BEFORE 86 DAYS

Alaska spent the whole two weeks locked up in her room, too much of a coward to face her reality. Thoughts like 'Am I not good enough for him' and 'Am I just a game to him' collided through her mind. She felt useless. Hopeless. And almost lifeless. What have you done to me, Cameron?

Alaska clicked on the picture that was in front of her; her hands shaking as a sign of nervousness, biting on her lower lips in great anger. It was a picture of him. She had completely ignored her phone the last two weeks, but she felt a sudden urge to check up on his health. Does he feel guilty? Does he miss me? Am I ever going to overcome this harsh truth?

She might sound like a bitter person to some; truth was, Cameron was her only family. Whenever her mother returned back home with man, she'd talk to Cameron until she fell asleep, their screams echoing through her ears like a bad music. And sometimes, he'd sneak in just to be right there beside her. He's gone now. All her dreams were now crushed, turned into a speck of dust.

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It was exactly two weeks ago. Cameron looked lifeless, his eyes held the amount of sadness she'd seen when he first cheated on her, she felt her heart sink as she clicked on the next picture. He had a small smile on his face as he glaced at the camera; puffy eyes proving the countless sleepless nights, he had a bit of a haggard look with bags that lingered under his eyes.

What have you done, Cameron? What have I done to make you feel the need to seek other girls' warm hands? We could've been better---- not perfect---- we could've completed our broken pieces together.

Alaska straightened her position, biting her lips to prevent her tears; she began typing.

She wasn't perfect. For him, she was a crushed angel, a soul to seek, warm hands around him, sweet kisses to fulfill his desires. For her, he was her moon, her stars, her love and mostly her home.

She stared at the poisoned drink for a second, debating whether to drink it or not; she heard his sharp screams, his body was disappearing like a speck of dust. Within a heartbeat, she drank it and suddenly felt her throat tightened.

She was gone. .

She died to keep him alive.

Alaska shook her head, sighing as she saved her latest drafts. She should be smarter, she should be braver than this, she should get over him. She should but she couldn't. He was hers. Her Cameron. He was her favourite. Her favourite smile. Her favourite laughter. He was her everything.

But he crashed her heart. Ruined her. Damaged her all apart.

7 CUPS OF TEA

HEROJEI
Hello! Welcome to 7 cups of tea. How can I help you? I'm Jei, by the way.

SHEFELLASLEEP
Uh hi. Thank you...

[Alaska took a deep breath, rubbing her hands nervously.]

HEROJEI
Are you feeling okay, dear anónimos?

SHEFELASLEEP
I've broken up with my boyfriend for 2 weeks. I feel so broken and uncompleted. What do I do?

HEROJEI
Why do you feel that way?
What did he do to you that
made you feel uncompleted
without him?

SHEFELASLEEP
He slept me with me

HEROJEI

Um, it got hot here

[Alaska mentally facepalmed, a blush forming onto her cheeks.]

SHEFELASLEEP
I don't mean it that way!
I meant he slept next to me
like cuddling, just cuddling...

HEROJEI
Oh...
And what happened? What was the problem in your relationship?

SHEFELLASLEEP
He cheated a lot.
And I kept forgiving him
But I'm fed up
So I decided to break up
I hate him
He makes me feel so sad

[Alaska bit her lip, regretting sending the messages. He wasn't even worth her time. She should go out with her non existent friends or kiss her non existent rebound. She should even try experimenting, boys suck anyway!]

{PLEASE PLEASE DON'T GET OFFENDED. PEOPLE NOWADAYS GET OFFENDED OVER ANYTHING. STOP RIGHT HERE. STOP TYPİNG. I CAN SEE YOU!}

HEROJEI
And how do you feel about that?

SHEFELASLEEP
I hate him

HEROJEI
And if he were to come back to you, beg on his knees, kiss you, hold your cheek. Would you take him back?

SHEFELASLEEP
He already did that. And
here am I

HEROJEI
Do you have trust issues?

SHEFELLASLEEP
He fucking cheated
what do you expect

HEROJEI
Do you think he was sincere?

SHEFELLASLEEP
Yes.

HEROJEI
Do you think he's still in love with you?

SHEFELASLEEP
Yes.

HEROJEI
Did he apologize?

SHEFELLASLEEP
Yes.

HEROJEI
Did he keep on apologizing everytime he cheated?

SHEFELLASLEEP
Yes.

HEROJEI
Is he feeling the same as you are?

[Alaska thought for a moment, she remembered the picture she saw earlier.]

SHEFELLASLEEP
Yes.

HEROJEI
Was your life better with him? Or do you think he was just as the rest?

SHEFELLASLEEP
It was hell without him
He made me feel better

HEROJEI
Why did he break up with you?

SHEFELLASLEEP
I broke up with him, I
mentioned that earlier

HEROJEI is typing

As Alaska waited for the reply, she heard a buzz indicating she had a message.

We need to talk.

It wasn't Cameron.

It was his ex girlfriend.

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