i don't want to disappear.

i want to scream.

i want to run barefoot into a busy road and hit a car i want to go fucking flying hit a power line sizzle to lumps of skin in a spectacular show i want to be splattered across your windshield and lie in a hospital bed while doctors put my puzzle pieces back together but i don't not really. i'll stay whole all in once piece with my brains all tangled up i don't want to die not really i just want to exist so hard and i think i need to die to live.

you wanted to die

i think you died a long time ago

dead.