♯ CRUSH !
﹙ 9-1-1 ﹚
standalone novel © elfaouly
310324 ￫ TBA

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" And if I'm on fire / You'll be made of ashes too "
TAYLOR SWIFT, my tears ricochet.

When Sloane Hart joined the firefighter academy in Boston after barely graduating from high school, she was desperate to prove herself. Not only did she want to appease her very disappointed parents, who had wanted her to follow in their daunting law career-based footsteps, but she wanted to be living, breathing proof that women were just as capable of working in the male-dominated profession.

She never allowed the snide comments from her instructors and fellow students to weigh her down, powering through the extra exercises and obstacles placed in her way. She refused to allow them to make her a failure, another unsuccessful statistic.

The smirk she wore on her face as she accepted her certificate as the top student in her class at the graduating ceremony was unmovable, even after she eventually realized her parents weren't in attendance.

Soon after leaving the academy, Sloane had been assigned to a nearby firehouse. The acting female Captain there made Sloane feel like she was making the change she wanted to, and the crew she worked with supported each other through everything. They had become what resembled a family to her, filling the hole in her heart that her distant parents had left.

Sloane quickly realized how delicate the balance of life and death was once she started to take on real-world situations rather than the scripted training scenarios. One mistake, one deviance from a person's typical routine, one cruel act of God. Just one push of the scales could cause the once-thrumming pulse of blood through someone's veins to cease.

Too many times had she been victim to watching the life drain out of a patient's face. The unsuccessful calls started to taint her sleep. Her Captain explained that everyone found unique ways to cope, and eventually, Sloane found hers too. Soon, she was sleeping through the night again and taking on calls with a new energy, throwing herself into situations she never would have before to save more lives.

But, when the balanced scales eventually tipped on Sloane's own life with a single mistake, she fled from those same people she had once considered her family. Embarrassment and guilt chased her to the West Coast, yet a mournful understanding fashioned into a shining recommendation for hire from her former Captain led her to apply to the LAFD.

The desperation she once felt to prove herself during her time in the academy had only started to rear its ugly head again.

But, this time, she wouldn't fail.

Miranda Rae Mayo ,
SLOANE HART

Oliver Stark ,
EVAN 'BUCK' BUCKLEY

Simone Kessell  /  CAMILLE ADLER
Barry Sloane  /  JOSEPH BUCKLEY
Melissa O'Neil  /  OFFICER CLAIRE SONG
Krysten Ritter  /  MAREN FISCHER
Hamish Linklater  /  FATHER SIMON MILLER
Jaina Lee Ortiz  /  CAPTAIN HELENA CRUZ
Avan Jogia  /  DEVIN PAREKH †
9-1-1 Cast  /  THEIR CHARACTERS

♯ ALL RIGHTS RESERVED !
this work is a work of fanfiction set in and using established characters from 9-1-1 which is owned by the american broadcasting company (rip fox), ryan murphy, brad falchuk, and tim minear. i, however, do own the character of sloane hart and those in the listed supporting cast above, as well as any unrecognizable characters, settings, and plot lines. any canon divergence is owned by me. plagiarism is not tolerated.

♯ AUTHOR'S NOTE !

oh, hi. yeah, i'm back. i feel like absolutely nobody should be surprised by this. got this weird gravitational pull towards writing fanfictions for traumatized fictional men... on that note, welcome to crush! this is my baby that i have conceived from a random fic idea i wrote down back in 2022 at the peak of my 9-1-1 obsession that has been tweaked (read: overhauled) into this angsty, will they-won't they, traumatizing mess i'm about to share with you all.

while this book does have a focus on the relationship between sloane hart and evan buckley (fondly called hartley by nobody but myself and the voices in my head), it will not be an explicitly romantic story. i can't say much more without giving away major act one spoilers but there is a very large focus on sloane herself and the reason she left boston alongside the on again off again relationship she has with buck. and as a disclaimer, if you're expecting hartley endgame, you probably won't get it. surprise!! but, with the most recent season of the show finally opening up the topic of buck's sexuality, i cannot deny that i have been an incurable buddie shipper for years (hint hint).

content warning !     violence, blood/gore, alcohol and drug addiction, mentions and depictions of mental illness, sexual themes, mentions of sexual assault, pregnancy/birth, death, mentions of homophobia and sexism, and other heavy topics that are seen throughout the show. if any of these make you uncomfortable or upset, please do not continue reading from this point. prioritize yourself and your mental health first.

first and foremost, as most of my works are, this is dedicated to bayports. summers, my love, you have been nothing but patient and supportive of everything i do and i am so lucky to call you my best friend. words seem to never be enough to show you my appreciation. i love you forever 🪡.  they have also been so generous in creating the beautiful cover you see every time you open up this fic and i cannot thank them enough for it.

i would also like to dedicate this fanfiction to sunfyres (crush's baby daddy), girlpools, austrxlians, morghuls, seasmokes, and okaywickersham, all of who have been constant victims to the lore dropping, graphic dumping, and yet, so encouraging since the conception of this idea a couple of months ago now. and finally, to those who have been so supportive of this idea with every type of posting i've done about it: tearsricochets, nightwvngs, sanktham, and luckyvirgo. i am so grateful for your love (even if i don't think i deserve it). i love you all so much.