'What do you want?" Alaska asked, a small frown on her face." Why did you text me to meet you?"

Jessica pulled out her phone and gave it to Alaska, indicating for her to read the messages.

Cam babe, are you okay?

i sorry babygirl i love u so much

Babe, are you drunk?

no no me no drunk
me is csmeon

Can I pick you up? Please tell me where are you at

i miss you babyface
I love u i love u i lpve q

i miss everytjjhing abiuy u

"And he wouldn't stop talking about you when I came to pick him up." Jessica breathed out a sigh." Everything he ever said was 'I miss you' and 'I love you'. You know about his alcohol addiction, why did you do this to him?"

Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Exhale. Inhale. Breathe. Breathe.

Don't let her get to you.

"Jessica, there are things that are better left unspoken. Just because I didn't show you what I was going through doesn't mean I didn't suffer. It's not your damn business, and stop making me feel guilty about something I didn't intend to make it happen."

Did she know about all the tears and suffering Alaska went through? Did she know how Cameron made her insecure? Or how she always slept with tears streaming down her face? Did she know Cameron had cheated on her? More than once? Oh wait, she was one of the girls he had cheated at her with. Did she know how many times my heart got broken by the same boy? Or is she just too busy blaming all the things on me?

Did she know how much Cameron meant to me? Did she know Cameron was my only family? Did she know Cameron meant to the whole world to me?

Alaska was ready to leave, she held her phone tightly and hurriedly stood up, but this question made her stop and made her blood boil with indignation.

"Why are you so fucking selfish? You already have hurt him enough."

Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale.

"Jessica, stop trying to make me feel guilty because Cameron's actions are the reason why he's now like this." Alaska found the situation hilarious, very hilarious. "They say you make the bed, you lie in it."

"But he needs you!" Jessica tried to argue, ignoring the voice of her subconscious. Stop what you're doing, girl. She doesn't deserve this. Stop it. Stop. You're better than this. Don't do this to her.

"I did at some point too." Alaska confessed, taking a deep breath." Jessica, stop acting like he hadn't cheated on me with you and God knows who. I'm sick of waiting and forgiving. I'm sick of it all."

"I was stupid to even consider talking to you. Here I am begging you to help Cameron, but you're selfish and blinded by your own desires. I gave up on my love to help him yet you can't lower your nose to talk to him." Stop, she doesn't deserve this. Stop. Stop. Stop. You're better than this. Stop. Don't continue. Stop. Don't do this. Stop. Stop.

But Jessica didn't listen to the low whispers of her subconscious. She never does anyway.

Alaska tried to ignore the pit guiltiness that was forming and masked it was a smile instead. "Did you wake up with an amnesia? Last time I checked I wasn't the one who cheated. 

Alaska was too naïve to see the monster right in front of her.

××

"Where were you?!" The mother's voice rang sharp with a volume of range that surprised even her.

She winced at the horrible sound. "It's none of your goddamn business." Alaska replied, avoiding her penetrating gaze. She tried to ignore the feelings ricocheting inside her. She hated all of this; her mixed emotions, her mother, her ex, his ex. She wanted this to end.

The mother wasn't satisfied by her answer and took a step forward. She grabbed Alaska's arm harshly and dug her sharp nails into her skin as hard as she could, leaving small scars in result. Alaska hissed in pain and tried to push her hand away, but her mother dug her nails deeper.

"I ask you a question, you answer. Is that clear? And when I tell you no going out, you fucking listen. When I call you, you fucking answer. " She emphasized every word, her voice low and even. "You fucking understand?"

I need to get the hell out of here. Alaska quickly nodded, her heart beats faster with trepidation.

I need to escape again. 

Thank you @raindropsandunicorns for always reminding me to update and for being an amazing reader.