*Taeyong's Perspective*

"I hate myself. I always have.

In school people though I was mute, I talked so little. No one ever spoke to me unless it was to hit me or torment me.

I was bullied everyday. I never ate lunch; my classmates took it from me. I never had friends to protect me. I wasn't allowed to have any. No one ever left me alone. I was never safe. 

That's why I became an idol. I told myself one day they'd regret teasing me. They'd be working in a corner convenience store while they watched me on TV being loved by millions. They'd be jealous of my looks and my talent and my friends and my money, stunned that the little wimpy boy they tortured in school had become what I am today.

Ten came into my life when I was just a trainee. He made me happy, even when he spoke in Thai and Chinese, I felt like I could understand him in a way. He was funny and lively and overall just a great person. I considered myself lucky to even know about his existence. He was my first real friend ever.

Yeah, he's cute. Like really cute. I have a crush on him, hopefully it's not too obvious. Since day one I liked him. No I loved him. But lately I've been having these dreams, nightmares really. And he's there but he's just not himself. He's Ten but all his negative traits are magnified."

I sucked in a breath and looked at the lady who was helping me. She's a therapist. I needed to talk to someone, anyone so I came here. "Please explain further. How's he different?" She snapped. She's kind of rude but it's better than nothing.

I cracked my neck (earning a glare from the therapist) and continued. "Well for starters he has a scar over his mouth. It's really creepy when he talks because it splits open and creates a evil smile. It's like the Cheshire Cat...but on crack. He's really........" I trailed off not knowing if I should continue.

"Go on sir."

"I don't know if you want to hear the rest. It's kind of..."

"Disturbing?" She finished my sentence. "Well it's my job to listen to whatever you tell me."

I sighed and put my head in my hands. "He's really terrible. He claims we're boyfriends but we're not! I like the real Ten. Not him! He unclothes me all the time and tries to kiss me when I don't even want to see his face. His fake face..."

I glanced up to see the lady looking slightly taken aback. "Uncomfortable yet?" I asked miserably.

She shook her head and checked her watch. Right as I was about to continue she held up her hand. "It looks like our session has come to an end Mr. Lee. Come back same time next week if you want. It's scheduled. Same price as this week thank you."

She got up and propped the door open, signaling me to leave. I stood up and combed my fingers through my messy hair. "Thanks Ms," I searched for her nameplate. "Ms. Kim."

"Anytime sir." She smiled with her pencil thin lips. It was forced. I get it though. I wouldn't want to listen to me whine about my life story.

I bowed and left the business. It was almost 11 o'clock at night. I had no other choice but to bribe the therapist to stay open late so that I could go without anyone knowing. I didn't want my manager to know. More importantly I didn't want my members to know. Especially Ten.

I popped my AirPods in and played Happy by Taeyeon. It was one of the most positive songs I could think of. Though I really enjoy Loser by Bigbang, I wasn't really in the mood.

I cut through an alleyway to make it back to the dorms faster. I knew everyone wouldn't be asleep yet but they would be in their rooms. And if they weren't l'll say I went on a walk. I frowned, sad the members don't seem to hang out as much as we used to. Now everyone is roped up in romance drama. All thanks to me.

When I finally made it to my street with no trouble I stopped in my tracks. Shit. I cursed. I had promised to hang out with Jaehyun tonight! He would be so upset I blew him off. I paused my music and crouched down, head in my knees.

"Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit." I cursed and sat down on the sidewalk. I don't remember when I started to cry, I only remembered when I stopped. I checked my phone. 1:36. My eyes widened and I stood up shaky. I had cried for almost two hours. I wiped my eyes on my sleeve and walked the last block to the dorms. I quickly checked that no creep was watching me and I quietly unlocked the door.

I was right, no one was downstairs. I heard a TV playing upstairs though. I slipped off my coat and shoes and tiptoed up the stairs, careful not to make a sound. Somehow I made it safely to my room without anyone asking me where I had been.

Jaehyun was asleep. He's so peaceful, probably having a wonderful dream. He smiles ever so slightly and sometimes even talks in his state of unconsciousness. It's very cute.

I sat on the bed and grabbed my phone. I didn't know what to do so I looked up something out of curiosity. The words I typed in where; Ten, Taeyong, NCT.

I was surprised by all the stuff that popped up. In images there were mostly pictures of the Baby Don't Stop photo shoots and some other cute selfies. I smiled while looking through them. I was going to go on one site called Wattpad but I guess I fell asleep and didn't get to it. Oh well. Maybe I'll read whatever "fanfic" is later. 

*Jeno's Perspective*

I had definitely seen him. He had come back around 1:45 am. I couldn't believe it! Where had our leader been? Why so late? Did anyone but me know? All I knew is that I needed to tell the Dreamies. And fast. And I did. Hopefully I did something to help Taeyong. I love him so much and want him only to be safe. 

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Ay! I see you! This chapter was in the perspectives of two lovable NCT members! I hope you enjoyed that. I will be doing that a lot in this book as a way of spicing things up.

God can you imagine if the idols found Wattpad and read the stories on here? I'd be beyond embarrassed...............

Also I noticed while writing that if you just add a space  in therapist, it becomes "the rapist." Learn something new everyday, right?

Anyways that's all for today friends! I love you so much and before you say I love you more (you know who you are) that's not possible because I LOVE YOU THE MOST! ❤😂

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