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Taehyung woke up again in the early morning hours, as per usual. He got up and felt the need to press a kiss to Jungkook's forehead. He planted the kiss getting up slowly. He headed to the kitchen got a big glass of water and chugged it down.

He felt the breeze come in from the open window. They kept a window open so that the cool air would enter the flat. It would make them cold and move closer together in their sleep.

Taehyung turned his attention from the counter to outside the window. He couldn't see the sunrise because of the clouds. They managed to cover the horizon. He opened the balcony door and sat on the floor. 

He stared at the sky thinking. Ah Jungkook is so cute. I love how kind and strong he is, he's not even afraid to tell me he was jealous. Why can't I be that brave? Instead of just  crying, figuratively, over my parents. They kicked me out and probably don't even think about me any more. Yet here I am they've been occupying my mind a lot recently, huh? Maybe the were right when they said I shouldn't pursue writing. What if my books just aren't successful.

Flashback:

"Oh my son, these are my favourite moments with you. Promise me you'll always wake up at sunrise so we can watch it together," his mother said.

She also had the habit of waking up when the day starts. Taehyung nodded eagerly as rested his head on his mum's shoulder. The were sat on the sofa on a balcony.

"I love you, mum,"

"I love you too my son, more then you'll ever know."

The sun came out completely and they headed back inside. Taehyung went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast while his mum went to wake up his dad.

He made chocolate chip pancakes. He set the table and when he brought the food they were both there.

"Morning son," his dad greeted first.

"Good morning, dad!" Taehyung smiled, placing the food down.

Without realising it Taehyung had tears in his. He chuckled bitterly, hole wiping his tears. He sat closer to the railings letting his legs dangle. He looked over at the people going to work, opening shops. He sighed.

Everyone had their own lives. They had their own problems. Own pains. Taehyung was just another one of those insignificant lives. But at least the all those insignificant people had someone who relay on them, and have someone to relay on. It must be nice having people who care about you. Not having doubts about your security.

Taehyung sighed. He grabbed his laptop and a cup of milk. He sat at the ledge, legs dangling down, ear phones playing the same song that was on repeat three years ago when he moved away. He began to type his essay, in a proper format describing all the emotions he's been holding back.

   Coming out. It had changed my life in so many ways. When I came out to my parents as bisexual, they didn't accept me. In fact without hesitation they kicked me out of the house. I had to live on the streets. That was the first change it caused. The second was moving of an entire town, my friend was coming here, Seoul, for college, I moved with him. The third change was school, all my friends changed, and i had to speak with in Seoul dialect.

   Living on the streets was tough. I wasn't able to sleep because it was so cold. I had frostbite on my ass from sitting on the ice covered benches. I had no money so I didn't eat anything either. I was lucky the shop keeper lent me some food out of sheer pity.

    Luckily for me though my friend was always there, but a friend can only help you get so far. I stayed with him for a while then he introduced me to one of his friends who had money. I didn't have to stress so much about it and I could focus on my studies. I stopped writing. My parents had told me before I left, that it's very unlikely to make it as an author I was safer becoming a doctor. I realised now that that was because they wanted to brag about their son being a doctor.

   I tried to study more I science and math, but I'm absolutely horrible in those subjects. Although it wasn't long until I got help from my peer and best friend, Jimin. We clicked instantly, and I hope we stay friends forever. I only this year, met a very important, close friend of mine Jungk —

"What're you doing," Jungkook asked taking a seat next to Taheyung.

"Typing my essay," he replied sharing his blanket with Jungkook.

"Can I read it?" Jungkook asked.

"Go for it," Taheyung said handing him the laptop.

As Jungkook read it Taehyung moved closer to the ledge. He looked down, before deciding it was scary. He moved back slightly, taking a sip of his tea, he raised it to his lips took a sip, then he saw a hand wrap around the mug.

Jungkook took the mug and drank from it still completely engrossed in the essay. Once he finished he looked over at Taehyung and smiled fondly.

They still had time before they had to leave for school. They got back into bed for a cuddle. Jungkook moves up a bit pressing a sweet kiss to Taehyung's lips. Taehyung kissed back without hesitation and they held the kiss for a while. This had become a very normal occurrence.

Although it had both of them on edge. Jungkook just allowed the moment to happen, whereas Taehyung pushed the thought to the back of his mind. But they of course questioned the nature of the kiss.

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Taehyung was sat in his literature class, early as usual. He took his phone out and googled 'what is a kiss.' After seeing nothing but how to kiss guides he changed his question. 'Why do people kiss' he got a long explanation on the history of when humans started kissing. It did although conclude they did it because it feels good.

Namjoon walked in, no one in the class but him, and Taehyung.

"Hey, Mr. Kim why do people kiss?" He asked looking at the older with anticipation.

"My opinion?"

"Yes!" Taehyung answered, smiling.

"Well I think people kiss to show affection, as if to say you mean something to me, although youngsters nowadays just to during one night stands,"

"What if... what if you're kissing a friend of yours..., just a friend!"

"Ah then isn't it just exposing hidden feelings, it like saying I like you with your tongue. So every time you kiss your friend you're saying I love you more then a friend, but that should be your obvious. Kids these days are just so dense."

Taehyung sighed.

"Do you... perhaps like this friend you make out with?" Mr. Kim asked.

"Maybe, I mean we definitely act as though we're dating so..."

"Just tell him or her you like them, keep it simple, 'I have feelings fore you'"

"What if they reject me?"

"If they also didn't want something more then friendship they wouldn't kiss back."

The bell rang and students suddenly entered the classroom, Taehyung sighed as he thought about it further.

"Today class, you have to write about the feeling of love! Just write and express your feelings don't worry about structure or word choice. For romantic novels you need to know the experience of love, finish before the class ends.... Oh and I want it hand written so you can feel it better or something."

Taehyung picked up is favourite pen and started:

Love is an emotion. Although all emotions are in the brain love is seemingly different. When with the one you love you feel your heart swell, and your stomach turn. You feel warm and it makes you feel almost carefree. Love should be effortless, you should be able to just love the person you do with out worry. That is usually the case with family and friends. Although with lovers it more complicated, it's difficult to get your feelings across, and you're worried about their reaction. You heart flutters and you seem to lose your speaking abilities. Love is beautiful, it makes you feel as though you're constantly feeling nostalgia. Love is amazing, it brings people together and closer. Love is, it's love.

Taehyung had an epiphany, he loves Jungkook. Putting the others needs before his, the heart fluttering, the need to comfort the other although nothings wrong. So finally the dense kid has come to accept the fact he indeed loves Jungkook.

But will he tell him?

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Ooh Taehyung's going to confess?