'm okay.. I said nervously.

I don't think you're actually Okay! You're hiding something from me.. Nowadays you're always silent.. You smile hard and you're always in thinking mode! You seems to be disturbed.. Why? What happened to you? She asked me in utter seriousness.

Wh.. What are you saying! Nothing like you think.. You.. You're just overthinking Maya.. Go and study for your exams. Don't divert yourself for good for nothing issues like this! I tried to divert her. She eyed me suspiciously.

I'm damn sure you're hiding something from me! Just tell me what is it? She asked me.

Maya! Just stop your crazy thoughts and study. I'm sleepy! Good night! I said while lying down covering myself with the duvet ignoring her suspicious looks

Haan.. Hann.. Try your best to hide.. I'll find it myself soon.. I'll see you then! Bad night and ghosty dreams 😒 she said.

I don't want to see you in my dreams di kuttychaththan! I said with a chuckle. There's silent for 2 minutes.

I peeked out from my duvet slowly of why she didn't reply me.

She's not at the studying table.

Where is she?

Within seconds, I felt a weight on my stomach. There she is sitting on top of me! She grinned evilly and started tickling me.

God!😂😂! Leave me d😂😂.. You devil😂🤣😂.. I.. I can't breathe 🤣🤣.. I said while laughing profusely.

Say 'please and sorry for taunting you my dear cute sissy..' Then I'll leave.. Say it now! She said while tickling me.

No🤣🤣😂😂 I'll rather die of laughing than saying that!🤣🤣 I said in between my laughs.

Then die!😈 she said tickling more.

Okay🤣😂 okay..😂 I'll say that.. Please.. Sorry 😂 for taunting you🤣 my dear kuttychaththan 🤣 I said in between my laughs.

What? She said tickling me more.

Okay 🤣 okay.. My dear sissyy.. Leave me d,🤣 I said and she left me.

You miss the word cute.. But it's okay. I'll forgive you. She said proudly like she did a big help to me.

How can I leave her easily?

I bite her hand. She screamed in pain. I covered her mouth by placing my palm. She glared me. I shrugged and again covered myself with duvet and went to sleep. She sighed defeatedly.

I'm leaving you now only because I have to study for tomorrow's exam! God! Why the hell they're conducting exams on Saturday! She whined and went to her study table.

I closed my eyes. But sleep was far away from me. The scene of Kavin with tears and what he said came to my mind again and again. Today I crushed his heart into pieces.. But it's all for good! I hope Pooja will heal it!

With these lots of thoughts. I slept finally.

The next day that's today, I have to meet Ram machan at 3 o clck.

Maya went to her clg for her exam. I killed time by talking with anni and helping her in cooking and all.

The time is almost half past 1 now. Maya returned from her colg finishing her exams. She looked at me like I've grown two head.

I raised my brow at her questioning.

Why are you like this? She asked me.

Huh? What?

Why means what? I'm looking good only ryt? I asked confused.

God! You're going to meet machan today right? In just 1 and half hours? She asked me. I nodded.

Then why are you looking like this? In just tee-shirt and shots! With a monster like face! Didn't you get ready? She asked me disbelievingly.

I will.. There are 1 and hours more ryt? I'll get ready in just 45 mins. I said casually.

You're unbelievable kanns! Come with me! She said dragging me inside. She pushed me to washroom giving me a legging and top to wear.

She put some minimal make-up and brushed my hair and let it free.

What she is doing!? Argh! I'm getting irritated by this! It's not like I'm going there to impress him! I'm just going to say call off this wedding!

She finished and took some selfies with me. Then I ate lunch. Time is already half past 2. So it will be perfect if I leave now.

I bid bye to everyone and left. They gave me a teasing smile which I cared less. I reached the cafe. I texted him. He asked me to come to table which is in the corner. I followed his instructions and went there.

He is sitting there. His back facing me.

Ram machan.. I called him slowly. He turned..

Voah.. He's super handsome! Is it really my machan or some model?🙄

I mean he's not more handsome than Kavin yet he's handsome than average!

God kanns! Why are you thinking about Kavin now!

Done checking out me? He asked with a chuckle.

I immediately closed my mouth feeling embarrassed.

Hell with your drooling! Control it kannamma!🤦‍♀️

He pulled the seat for me like a gentleman. I took my seat and smiled  awkwardly at him. He smiled at me.

Hi.. We both said in unison.

At that time, waiter came. He ordered coffee for both of us after asking  about about my opinion. Silence occupied between us after that.

I want to tell you one thing.. We both said in unison again.

You tell first. Again we said chorusly. He chuckled.

Ladies first.. You tell. He said with a smile.

No you tell. You're the one who asked me to come here.. So you start. I said.

He sighed. At that time, our coffee arrived. He took and sipped his coffee. He cleared his throat. I looked at him curiously.

It's a long time since we met ryt? You're still same like before. I mean you're beautiful like always. Don't mistake me that I'm trying to flirt with you.. I'm just being honest okay? He paused. I nodded with a smile.

So, let me come straight to the point. Actually, I'm not so interested in this marriage.. You know my amma forced me into this by threatening me. He said with a chuckle. I looked at him curiously.

He's forced? So it's easy for me! Yay!

But I don't ask you to come here to say this. I want to tell you something.. More like conditions.. I don't force you or push you to marry me after hearing this. You can tell me your answer frankly whatever it is.. It's okay or not. Just tell me.. Okay? He paused. I nodded not knowing what he meant..

So.. You know about sanju. If you're going to marry me, you have to accept sanju with me. And you have to come with me to London after marriage. He paused checking my expression. I kept my face blank.

I don't know about shifting to London after marriage. Hell! I'm not going to marry after all! Then why I'm concerned about this!

And about sanju, you have to care her like her amma. And one more thing, you should not expect.. bab.. babies for us. We're not going to have babies in future... I mean NO BABIES FOR US. Our baby is going to our sanju only but no one. You should care her like your own. And don't expect intimacy with me.. Do yo.. you get it?!

If you're okay with this means. I'll marry you. I know its rubbish.. But I just can't.. I'm sorry if I said anything wrong. That's it. I'm not forcing you. If you're not okay, just tell me.. I'll cancel this wedding. He said in a go and looked at me expectantly.

I'm trying to register his words one by one. I have no idea that he'll tell this!

No babies!?? No intimacy!?? No India!? London!? Great!!

This is what I want!!

I'm okay! I agree with your every conditions.. I said. He looked at me weirdly with a O mouth and little taken aback with my reply! 

TO BE CONTINUED!

RECENTLY I'M READING MANY SAD ENDING STORIES. AND THE SAD ENDING STORIES DISTURBED ME A LOT THAN A HAPPY ONE🙄.. SO... JUST SAYING 😅..

HEHE😅.. DON'T SEARCH ME🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️!

REMEMBER CURSING SOMEONE IS A SIN!😅

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