Note: I know I said I would delete and recycled the chap but I decided otherwise. I've got too many messages and I feel bad putting them to waste. 

Additionally, I know you've put so much time and effort writing the messages. I am sorry I cannot use them all. Some parts I'm going to tweak a bit just to match on the scene and story. 

Thank you to everyone who helped. And the advises that you gave, I appreciate them so much. However, seeing that I am her posting an update means that I'm still having trouble sleeping. But I'll get there. I will get better :)

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Lisa's POV

"Hey little brat, stop grinning..." I rolled my eyes at what Jisoo unnie had said. We just came back from our concert in Manila and our manager had given a few envelopes which I know is full of notes and letters I am sure all came from Jungkook. 

I sat on the couch and started opening them one by one. I've received tons of letters from him since a month ago and I just can't help but be excited to read them. 

I can still remember the last one he sent before my flight to Manila.

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Cupcake,

I hope you know that I love you, a lot. Words cannot explain my feelings for you... You are the sun to my day, the moon to my night... Damn cheesy, I know but I hope my message at least sends you a warm smile and comfort. I won't say good luck with your concert because I know you'd always break a leg.

See you soon...

- Kook

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It was nice and sweet and he actually has some post-it notes that he had asked my manager to give me in the morning and before I sleep when I was out of the country.

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Dear Lali,

I've got you something to keep you grinning for the whole day...

"My heart..."

P.S It was Jin hyung's idea. It was supposed to say My handsome face but I thought rather than smiling, you'd get pissed instead if I say that.

Lovelots - Kook

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Sometimes, it was just out of the blues...

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Note: this time V hyung help me out... My dearest Lisa, My love for you is like diarrhea, I just can't hold it in. P/s: V hyung insisted to send you this. Sorry, it's a bit gross!!

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The note indeed made me smile and it honestly gave me so much energy the whole time. And then one time he got me a poem which made me feel so giddy the entire day.

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With you passing by
I really can't lie
So give me a minute or two
To explain all of this to you
All I need is you
But in everything I do,
You still don't have a clue
That I'm still loving you

My heart is aching
That you're not even thinking
The pain I caused
The bond you paused

The tears that fell
Rang in my head like a bell
To make you come back
Surely is a skill that I lack

That's why I need your love
'Cause your love is above
Everything around me,
Is nothing compared to you beside me

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Sometimes, it'll also go on the shortest note.

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"if I could be with anyone past or present, I'd always be with you." - Kook

"a life without you is like a pencil that's broken... without a point." - Kook

Lisa, You're the sweetest cinnamon roll ever! - Kook

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"Lili, what does your boy got for you now? You know I admire him for being persistent, huh. I just don't like the fact that he sends his hyungs here sometimes to deliver his notes especially if it's Hoseok oppa. He always pinches on my Mandu cheeks and it's pissing me off," I laughed a little as Jennie unnie pouted while she rests her back on the couch opposite me. 

"You like it when he's here Nini," I raised an eyebrow at what Jisoo stated. "He keeps you busy and he's keeping your ex off your mind," she added and I grin. 

For someone who just broke up with her boyfriend, Jennie unnie looked like she was far from being brokenhearted though. 

"Stop teasing me unnie, and Lisa, just open the goddamn letter please," she whisper-shouted and I heard Chaeyoung laughing as she walks closer to us, this time, the four of us now sitting on the couch. 

"What? This is personal. Lemme just go and read this to my room," I tried standing up but Chaeyoung was quick to put her legs on my lap to stop me. 

"Not so fast young lady. You should know how the whole Bangtan had kept all three of us your unnies to help their maknae get into you. So we a least have the right to get a peek of that long-ass letter, please" she comically stated and I laughed when the other two continuously nodded to what Chaeyoung had said. 

"Fine, but for the record, you guys benefited the most. You took all the chocolates and the food those boys bring," I chuckled before opening the letter. 

I bit my lower lip as I scan it. It was quite long. I was already reading it when the girls started whining so I read it out loud. 

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hey lali,

today I'm going to tell you the story of a little prince who fell in love with a flower, a red rose to be exact. The prince loved this rose because out of all the flowers in his garden, it was the flower that had accompanied him through some tough royal times, listening patiently and gently nudging his cheek to comfort him whenever he sat nearby. 

The rose was always mindful of its thorns, lest it scratched him, but the little prince didn't mind.

The rose grew to be the most beautiful and blossomed whenever he spoke to it. He watered it every day with a special watering can be filled with magic water that helped it stay in full bloom. He reserved it especially for this rose since he never wished to be parted from it. 

The rose loved the little prince just as much, if not more and always strived to greet him and present itself as prettily as possible, thanking him for the magic water that allowed it to stay strong through wind or hail and allowed it to weather the harshest of suns.

But one day, the little prince chanced upon a plant lying by the path on his way to visit the rose, a striking flower that had him somehow enthralled. It was a yellow hyacinth and it looked quite sickly. That day, out of the kindness of his heart, the little prince gave all the water to the yellow hyacinth but there was none left for the rose. 

The prince thought that the rose could do without a day's water and turned back into the castle. But the next day, he was compelled yet again to use up all his water on the strange yellow hyacinth and again, he forgot to visit the rose.

This went on for some time, but the yellow hyacinth did not seem to be getting any better. The prince was frustrated and consulted with the old court magician that had given him the magic watering can.

"That is strange," mused the court magician stroking his beard, "my magic is supposed to heal any herbal disease. Show me the flower."

So the little prince duly took the wise magician to yellow hyacinth and upon seeing it, the magician shook his head sorrowfully.

"My prince, what have you done," he lamented, "that is an enchanted flower filled with jealousy and it was stealing all the magic water for itself. It wanted your attention all to itself. The magic isn't working because you weren't talking to it like you did with your rose, so obviously nothing happened. The magic only occurs when you share your heart with the flower that receives the water."

And then the little prince realised his terrible mistake and rushed to the neglected rose. He despaired upon seeing the poor rose almost bare, the ground littered with ruby red petals. He fell to his knees next to it, crying with bitter grief until the old magician hobbled up to him and handed it to him the watering can filled to the brim.

"My prince, you might still be in time to save your flower. Water it and use your words. Open your heart to it.

The prince took the watering can and poured, pouring his heart out with the water sprinkling on the limp flower...

what do you think happens next, cupcake? Should the rose let itself be revived for a prince who neglected her?

I put down the letter on my lap and stared right through it.

I was at a loss for words. It was amazing.

Silence filled the living room and this time, I was sure it wasn't only me.

"Wooowwww" Jennie unnie exclaimed.

"Holy sh---" Jisoo unnie whispered.

"Oh gosh, Lalisa. I am so done with all of this," I was startled when I heard Chaeyoung exclaimed. "Just go and collect your man! I mean, what are you even waiting for?" her eyes were so wide it was as if she can't even understand what I was thinking. 

I turned towards them and saw Jisoo unnie contemplating. Jennie unnie was at a lost for words. 

"You know, I hated Jungkook for what happened but in all honesty, you both have lapses and it's just really just a matter of taking a step backwards and looking back," Jennie unnie stated. They knew everything. I admitted my faults too. 

"Honey, any man who's willing to do all that shit is something. He's not perfect but he's a keeper, Lali," Chaeyoung added, a huge smile showing on her face. 

Is this it? Is this the part I finally start opening myself for him again?

"Lisa, just look at these messages. 'I love you to the moon and back, including the universe and the whole whatever it is that consist of the galaxy," she picks up random notes I brought coz I was collecting Kook's letters. And then Chaeng picked another.

"Jin hyung gave me another message to send you but it was so weird I threw the note. By the way, that Swalla dance, took me off-guard cupcake, I dunno... "

Then she picked another.

"The star looked so beautiful above but nothing beats your smile,"

I was sitting there, listening to everything my unnies are telling me. They were actually telling me the pros and cons and I love how the three of them find faults in both our Jungkook and I's actions.

"So, are you guys telling me to forgive him now and get back together?" I asked but Jisoo unnie sigh.

"No Lisa. What we are saying is that maybe you need to recognize his efforts. Sure things weren't easy but you have to get through this eventually. Think things through. Assess yourself. There's no need to rush but at least give him something he can ponder with. Whether you get back together or not is on the both of you okay?"

I bit my lower lip at her words and soon enough, all three of them went inside their rooms after giving me a kiss on the cheeks as a goodbye.

I was left all alone to think. And after careful deliberation, I found myself slowly tapping on my phone to respond.

"Well, the rose can't decide so she wants to talk to you..."

The moment I hit send, I stood up,  gather all the notes and headed straight to my room.

I was smiling the entire time and for some reason, I felt the heaviness on my chest getting lifted.

Baby steps Kook... Baby steps...

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Thanks for all the messages. Credits to all of you. I wanted to use them all but it was mostly explaining and apologizing which he already did multiple times.

And for the story, thanks to Dreamofshadows :)