mark lee was doing terrible things to me, making me feel like i could be in love with him. how does love even feel? of course there's motherly love, the love you feel when you get a good night kiss on the forehead, or when you don't feel so stressed after a calm talk.

there's the love you feel for a brother, the kind that makes you want to hit them but they'll forever know just what they mean to you. or a sister, who can never really make you angry, even though that's what you tell her. there's even the love you feel for a friend, indebted forever for being able to share secrets and keep them for a millions year on.

but what was love for another person you'd never really be able to speak it, in the fears of it coming back to get you? was it thinking forever that no one else will be able to make you feel this way? or can you never truly just love one person?

he made my emotions so strong that just sitting in front of him, gummy bears shoved down my throat, made my heart skip seven beats every time he smiled.

"well what's your worst subject in geometry?" he asked me, playing with the straw in his hands. my thoughts were running a mile a minute, and i was struggling to form a simple thought.

his voice made me jump, almost like i was scared of him. "umm, everything?" it was masked as a question with a light tone, but i was too embarrassed to admit that it was true.

"jisung, it's okay." his voice was so damn reassuring that i just had to believe it. it wasn't okay, i was stupid and i didn't deserve to be in that class in the first place. mark knew it, i knew it, hell, my parents knew it. i just got lucky last year so they pushed me ahead. "if you say so," i mumbled, looking away to hide my embarrassment.

i didn't deserve it, i really didn't. but the way mark looked at me, turning my face to his with his fingers hooked under my chin, i had no choice in not believing in myself.

all because of a brunette boy with chestnut eyes, who had the prettiest smile, and showed interest in me. all because of mark lee.

a/n- longerish chapter cuz i feel bad for waiting so long to publish this. i'm so sorry you guys :(